Different Sex Story Chapter 566: All I Need Pt. 05

Anomic©

Author's Note:

All characters in this story are at least 18 years old. This story contains incest and graphic sexual activity, you have been forewarned.

This is Part Five of the story, All I Need, and picks up directly after the events in Part Four. I would encourage you to read the earlier parts of the story before reading this in order to understand what is going on.

Special thanks to cliffhangingtom for providing valuable feedback and encouragent. Constructive feedback is always appreciated. I enjoy reading what people think of my story and respond to all rational feedback.

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Part Five.

I sat on the bench outside of the hospital for a long while. I don't know if I was feeling shock, exhaustion, or just complete emotional devastation. Maybe I hurt so badly inside that my body shut down all feeling in response. I'm not sure. All I know is that I simply felt hollow. Hollow and numb.

It could have been all the goddamned painkillers they had given for all I knew.

Finally, I made myself get up and start walking, although I wasn't sure where I was going yet. I walked about twenty yards, into the park that was next door to the hospital, and fell to my knees at the base of a large tree. I suddenly broke out in a silent sob, ignoring the searing pain coming from the center of my face. There were no tears. I felt like my chest was caving in on nothing at all and I had trouble breathing. I briefly wondered if this was what a heart attack felt like, but felt no numbness in my arm. I had only heard about the numbness thing, and had no idea if it was accurate for diagnosing heart attacks. I later suspected that this might have been a panic attack.

I must have been a sight as I walked through the park. So guy with his face all bruised up from the broken nose, andering aimlessly across a public park in a blood stained shirt. I noticed more than one person staring at , not that I cared. I let out a dry, humorless chuckle when I reflected on the coincidence that I had left Amy's last boyfriend looking very much like I did now. Amy. I wanted to find Amy so badly. But they hadn't thrown her out. She still had sowhere to live. Maybe I should stay away for a while and give our father ti to cool down. I didn't want to make it worse for her.

By the ti dusk had arrived, I returned to my car and drove a while, finding myself standing in front of Dr. Miller's studio. I didn't know where else to go. If I went to one of my friends, I'd have to explain what had taken place. That was not sothing I could handle right now, and I had at least enough clarity to know that much. John may have let it go for a little while, but eventually he'd make it his life's work to get the story out of . g? Hell, no. That would cause more trouble than it would solve. I let myself in the studio and sat gingerly onto the sofa in the back of the room. The doctor had told my cracked ribs would hurt for weeks. Slouching on the sofa was out. Instead, I leaned back against an armrest carefully avoiding putting pressure on my kidney. I was under strict instruction to return to the hospital if I saw blood in my urine and to avoid putting unnecessary pressure on my left kidney where I had been kicked. Out of sheer exhaustion, I slipped into the fitful sleep of those who know, without question, that they will never be the sa again.

When I woke up, I saw Dr. Miller sitting at one of the tables with a cup of coffee. He heard stirring, and turned his head toward .

"What the hell happened to you, Adam?"

I hadn't thought this far ahead, and didn't know what to say. I looked down at the hospital bracelet still on my wrist.

"I was in an accident. I didn't know where else to go."

"You couldn't go ho?" He poured a second cup of coffee and slid it over to .

"I... can't go ho." I felt the brace on my nose shift as my face struggled to stay composed. "I don't have one anymore, I guess."

"I see." He sighed, and looked at sternly. "Are you in so kind of serious trouble? Legally, I an."

"I don't think so." I shook my head. "Not drugs or anything like that, if that's what you are asking."

"What kind of trouble are you in, then?" He looked down at the coffee in front of and back at .

"The kind that makes it were sothing as simple as a drug problem by comparison." I mumbled as I picked up the cup and took a sip. The brace kept shifting on my nose and was just too irritating. I pulled it off and dropped it on the table.

He smirked a little at that. "Good. You still have a bit of wise ass in you, at least."

"Dr. Miller, I don't know what to do. I feel like everything in my life has been ripped away from ." I surprised myself at how it felt to say that out loud. I sounded like a whining asshole. "And now I sound lodramatic. Crap."

"Call Jeff, Adam. This isn't about school right now, and we're friends, wouldn't you agree? When we aren't on campus, you don't need to call Dr. Miller."

