??? POV III 1/2
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After two days of preparing behind my parent's backs, I finally am ready…
I packed a few things inside a leather bag, which I wrapped around my body…
It is deep in the night and they are sleeping soundly.
Through these last two nights, I have been having the sa nightmare as before.
But it keeps getting even worse.
Why?
Why did this thing co to my second life?
How can it even do such a thing? Wouldn't my soul co here?
Was that thing… parasitizing my very soul?
I am so scared of going outside…
I want to stay with papa and mama…
But I can't… bear to think that one day I will… I might… kill them…
I don't want this…
I don't want this… at all.
I have to run away…
I will… one day co back.
When… I am strong enough to not be taken over this power…
I promise…
As I glance back at my little house, tears begin to drip out of my eyes without realizing it.
As an Ice Giant, I am immune to cold and resistant to ice, so even by being in the middle of the icy night, I don't feel discomfort.
I pray to Ymir, as I begin slowly walking away.
Goodbye, mama, papa…
These last seven years… were the best years of my second life.
I will treasure you within my heart…
Goodbye, village…
Goodbye, friends…
Goodbye, neighbors…
I wish… that all of you can still be here when I co back one day…
I decide to stop glaring at the town, as I walk inside the Grand Pine Forest, a forest that covers many mountains above our town, it is said that deadly monsters crawl this place…
But there's no other place for a monster like to go to…
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It has been a week since I escaped.
All the food I packed is about to run out.
I am beginning to get hungry…
I have been eating things slowly, but due to being so big, my stomach is also big, and eating little does not satiate it…
Sotis I find a group of rabbits and manage to catch one, but the rest run away, and I can only secure a single al… I eat it raw because I don't know how to cook… nor how to make a fire in this place… Well, I was taught a bit... but I cant do it in the middle of a snowstorm...
I am tired… I have been walking for two days, sleeping here makes have nightmares that wolves will co to eat .
I always hear their howls… I am scared.
I don't want to die…
I have to survive… to go back to mama and papa one day…
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Ugh…
Hahh...
Hahhh…
It has been three weeks since I ran away from ho.
I miss my bed…
I miss Mama and papa…
I want to sleep in a warm bed and eat food with them.
To be happy and have my tummy filled…
It hurts…
Mama…
Papa…
Everything hurts.
My body aches and my head hurts.
I feel dizzy and weird…
I think I might be sick of sothing...
Ugh…
The last ti I have a al was three days ago when I caught another rabbit.
I have been eating bluegrass ever since, but it is weird and bitter, and it makes puke.
But it fills sotis.
I have been eating snow too.
But it makes my tummy feel weird.
I am tired and hungry…
My body hurts…
Where am I going?
I only know that I have to run away as far as possible.
I have nightmares every ti I sleep, so I try to sleep as little as possible.
But sotis I can't resist and sleep inside old and large trees that are empty inside.
I wish I could use magic… but every ti I try to cast sothing, the mold appears, and I am scared to touch it.
It is vicious, it seems to have a mind of its own…
It wants to eat and use as its vessel, as it used before.
I try to suppress it, but it is trying to eat from the inside out with those nightmares… it is trying to break my ntal fortitude, like in my previous life…
After living seven years of happiness, my mind is strong and has healed…
Every ti I am being consud by the darkness, I rember papa and mama, and I feel at ease…
I wonder how they are doing…
I hope they are not sad that I went away, it was for their own good…
Mama, papa…
I miss you…
I miss you so much…
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Haahh…
Ungh…
I think it has been over a month since I ran away… maybe more, I can't rember well…
Ti goes by strange…
I can't perceive things correctly.
I keep walking…
My boots are resistant, so I have not damaged my feet…
But I have not eaten at in over a week… only herbs and plants, and snow…
I feel weakened…
My limbs tremble each ti I walk, my legs are trembling and becoming weak.
My arms and legs look weak too… Hahh…
I want to survive… I have to keep… hunting for food.
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I think over three months had gone by, I have been walking deeper into the forest.
Sotis I begin to hallucinate, depriving myself of sleep is not good…
But I don't want to have nightmares…
I don't wanna…
No…
Sotis I feel like my entire body is giving up.
But when I think about Mama and Papa, a strange warmth enhances my legs, and I can keep walking…
I think I can use mana that way… but it is very hard… It doesn't obey , and it cos in and out.
And when I try to concentrate on it, the mold appears and scares …
I can't… use magic…
I am alone, with my weakened body left…
Am I going to die?
I don't… want to die…
If I was going to die anyways… Maybe I should have killed myself while sleeping in my bed, comfortable and in my ho… it would have been way better than dying here…
Hahh…
I want to live through…
I really don't want to live…
Mama, papa…
I wish you are okay…
Wherever you are…
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