"You have received a lot of things from the floor below, so I guess it won't be fair if I don't give you sothing, too. As for what I will give you… I will unlock your emotions… your emotion of Sadness."
With my eyes wide open, I just kept looking at her for the next few monts. Words failed to co out of my mouth and I saw her moving towards .
She was smiling, but it was a smile of grief… I saw her trembling a little before she reached closer to and touched my cheeks gently with her hands.
Her eyes were shaking and silent, then she muttered," Using the remnant power of the Forr Fragnt of Space… I unlock your emotion of Sadness.."
And then…
-AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It hurts… not just my brain… not just my head… it was deep inside my heart… it was emotionally draining for … I felt like dying, killing myself… I felt like I had lost everything in my life.
The ti my best friend died… that ti Elle died… that ti Lucia betrayed … that ti Lucas defeated … I should have done sothing… I should have said sothing… I should-
She hugged … Ziana hugged … tears were falling from my eyes and I couldn't control them… I felt like breaking from the inside.. How many tis had I lost people that I SHOULD HAVE SAVED!!!!
I hugged Ziana back tightly and started crying like a baby… everything hit at once… I don't know if my brain can take it or not..
"Rejection Fragnt: I reject-" I was about to reject all these emotions, but Ziana stopped . She placed her hands on my mouth shushing and slowly spoke as she looked at with an emotional face,
"It is all right. Take it in… feel it… don't reject your own emotions… accept it… ****... I trust you… I believe if it is you, then you can do it…"
While I was the one who was feeling all the pain, she looked at as if she were equally damaged emotionally. I looked at her for a few monts and nodded with a teary face as I was still crying…
"But.. but… but… they died… I could have saved them… I should have been the one that had died-"
"Hey… you got the chance to save everyone again, don't you? Trust love, I will be there with you helping you out until you take control over your sadness," she spoke as she looked at with a slight smile, but the tears on my face that kept running down made her heart ache.
Continuously wiping my tears, I cried like a baby as I tried my best to speak,"I… will save them… I will save everyone… for what the Parasites have done… I will make them pay… I will…. I will… Awaah!!!!!!"
It was hard… I felt like I had lost everything at once…. All this ti I felt like I was emotionless… all this ti, whenever I lost soone… It didn't hurt, but… now it was coming back… all of it… at once.
From the ti where I couldn't save Clair to the ti where I committed suicide and let myself die… It hurts… I want to go back and save everyone… undo the mistakes that I had already made…
"But… but… they hate … I can't… I can't bear to face them… I betrayed them… I killed millions…just why did I do that? What exactly made a monster like that… just why?!!!!! AAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!" I wasn't a white paper or saviour of humanity…
I have killed thousands of people… I had betrayed hundreds of people… I wanted to die… I wanted to die… I felt like a pathetic piece of sh*t…
Ziana was there, gently patting my back as she hugged tightly. Perhaps because she was there, I was able to control myself a little… though not being able to take anymore; I lost my consciousness…
I had a dream…. I killed those I had saved in this tiline too… Everyone was dead…
And then I woke up again…
"AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!" I shouted as I woke up before looking at the surrounding garden. Ziana was still there looking at , trying to help out, but looking at her, I recalled all the mories… Everything ca back… and once again… It started hurting…
My brain was getting dizzy… I started crying again… I was shouting again… it was aching all over my body…
"It's okay… it is decades worth of pain… it's going to take so ti to sink in…" Ziana spoke as she looked at before I nodded at her with a tear filled fear stricken face…
And then.. I lost my consciousness again…
The nightmare ca again…
I woke up again…
I cried again…
I lost consciousness again…
After an unknown amount of ti, when I started gaining my sanity back as I fought with my own demons… as I kept trying and trying… as I accepted my own faults… I let it all sink in…
I felt like a pathetic doll that had broken down into pieces… but I was alive… I was still living…
"You look much better than before… would you like to eat sothing? I made it with my own hands," Ziana spoke with a calm smile as she looked at . She was there with from the start to the end… she helped every ti I was trying to kill myself… made feel better when I felt as low as it's possible.
She was there to pull out of the darkness every ti I felt that I was lost.
I saw the food she prepared but honestly, my appetite was dead… I felt like hurting myself more… however she patted my head a little before running her fingers through my hair.
"Open your mouth ****," she spoke, and I then opened my mouth and she fed with her other hand as if a mother helping her child eat.
I ate the portions of food she was giving with a slight relief on my face… it was delicious… it had a feeling that I have never felt. It made feel like I was sitting in a warm ho where I belonged…
Even though I felt like a rag doll a few days before… I was much better now with a bit of my emotions becoming normal
"Ziana… who are you… if you don't mind asking… who are you to ?" I asked in a dry voice as I looked at her with a slightly curious expression.
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