"Okay."

"So tell what's going on, then. Be honest."

"I'm not sure I should tell you. I suppose there are so legal sides to it, but that's really really minor in the grand sche. It's heavy stuff. You will probably want to throw out of here if I tell you and I really don't want that."

"Try . You may be surprised." Dr. Miller took off his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose.

Fuck it. I needed to tell soone, I guess. "I fell in love with soone I shouldn't have. She's completely amazing. But the consequences of being with her have caught up with ."

I motioned to my face and lifted my shirt so that he could see the large discolored bruises along my rib cage. You could actually make out a shoe print in one of them.

"My father did this to . I haven't seen him since then. I probably deserved it. I've been disowned and I don't know where my sister is. I love her. We've been sleeping together for quite so ti. We overslept night before last and were caught. Fucking stupid mistake to make."

Silence.

"Yeah, I know. I'm fucked up in the head."

"I didn't say that." Dr. Miller replied. "How long was this going on before your father found out?"

"Almost a year, I guess. Maybe longer."

"Hmm... Okay." He slapped his hand on the table. "Becky, my wife, is on her way up here with so food. I called her when I found you asleep in here. We need to get you fed and cleaned up. But here is what I am thinking."

He paused to drink "I'll get her to stop by the house this afternoon and grab so blankets and a couple of pillows for you. You can stay here in the studio for a while. Until you get your feet under you, at least. There's a fridge, a stove, the bathroom. It's not really ant to be lived in, but it will do for now."

"Thanks, Jeff. This ans a lot." I replied with genuine gratitude. I looked around the place a mont. I could make do.

"Do you think your family will allow to go to your house and get so more of your things?"

"I have no idea. I don't know what will happen with them anymore. But, I have to talk to Amy."

"I highly doubt that will be a possibility right now." Dr. Miller gave a look. "Besides, you are in no condition to talk to her anyway. You need to get your head together first. And, to be honest, you'd probably scare her to death if she saw what you look like right now."

I hung my head in resignation. He was probably right.

Dr. Miller refilled his coffee and leaned against the counter, looking over.

"You aren't the first person to find themselves in this predicant, and you won't be the last. You'll get through it, and you'll find yourself a stronger person. I don't expect you'll believe that, though."

I definitely didn't feel very strong at the mont, and I wasn't very sure about getting through it, either. I nodded at him anyway, wishing it didn't hurt to breathe.

* * *

"This key is for a storage locker on Oak Avenue. The remainder of your possessions are stored there. Your father was going to throw it all out, but I persuaded him otherwise.

It would be foolish of to think that your father and I could keep you two from contacting each other in so way. We both know that just isn't possible. But I beg you to take so ti and consider just how much damage your reckless, irresponsible behavior has caused. We are both devastated by the selfish, vile choices you two have made. But we are the only ones who have knowledge of it. This could easily ruin both of your lives if people found out, and has already changed the two of you irreparably. Your relationship with each other and with us will never be the sa again. Had your father chosen to go to the police, you would be in jail right now. I don't even want to think of the years of psychiatric counseling that you are both desperately in need of.

Deep down in your heart, you surely can see this. You are too smart of a person to not be able to see it.

I am begging you to be the stronger, responsible older brother that I know you can be, Adam. If you truly love her as much as you say that you do, please stay away from her. Give her a chance to heal and move on with her life. I know that you are both hurting right now. But you still have a chance to lead fulfilling lives, have careers, et other people, eventually raise families of your own. Maybe, sowhere down the line, things will work out where you will be able to nd so of the fences with your father.

I sincerely hope that you heal and find happiness. I hope and pray that you take my words to heart. Do the right thing, Adam."

I read the words on the page several tis before dropping the letter on the desk. Dr. Miller looked over as he set down another box of art supplies.

"I assu that wasn't a letter filled with forgiveness and begging you to co ho?" He asked dryly.

"Nope. That was pretty much the exact opposite of what it was." I sighed bitterly, before getting to my feet and going to help him unload the rest of the supplies from his car.

