After realizing sothing, Si Chengyou fell silent.
In all his years of living, this was the first ti he felt chilled to the heart about his own actions.
True chilliness of heart was not yelling and shouting, and true disappointnt was not tearing up. It was curt words and cold gazes. Si Chengyou realized he was a scumbag.
The reasoning for this conclusion was simple.
It was known that the photo was taken on Shen Yue's 18th birthday, under the condition of a punishnt ga that "forced" Si Chengyou to hand feed Shen Yue a al.
He was not a masochist, nor did he have that kind of preference. He would not fall in love with soone just because he fed them a al, otherwise he would have fallen in love with countless people during his ti volunteering.
He was extrely rational, with mories constantly reminding him of what this world was like, to the point where he had never fancied there would be a day when soone could accompany him for the rest of his life.
He would not lust after a woman at first sight.
So in the photo, the love in his eyes for Shen Yue was not a sudden throb that arose in an instant, but an outpouring of long pent-up emotions.
It just so happened that the mont of outpouring was captured on cara.
And now, the photo that just so happened to be taken had beco a pair of big hands that tore away the fig leaf Si Chengyou had always used to cover his heart, peeling away and laying bare his feelings before his eyes, layer by layer.
It brightly told him-
Si Chengyou had harbored intentions towards Shen Yue for a long ti.
Si Chengyou covered his face with his hand and heaved a deep sigh. For the first ti, he felt chilled to the heart about his own actions.
To harbor feelings for an underage girl... he was such a scumbag!
Luckily, luckily he hadn't done anything to put Shen Yue in an awkward position.
Wait, an awkward position...
The photo was sent by Shen Yue, aning Shen Yue knew about his feelings.
Shen Yue might be distressed about how to reject him, now that she knew.
Si Chengyou knew his own family background was rather special, and Shen Yue's third brother was even his own subordinate. His feelings would definitely put pressure on Shen Yue.
This was probably the reason Shen Yue didn't want to et him today. She hadn't figured out how to reject him yet.
The more Si Chengyou thought about it, the more he felt he had guessed right. Sitting alone at his desk, he sighed again and again, as if letting out all the air in his life today.
His ultimate question for thought was, how could he make sure his feelings didn't beco a burden for Shen Yue?
He was 23 this year. Adding in the mories from his past lives, even if those were just mories, he was not simply a hot-blooded 23 year old youth. He would subconsciously consider many things.
Shen Yue was only 18.
No matter what she did before regaining her mories, in Si Chengyou's eyes, Shen Yue was now just a simple 18 year old girl. She had countless dazzling futures she could choose from.
Whether Si Chengyou was part of Shen Yue's future or not was up to her choice. He would accept whichever she chose.
After all... harboring feelings for an underage girl was just too scummy of him.
Si Chengyou sank once more into endless self-doubt and self-bla.
Until that night when he lay in bed and looked at the plush Ultraman doll Shen Yue had gifted him, placed by his pillow, he suddenly felt so relief.
Was it so unforgivably wrong for him to fall in love with his own hero? Must he feel guilty like a criminal?
Si Chengyou hugged the plush doll and gradually cald down.
Then, he understood the answer.
It wasn't unforgivably wrong, it was only natural.
...
Soon, it was ti for their arranged eting.
During those days, Si Chengyou had thoroughly analyzed himself and understood his feelings. Shen Yue had thoroughly enjoyed eating, drinking, and playing while recording a food map.
Their eting location was at Shen Yue's school.
Actually, their original eting location wasn't here, but sowhere more secluded and elegant. But Shen Yue had called last minute saying she had to help Shen Hui deal with so interpersonal issues and couldn't get away, so Si Chengyou ca here instead.
He had a premonition that this matter could be delayed no longer.
Luckily, Shen Yue didn't stop him from coming.
This was Si Chengyou's first ti coming to Shen Yue's school. The ti was afternoon now, and students walked about in twos and threes, preparing to go to class. The entire campus was suffused with the aura of youth.
Si Chengyou felt sowhat emotional. In his previous layers of mories, he had also experienced such tis, but later they were gone.
Shen Yue had sent him her location. She was still in the classroom building. Si Chengyou tactfully didn't feel it was suitable to disturb her now, so he stood outside the building waiting for Shen Yue to co out.
However, Si Chengyou gradually noticed more and more people appearing around him.
Was class over?
Si Chengyou observed his surroundings and realized that wasn't it. The flow of these students wasn't large. It seed they were all squeezing over here instead.
Si Chengyou understood. He prepared to find a chance to change locations. If he caused a disturbance at the school it would be troubleso.
Just as Si Chengyou was about to leave, a girl who looked very prim and proper beside him shyly passed a note to Si Chengyou. "Hello, can I get your contact info?"
At this ti, Si Chengyou's face was expressionless, and his aura was also very sharp, sowhat like an army officer training recruits. This was also why so many girls were around but not daring to approach.
In fact, this lone girl who had appeared was pushed out by her classmates. Facing Si Chengyou directly, she felt great pressure.
She even felt a little scared.
But...
This man was so handso! Even more handso up close!
"No."
The girl was rejected but didn't feel sad. She imdiately ran back to the crowd and hugged her friends, squealing, "Ahhhhh even his voice is nice!!"
Si Chengyou: ...
He didn't quite understand young girls these days.
Luckily, Shen Yue noticed the commotion upstairs and ca down quickly. She stood not far from Si Chengyou and waved to him. "Si Chengyou."
Shen Yue's voice wasn't loud, but Si Chengyou heard it imdiately and walked over to her.
In school, Shen Hui was an influential figure, extrely clever and didn't give anyone face.
As her older sister, Shen Yue was the only one who could mollify Shen Hui and was also very noticed.
Now, seeing the top quality handso guy who had just been surrounded go towards Shen Yue, the college students watched even more eagerly.
Beauties? They loved watching.
Handso guys? They loved watching.
A handso guy and beauty together? Also loved watching.
They were omnivores who ship everything for nutritional balance.
Si Chengyou noticed the surrounding gazes and discreetly shielded most of Shen Yue from view, asking her, "Do you have anything else to do?"
Shen Yue understood Si Chengyou's aning and shook her head. "No. Can we still make it to the place you picked now?"
Si Chengyou was briefly stunned before nodding.
Shen Yue looked again at the onlookers eagerly waiting for drama beside her and recalled Si Chengyou being surrounded just now. She asked, "Startled?"
Si Chengyou was most adept at enduring other's gazes. How could he be startled by petty kids like this? Even if the him from before could be startled, he was completely unaffected now.
But for so reason, after Shen Yue asked this, Si Chengyou lied, "Yes, a bit."
Sure enough, Shen Yue's voice grew a bit more gentle. "It's fine, this is normal. College students are all like this."
Si Chengyou nodded, feeling wonderful inside. Shen Yue's way of comforting people was so uniquely thoughtful.
He liked it.
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