Benladann POV
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My emotions are a turmoil. I don't know when I fell asleep, but it might have been a bit after sothing surged out from the ground.
Sothing… Big and made of tal…
It was strange… But Drake said it was a "ch" or sothing.
And when that voice… within this ch said sothing…
Sothing about…
Ah…
Ungh…
N-Now I rember…
My parents… are dead.
This reality hurts so much… I don't want to accept it. I don't really want to accept it…
Please, make it stop…
I don't want to…
No…
Mama… papa…
Why? Why did you have to die?
I should have never left…
Without you what will I do? Where will I go?
I miss them… I miss them so much…
Ah…
It feels as if I am about to be torn apart by the pain I feel, it feels like I want to kill myself, this pain is so big it makes want to go insane…
I don't want to live anymore… Without them I-
"Why are you getting like this now? After all that talk over that stupid dragon, now you're forgetting about him?"
Eh?
Dragon… Ah, Drake…
"Yeah, Drake. Did you forget about him? He beat to a pulp."
No… I could never… forget about him… I…
But… Hahh… My mind… my heart… my everything… it hurts so badly…
"I know how you feel. I can feel all your emotions, sister…"
Do you feel all my emotions? Yet… you made suffer so much before? Why? Why are you like this and why are you showing up now from all things? Only in my dreams…
What do you want now? To make feel even worse?
"I wanted to protect you, so I was willing to bear the pain…"
Why do you care?
Why are you here…
"I never disappeared… I was always here. I will always be here. I am… a part of you, your sister, Miranda…"
Call by my na! Call by the na that my parents gave !!!
"…Benladann."
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You said it…
"I did…"
Sigh…
"L-Look, I don't want to make you feel worse. I was just noticing how you were forgetting about the stupid dragon, so I reminded you of him for you…"
Yeah… I can see that…
I don't know why I forgot about him…
Ah… It must be because of the pain… So much pain…
This is perhaps an even worst pain…
"Hm… Pain… I am already used to it… Are you?"
…Maybe.
I feel… so strange.
Is this when you simply live with the pain?
Ah…
W-Wait…
Within my fuzzy mories… Drake… he… he helped put my parent's souls inside my weapons…
He did that… for …
He…
Ugh, I should stop being like this, I have to wake up, quickly…
I want to et him… I want to thank him for this too…
Drake…
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Miranda POV
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She left… I guess I am here once more…
Ti to… stare at the abyssal void.
Hahh…
I also feel bad, Benladann…
But I guess it is hard for you to relate to a monster like , right? Yeah, it is rather obvious…
I just… wanted to protect you back then…
Do you know? I was never taught a lot of stuff… I didn't know… that it hurt so much…
Maybe what I needed is sothing whose concept I didn't know…
But that thing is what the dragon taught … As I saw through your eyes how he took care of you…
I didn't understand at first why would he do this with a complete stranger.
But I… began to understand that he had sothing I lacked a lot.
Empathy.
Can I… develop empathy?
I think I am developing it slowly.
By just thinking about what I did… I can feel it within … It hurts a lot.
Is this the horrible pain I made you go through, Benladann?
I can tell…
Hahh… What have I done?
What am I anyway?
An alien? Benladann's soul? Her mind? A split personality?
What am I really?
Even after everything… I don't even understand it well.
I think that I might be her… but…
I just told her the truth, that I cannot go away from her…
But she repulses , I suppose it is fair after all I did… I am not even worth her ti.
Ah… But without her, what do I do? What am I even?
I have to do sothing… or simply… fall asleep for eternity?
Is this… what she wants?
Ah…
No…
Don't leave behind…
I also want to be with you, Benladann…
I also want to explore this world with you…
I am sorry… I just didn't know…
I… There are no excuses, I guess…
What can I do for her to know that I am sorry? I have to do sothing… Sothing that could help her…
But what can I even do? I am… sothing that only causes harm.
Without her… I am rely nothing… I am… just… empty.
I walk into the endless void… And continue walking, endlessly.
Until one day, I feel tired, and I rest in the darkness.
It feels… cold.
Will I be alone forever…?
What… do I do…?
I should really just die… right?
That would make her happy…
I just want her to be happy…
After all of this… she must be in so much pain…
I wish I could die… So I can make everyone happy at last…
So I won't be there to annoy everyone… And so I can… not annoy her new life.
I am just an annoying… thing.
I wish I could die… To disappear forever… and to be swallowed by the void.
But as much as I wish… I cannot disappear. And even when I want to sleep, I can't sleep either.
Let disappear…
Let die…
I don't want to exist anymore…
But why?!
Why can't I die?!
Let go away from her life!
Why…?
Why can't I?
What do I even do then…
Just let disappear…
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