He had contacted my mother and she'd asked him to deliver the letter and key to . She told him that my father had taken a vacation from work and was currently taking Amy to visit so of his relatives in New York. I knew, in an vague way, that our father had a brother in New York and so other relatives, but I had never t any of them. Clearly, they were determined to put as much space between us as possible.

As much as I wanted to see Amy, I didn't have the slightest idea how to find them in New York. Maybe once they got back, I could sneak over while our parents were at work. But my mother's words nagged at my mind as I gingerly stacked canvases in the corner of the room. I wasn't sure what to do.

* * *

In my dream, I fought back. When the first hit connected with my nose, I took the blow. When the second hit in the stomach, I did nothing. When he kicked for my ribs, I rolled. I yelled for Amy to get out of the house. Sohow, she was dressed now. She tries to argue with . She's screaming at my father to stop. He grabs her elbow and flings her away from us, intent on getting to . I tackle him. In that dream logic way, the fight is just over. I grab Amy and we leave. We sleep in my car near the park. I tell here that we'll be okay. I tell her that everything is fine. I wake up in the dark art studio alone.

It's only three in the morning. Fuck. I never slept anymore. And with dreams like that, who the hell would want to?

It had now been three weeks since we'd been discovered. I hadn't left the art studio at all except for food, even then only late at night when there were fewer people around. The idea of even engaging in small talk with people filled with complete dread. Dr. Miller's wife, Becky, was a registered nurse. She checked up on several tis, monitoring the healing progress on my ribs. More than once, I caught her eyeing my supply of prescription painkillers, doing a ntal count of how many she thought I should approximately have left. As devastated as I was, it had never occurred to to purposely overdose myself on the pills.

I didn't want to be around people at all if I could avoid it. I flinched every ti Becky would try to put a reassuring hand on my shoulder. Being touched by soone suddenly beca a totally unwelco sensation. I didn't know how to deal with it. Grief and stress do fucked up things to your mind, I guess. I certainly couldn't bring myself to go back to class. Anyti I got around any place that reminded of Amy, I would be wracked with grief again. I wasn't sleeping, barely eating, and felt like soone had carved out a large chunk from the center of my chest. I went by my parents house a few tis, always after dark, and the upstairs bedrooms were always dark. I never knocked, simply stood out at the street and watched the house for a few minutes. I saw no sign of Amy there on any of these visits.

My phone had been disconnected the day after I took up residence in the art studio. It had been a relatively simple affair sign up for a new cell phone plan under my own na, but I imdiately discovered that Amy's phone had been disconnected as well. My facebook page and email accounts had several ssages from friends asking where I was, why I hadn't been to class, and so on. I didn't want to reply. The idea of talking to anyone who knew made cringe. Checking Amy's facebook page revealed that she hadn't posted anything to it since before we'd been caught.

Facebook's ssage window popped up on my laptop screen as a ssage from a friend appeared and I rembered that I had my settings set to show people when I was online. Instead of replying, I went to settings and deactivated the account. Then I went to my email accounts and did the sa. I felt a strange sense of relief at being cut off from the world. I shut down the laptop and paced the room a bit.

I still had pain in my chest, but it had started to ease up a bit. My face only showed minor discoloration from the bruises now, but was still really tender when I touched it.

I began thinking about ways to get away from here. So kind of fresh start. Sowhere no one knew and I could try to put myself back together. It didn't feel like that was possible here. I had too many mories here and all of them filled with ache. I didn't have enough money to really move and have any sort of security. I considered the military for the first ti in my life, and quickly realized that wasn't going to be the answer. After doing so research on the peace corps, which I was only vaguely familiar with, I decided that was not my answer either. By sheer coincidence, Dr. Miller offered a solution that I had not seen coming just a few days later.

"I heard about a job opportunity that I think could be really good for you, if you wanted it." He began.

I was disinterestedly picking away at a bowl of pasta and glanced up at him.

"An artist friend of mine in Milos is looking for an assistant. Room and board is included. It would be a serious change of pace for you, and you could learn a lot of technique from him."

"Milos? Where is that?" I asked, trying to place the na but coming up empty. As long as it wasn't here, I was probably going to take it.

"It's an island off of the coast of Greece. Quite a beautiful place, I must say. I took my wife there to visit him a couple of years ago."

