His eyes widened when he heard those words from her. It seems like there is more to this than the rumors he heard on the net.
"From now on, I will continue treading on this dangerous line. I will continue getting involved. I may be the center to all of this. So I have to remain strong if I break down and falter even once people will take advantage of that."
"It's okay for you to break down, especially in the face of malicious rumors intending to break you down."
Sumire shook her head, and weak laughter escaped her lips. "I have to stay strong."
"But Sumire---"
"Please let be stubborn. Yuhi-san, I genuinely appreciate your efforts, but this is the type of person I am. Ever since I was a child, negativity surrounded . I was a problematic child. But more importantly, I noticed it. There is sothing wrong with . I don't understand. I don't understand how humans think. Ah, this feeling is familiar, isn't it? No matter how much Yozo tried, he still couldn't understand humanity, and he couldn't find anybody who understood him."
"Sumire-" His sentence fell short when she slumped her head on his chest.
"So what Im trying to get here is that if I beco a monster Yuhi-san, you can abandon . I am already used to people leaving , so it will not make a difference if you leave too. At the end of the day, what you see is a lie. I don't know what you think of , but I never saw myself as a good person. This wretched and vile existence is . I am rotten to the core."
He didn't realize it was this bad before. Self-loathing? She just needs a bit of love to heal? No, that won't do. It won't do at all. What Sumire needs right now, perhaps he cannot give it to her because he loves her too much.
Sumire lifted her head and walked over to the piano. Her fingers lingered on the keys for a mont before she sat down on the stool. Yuhi continued to watch her expression, but he could not understand what she thought.
The current Sumire is-- his eyes widened when he hears the lody that surrounded the room. What song is this? Yuhi did not recognize the lody. It was not any of her songs or any of his. Nor was it a famous song. But he can feel it, her sadness and pain. All of it is mixing into one.
What can he do for her? Sotis Yuhi felt he wasn't doing anything to help her properly. She is in so much pain, and yet all he can do is stand by and watch.
Sumire rested her head in his shoulders, and Yuhi paused. "You're ssing with too much."
Soft laughter escaped her lips. "It is rare for to get the upper hand."
He wanted to ask her more about what she just said. But even if he asked, Yuhi understood that the topic is over now. She won't say any more than this. He parted her hair with his hands affectionately, and she laughed more.
"I feel like your treasuring too much. Yuhi-san should know how many people I ssed with to get to where I am now."
"Your point is?"
"You're allowing a woman like to take advantage of you. Well, I guess geniuses aren't geniuses when it cos to love."
"Were you this hard to handle when you were dating Mamoru?"
Sumire blinked. "Well, I suppose so.."
"You should have said no," Yuhi mumbled. "I would like to be the one who sees you like this." Even though she is ssing with him, at least it is him and not so other guy.
"What a strange fetish...Say," Sumire leaned closer. "Yuhi-san, how do you do it?"
"Huh?"
"You're as bad as , but everybody thinks your a good guy."
At that comnt, his eyes twitched, annoyed. "You keep insulting since we t again. But did I do sothing bad to you?" Indeed he was not a good person, but does she have to keep repeating it?
"Well, if I don't convince myself that you're a bad person when other girls flock to you, I won't be able to push them away."
What sort of strange logic is that? Yuhi sighed and flicked her forehead. "Should I say that back at you? How is Sano lately?"
Sumire rolled her eyes. "That person is quite recently."
Quiet Sano?
"Other than a few text ssages, he does not co onto as much as before."
Yuhi raised his eyebrows at that comnt. Now that is suspicious.
Sumire leaned forward. "So, the only problem is you talking to other girls."
"I will behave," Yuhi mumbled. "But could you reward ?"
She lightly kissed him. "Okay, I will." Sumire remained close to him for a mont before she pulled her bag out. "I know it is early, but why don't we eat sothing."
Yuhi nodded.
Has he beco soft? He probably has. When he first heard that she was coming here, Yuhi did not think that she would bother him. He did not think she would give him the ti of day. After all, she rejected him so strongly the last ti they t.
"Say, why did you change your mind?" Yuhi decided to just ask her.
"Change my mind?"
"You said that ti that you wouldn't talk to anymore."
Sumire paused and nodded. "That's right. I said sothing like that, didn't I?" She trailed off. "But you know how I was Yuhi-san. After the accident I isolated myself. I felt the most alone and pain during that ti. However, the letters you sent through those books saved . I thought if it was you, then maybe I could return to being normal."
"Normal?"
"Mm, not a ss of emotions nor a crazy woman self-harming, even if I dieIt'sts not like I will see him again."
Yuhi could no longer take it and pulled her into his arms. "Tell what you want to do, Sumire, please." His voice wavered. "I can't see you act this way. Your hurt and in so much pain, but what can I do for you?"
What can he do, so she smiles again? So she stops saying such things?
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