As I look at her laying on top of , I get more irritated rather than aroused. I can understand her not believing , but why would she try to actively tempt like this? To essentially push through her own assumptions and force it to happen.
As I think through it a bit more, though, I realize I shouldnt be getting irritated about this.
Shes been through a lot over her life.
I have no idea the number of tis that shes been betrayed by people. How the slippery slope with their father transpired. All shes told is that her father was first reminded of her by her mother. And that he essentially started treating her more and more differently. With a clear separate intent than one a father might have with their daughter.
Those types of things leave a serious effect on the person. This might be her way of making sure that Im not just playing her. Which ans, in order to help convince her, I need to show no real interest in her.
Actually, that might do the opposite. She might assu, like before, that I just dont have any interest in her because shes not attractive. Which can be its own rabbit hole.
I think what she needs is genuine care. From soone who actually cares, that isnt a woman or soone with sothing to gain. One that will show it in a right and proper way, over a long period of ti. Not as a lust filled man.
With this in mind, I slowly roll her off, ignoring the lingering feeling of her on . Covering up the lights around the room with the web flaps, I say to her, if youd like to sleep in the bed, go ahead. Ill sleep on the floor over here, so that you dont need to worry about doing anything.
As I rolled her off of , she seed simultaneously relieved and annoyed at my action. As she listened to , after my last words ca up, her eyes widened and her jaw drops.
She says, Wait, why are you sleeping on the floor? This is your room. Are you going to just let sleep in your bed? Arent you letting eat at and you drinking soup?
Uh sure? If I spend the night on the floor, there will be less chance for you being able to entice , than if I decided to stay in the bed with you.
Fine, then. But, why not just tell to leave? This is your room, after all.
Ah. Shes right. That is actually is quite a good point.
I guess I let all those movies allow to think that was the only option I could use when having a woman stay over.
Oh. Alright then. Could you leave my room then?
No.
No?
No.
Wait, but I thought Didnt you just say?
Well, yeah. This and that are two separate things. It makes wonder why you let people push you around like that. Do you have no concept of face? Its not just now that you let people tell you what to do, but multiple tis. Ive seen you cave into what we or other people may say, really easily. Sotis, you even apologize to others for sothing theyve done.
Before, I thought that was you just being strategic about your words hoping to currying favor. Now? I think thats just sothing you do.
She raises a good point.
I havent forgotten it, but this culture greatly differs from mine. The things that I typically do really are seen as weird or different. Though, the concept of face isnt unique to this world. It was also seen in so of the Asian countries as well, which shows so commonality.
Look, I understand the concept of faces I think. I just rarely value it as much as maintaining a relationship with the person or building sothing deeper.
She sighs.
Then, thats sothing were going to train you on. There are tis and places to do so. But, you constantly do so. If that is your standard, no one will take you seriously. Like the fact that you smile so much. After a bit, people will wonder if you are daft or just dont care about anyone more.
Theres no way that youll do well in the sect, no matter how strong you are, if you dont figure that out. Most cultivators prove their worth through both their words and their actions. By being bold, yet cautious. With your approach, people will think you are pretending to be a pig, to eat a tiger. At worst? Theyll assu you are actually weak and stupid. And challenge you for easy benefits or laughs.
Ironically enough, shes saying all this while laying on her side facing naked. And even though I am in a certain state of mind, my eyes started to drift down to the large mounds on her chest. Then to the curves of her hips.
Fuck. Im ssing up.
Since I clearly dont have the maturity to keep my eyes on her face, I need to keep my eyes looking away from her as we talk.
She seed to have noticed my previous glance and was emphasizing her assets as she spoke. In the corner of my eye, I can see that she is creeping closer and closer. Admittedly, she is being subtle about it. Its just a lot easier for to tell, with my scan on.
Even I sotis wonder if you are as strong as you seem. It seems as if you arent even able to keep the promises you make to yourself, let alone us.
Shes on the edge of the bed. Now, sitting up straight and staring right at .
So, why should I trust what you say?
I cant really say much to that. But I have to say sothing, shes
She interrupts my thoughts, rapid fire.
In fact, since the ti weve t you, youve continuously gone out and healed people despite the fact that weve told you that its a bad idea. You yourself, have said you wont and youll avoid doing so in the future.
Youve also used your taming powers, near continuously, in front of other people. Which, even though it turned alright, required movents by Gong in the background to make up for it. Thats not even including what Big Sis Crane has done.
I cant say anything to that. My lips tighten and I feel myself naturally looking to the side. Its hard to look her in the eyes.
Ive been putting them in consistent danger with my actions. Even with the latest thing, I let my emotions take control of .
Gong may have let go along with it, out of guilt for what Ive already done for her. But I was Im being foolish.
The hits dont stop from Ai, as she goes even further.
Clearly, you dont seem to understand that its not only the fact that you might have sex with other won and get manipulated, that makes us feel like we I feel the need to do this.
I really find it hard to believe that we can trust you to keep us safe. Or to be more specific, to not pull us into deeper trouble than we already are in.
And, Im not stupid. I know youre trying to avoid having sex with , because you feel guilty of what I went through with Old Rong. Its clear that you know Im trying to seduce you, even if you might be attracted to .
Wait, what? Is she just going to say that out loud? I suppose this makes things easier, but is that really okay to say for the one trying to seduce?
Dont look so surprised. Do you really think youre the first person whos co near us with seemingly good intentions? Feeling guilty about being attracted to ? No, dont be foolish.
Her arms cross as she looks to the side. Eyes toward the corner, facing the ground.
In the end, they all end up betraying and hurting us. So, I use what I can from them and prepare for the worst.
She shakes her head and pauses. Which leads into a sigh, gathering my attention back to her grey eyes.
With that said, you are actually the first one, to have sincerely helped us. Not only that, but Lin trusts you. Well, at least not to try to purposely betray us.
So, normally I wouldnt tell you shit and just try to make you do what we want, my way. But Im going to make this simple for you
She pauses, but looks pretty serious. At the silence between her words, I cant help but take a deep breath.
It looks I will have to hear this out if I want to actually fix this relationship.
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