For the first ti in a month, I felt a tinge of interest in sothing. This could certainly be the change I was looking for. Greece? Damn. That was farther than I'd ever traveled in my life. I didn't know a damned thing about Greece, either. In my head, I pictured that they ate a lot of lamb, for so reason. Other than so vague mories of Greek mythology stories from my childhood, I couldn't have told anyone more than five sentences about the place. Statues, of course. They had ancient statues.

"Room and board is included?"

"Yes. It isn't much of a salary, I should point out. But when you factor in room and board, it's more than sufficient."

"Is he an artist I'm familiar with?" I asked.

"Have you heard of Theron Cain?"

"He works in oils, doesn't he? Surrealist landscape artist? You have a book of his work in your office."

"That's the guy. Are you interested?"

I really had nothing to lose at this point. It could certainly help clear my head to get away from here for a while. I didn't know how to find Amy at the mont, although it was only a matter of ti. What was worse is that I wasn't completely sure that I should. For her sake, not my own. I kept thinking about letter my mother had written. Would Amy have a better life if I wasn't in it? I know she wouldn't think so. At least not now. I didn't really care much what happened to myself at this point.

The following day, I rented another storage building in the sa complex as the one my possessions were already stored in and transferred everything to the new space. I did not know how long the current one was rented for and it was the last bit of control that my parents had over . Severing that tie, put completely on my own. I also stored most of what I had brought with when I moved into the art studio. The rest of my possessions fit into two bags. I spent the remainder of the week getting my passport photos taken, booking my flight, and selling my car. I didn't get that much for it because I was needing to sell it in a hurry, but the hell with it.

On Sunday morning, a few hours before my flight, I took a cab to my parents street and made a very bored cab driver park a couple of doors down while I gave the place one final look. I watched my father exit the house and drive away. Summoning every bit of courage that I possessed, I got out of the cab and walked to the front door.

I looked down at the porch cent as I knocked, almost afraid of who would answer the door. But no one did. I knocked again, and got no answer. I heard no signs of movent in the house at all. It was empty. I took a few steps out onto the lawn and looked up at Amy's window. I couldn't see anything except the ceiling of her room. I looked at the door handle and saw that the locks were shiny and new. Of course he had changed the locks. My keys would be worthless. Feeling defeated, I returned to the cab and headed for the airport.

* * *

Nineteen hours and three planes later, I stepped off out of a tiny single engine plane near so town called Zefiria on the island of Milos. I walked to baggage claim and waited for my luggage. The airport was not very large and it took only a few minutes. As soon as I picked up my bags, I turned to see a fairly attractive. short brunette woman, who looked to be in her late thirties to early forties smiling up at .

"Adam Matheson?" She said in a thick British accent.

"Yes, ma'am." I replied, raising an eyebrow.

"I'm Margaret Cain. Theron asked to pick you up."

"Ah! Nice to et you." I extended my hand. She shook it firmly with a surprisingly tight grip.

"Welco to Greece. Was it a nice flight?"

"It was long. Especially the Newark to Athens flight. But I'm glad for a change of scenery." I took on my recently adopted fake persona of a person who felt like they still had a reason to breathe.

"I imagine it was. But hopefully you will like it here. We'll et up with Theron in Klima for lunch and get you settled in." She led out to her car.

I had read up a little bit on Milos before leaving the States and was surprised that the entire population of the island was less than five thousand people. Then again, the whole island was only about 14 miles across. The photographs I had seen did not even begin to do the place justice. It was breathtaking. For the first ti in a long while, I felt sothing almost like optimism. This was a far cry from ho. The rock formations that lined so of the beaches were astonishingly beautiful. White and gray monoliths, carved away by the waves, jutting up proudly from the earth like bones of giant, long extinct creatures of old. Amy would love this place.

Theron was already at the small cafe near the beach when we arrived. He was a thin man who looked to be in his mid-forties, dressed in a simple t-shirt, shorts, and sandals. He stood up to greet in an accent every bit as thick as Margaret's.

"Adam? Pleasure to et you, sir. I am excited to work with you. Please, sit." He gestured to the table.

"Thanks." I sat down and found myself slightly taken aback by his pleasantness. A waiter brought a cup of coffee and took my order.

"I saw you once before at an art show at the university, but didn't get a chance to speak with you. I didn't know then that our paths would cross like this, or I would have been sure to introduce myself." He continued.

"Oh really? I'm sorry, but I don't rember seeing you there. No offense." I was surprised.

"It's quite all right, I was there early for only a few minutes and left soon after. But your work was a big part of why I was there."

"Mine?" I replied in genuine surprise. I had been looking around at the architecture of the buildings that surrounded us, but now he had my full attention.

"Jeff has spoken highly of you, Adam. He insisted that I should see your work and I happened to be in town for business at the ti of the show. I ca by and saw the ones you had displayed. I was quite impressed. I even bought one of your pieces, you'll see back at my studio."

"Wow. Thank you so much." I didn't know what else to say. A famous, successful artist had actually liked one of my paintings enough to buy it. I was blown away.

"Which painting, may I ask?" I was really curious now.

"I believe it was titled 'Judgnt'. A haunting black and white piece. It resonated with on a deep level, although I only recently ca to figure out why that might be." He gave a careful look.

My initial excitent had faded visibly and he had seen it happen.

"You aren't a fan of the piece, I take it?"

"I almost didn't put it in the show. I don't like that one at all."

"Because you had a lot of emotion tied up in it, no doubt." He wasn't asking.

"Yeah, I was in a dark fra of mind when I painted that one. Bad mories." I fought to stay composed. The guilt and uncertainty of that night didn't hold a candle to the shit I felt now.

"Guilt. Sha. Fear. You can see it all in the design. It's a powerful piece, once you have most of the puzzle pieces in place to know what you are seeing."

"You took all that from that painting?" I felt really raw and exposed.

"I didn't at first. I just knew it resonated. Once Jeff told about your relationship with your sister, it all made sense. It made even more glad that I bought the piece. It will remain in my collection forever." He said as he watched pale in shock. Margaret gave us both a small smile and stared thoughtfully at her salad.

"Dr. Miller told you about that?"

"You can relax, Adam. Your secret is safe."

I looked up at him, still in shock. Margaret reached over and took his hand on top of the table.

"Theron here is my brother." Margaret spoke up, smiling as she kissed the back of his hand. "And I've loved him since I was a small child."

"We have been together since we were in college ourselves. We fought it for a long ti, but resisting our feelings for each other beca too much to bear. Before finally accepting the love we felt for each other, Margaret was nearly suicidal, and I was on a self destructive path of a different variety. So we know very well how you feel."

"Holy shit." I leaned back in my chair.

"Sorry!" I added hastily, realizing I had cursed in front of my new employer.

"Don't be." He laughed. Margaret started snickering as well. "But you can see why Jeff thought you would benefit from working with . Both for your art and your life. And hopefully you can understand why I might be able to recognize the pain you felt when you painted 'Judgnt'."

I nodded.

"Jeff told us what happened with you. I'm sorry you experienced such harsh rejection by your family. Our own situation was much different. We were orphaned when our parents died in a plane crash many years ago. They never knew about us. Our extended families were another matter entirely." Margaret spoke up, giving my arm a sympathetic squeeze.

I fought to keep my tears in check. I had known these people less than an hour and already found myself with all of my cards on the table. I was a raw, broken, shell of a person with nothing more to hide.

"Hopefully, you can find so comfort and happiness here with us. We want to help you however we can. And I ant it when I said I was a fan of your work. I really am looking forward to working with you." Theron sounded sincere.

"I can't believe this. This whole situation." I looked out at the beach, taking in the beautiful blue water. It seed impossibly blue.

"It's a lot to take in." Theron agreed. "When Jeff called , I knew I had to try to help. It's not often that you et soone who's gone through a situation as unusual as ours."

"I imagine not." I chuckled for the first ti in weeks. "I can't believe you are fan of my stuff."

"Why not? You have talent, Adam. You aren't well known to the art world yet, but that will change with ti." He sounded certain when he said it, as if it were a fact and not a pipe dream.

* * *

Theron led through a large work space. The walls and ceiling were stone, making ponder how old this place was. Large windows allowed natural light to flow through the room. Huge canvases, so as much as fifteen feet long, leaned against the walls. I had never painted on a surface that large and couldn't imagine how long it must take to paint sothing at that scale. He motioned to a short corridor the was set in one back wall. He hit a light switch and set one of my bags on by the doorway. I walked into the room and looked around. For a room made out of stone, the place looked rather comfortable. The walls were stone, painted white, and the only wood in the place was the furniture and door fras. There was a bed in a back corner, with an end table next to it. A work bench, book case, and closet made up the back wall. A small round table with two chairs was set in the center of the room. A simple and beautiful hand made vase was centered on the table.

"It's not much, but I think you'll find it comfortable." Theron said. "Feel free to repaint the place if you don't care for the color. This was the color that the house ca with."

"I don't need a lot, really." I replied.

"There is a small kitchen over through this doorway here. And a bathroom through that door over by the corner. I'm afraid there's not a television out here, but we can take care of that soon." He continued.

"I can watch plenty of stuff on my laptop, there's really not a need for a TV. I don't really plan on watching much television anyway."

"Whatever you prefer is fine. If you decide you'd like a television out here eventually, we will be happy to help you with that. We would have set you up in the main house, but thought you might prefer the privacy that being out by the studio can provide."

"This is great, Theron. This is much better than I was anticipating. The way Jeff talked,, I expected that it would just be a bed in a corner and maybe a closet." I responded.

Theron nodded in response, but seed pleased.

"I'll leave you to get settled in for a while then. I'm sure you are worn out from the flight and all." He turned and headed for the door, then paused. "Listen, I know you have been through a lot lately. If you ever want to talk about it, I'll be glad to listen. I imagine given the peculiar circumstances you have dealt with, there haven't been many people you can talk to about it."

"Thanks."

"Alright then. There's not much in your fridge out here right now, but Margaret will take you into town tomorrow to get you stocked up. When you are ready for dinner, co up to the main house and we'll go get sothing. I'm afraid neither of us are very good cooks. Especially when compared to the local cuisine."

With that, Theron left in my new ho. I sat at the small round table, pulled out my laptop and connected to the internet using the WiFi password Theron had given . I checked Amy's facebook page and saw, as before, that nothing had been updated on it in weeks. I closed the laptop and sighed. There really wasn't much more I could do right now. Was it a mistake to co here? I couldn't stay back in Austin, I was going crazy there. I folded my arms, and put my head down. Too late now, either way.

* * *

The rocks felt insanely hot against the backs of my legs. I couldn't tell for sure, but it seed like I was at least eighty or a hundred feet up. I had spent the last half hour climbing up the side of the rock formation overlooking the bay. The crystal clear, blue water below looked warm and inviting. The base of the rock outcropping to my right looked was what had originally commanded my attention, however.

I stood up, taking in the sll of the breeze blowing in across the water, and looked to the right. I felt hollow as I stared down at the rocks below that were so white that they looked like they were glowing. I felt a strange sense of relief at the thought of taking the jump. I chuckled bitterly at the idea that I'd leave behind one final painting of deep red on the white rocks below if I did it. Man, I have a fucked up sense of humor sotis. I sighed heavily.

Is this really the kind of person I am? I kept asking myself this question. Ever since I had discovered this particular rock formation a couple of weeks before, it had continued to draw back to it. The idea of feeling nothing felt so much better than feeling the hollowness that continued to plague . Coming here hadn't solved that hollow feeling as I had hoped. I had always considered the idea of doing sothing like this to be cowardly, to be letting whatever you were facing win. But here I was, debating with myself whether or not I was the kind of person who would take the selfish route to relief. I was out of tears by now, and just felt drained and empty.

Here I was, sitting in one of the most beautiful places I had ever seen, feeling just about as lost as I ever had in my life. Not today, I finally thought to myself, I'm being irrational about this again. I turned back to the left over the water. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw movent. I glanced over and saw Margaret's small shape sitting on a boulder far below, about twenty yards away. She was watching with what looked like a worried expression. It was hard to tell from this distance. Her small hand ca up to wave at . I waved back.

I stepped back a couple of yards then ran toward the cliff edge, launching myself out over the water as I'd done at least a dozen tis since my arrival. There was that brief mont of panic, worrying that I hadn't kicked off the cliff side hard enough. Then ca the all too brief half second feeling of weightlessness, followed by the rush of wind, just before the splash. I felt the warm water wash over , air bubbles churned noisily all around . I gathered my bearings, and propelled myself through the water in long strokes toward the surface. I broke through the water and felt the hot sun on my face, as I took a deep breath. I made my way to the shore a few monts later to find Margaret standing there with a towel in her hand.

"I know you don't believe it now, but it gets better Adam." She said sadly, handing the towel.

"If you say so." I replied, wiping my face with the towel.

"I didn't believe it when people tried to tell that, either. I don't bla you for doubting . But I'm glad you decided to stick around a while longer. We love having you here." She comnted, trying to hide the concern in her voice. She put a hand up to my shoulder and gripped it just a little. An attempt to be reassuring, I guess.

"Thanks. It just overwhelms sotis." I sighed. "I start thinking stupid thoughts. I know it's not rational, at least. It's easier to ignore when I realize that."

"I know. Recognizing it is the real turning point." Margaret nodded.

"I can't do it if you're watching , anyway. I'd feel too guilty for making soone watch that happen." I stared back at the pile of rock.

"That's the idea." She gave a soft smile.

"That's playing dirty, lady." I gave her a tiny smirk.

"Yep. I can tell you have a kind heart. Under the circumstances, I'm willing to exploit it. And I'm not sorry, either. Do you want to eat sothing? We can go get so dinner if you like?" She asked.

"I'll pass. But thank you. I'm just not really hungry right now." I replied as I looked back up at the cliff. I didn't know then that it was the last ti I'd climb that particular group of rocks.

Margaret was right, it did eventually get better.

* * *

The next few months went by quickly. I found that I quickly beca good friends with Theron and Margaret, despite them being almost twice my age. Theron worked on with very large canvases, often more than twelve feet across and had help him stretch the canvas material over the fras to set them. He also kept busy with sawing and sanding wood to use for the canvas fras. None of this seed to be anything he couldn't handle himself, and I suspected that he had doing it more to keep my mind occupied than because he actually needed the help. The busyness helped ease my depression.

I learned that Margaret was heavily involved in pottery, which explained her deceptively strong hands. She taught to throw clay and use the pottery wheels. I found the process tiring and tedious, but was still fascinated with the end results. My attempts to make relatively simple things like bowls and cups were generally agreed upon by both of the Cains as dismal failures. Out of sheer stubbornness, I used one of my lopsided bowls for paint mixing, until I accidentally dropped it one afternoon, effectively ending my fledgling career as a potter.

Theron enjoyed fishing and paddling his small boat out around the island. Eventually, he got to go fishing with him. I found it surprisingly enjoyable. He laughed when I asked about sharks and explained that there weren't many to be found around the island and that he'd never even heard of an attack in the area. I quickly discovered the caves along the water's edge and spent a lot of ti swimming in the tide pools inside them. I loved the quiet solitude of the place, and often walked the beaches at night.

Theron and Margaret were both very interested in how my relationship with Amy had started and asked lots of questions about her. I showed them the drawing that I had done of her the night she fell asleep on the sofa and agreed that it was the most realistic drawing that they had ever seen produce. I missed her constantly.

By the end of the fourth month, I found myself standing in front of a large, blank canvas for the first ti in what felt like ages. I was positioned by an open window with the fresh salt air blowing in from the bay. Theron was across the room working on a canvas of his own. I put on my headphones, after several weeks of not listening to any music at all, and called up the first song that ca to mind. One that reminded of Amy. It was a song that I had loaded on her phone the day before she left for Ro, and it was a favorite of mine. Radiohead's "All I Need" started playing on repeat as I picked up a tube of paint and set to work.

For a few minutes, I stood with the brush full of paint just sitting in my hand next to the canvas. Finally, I just dropped the brush in the rinse water and squirted crimson paint into my palm. I began saring it on the canvas, creating vine-like curves across the length of it. I added more crimson and yellow to my palm and kept working the image. It was like trying to finger paint as an adult. There wasn't as much control. But the raw image felt more visceral to for so reason. As it began coming together, I worked faster. I beca enthralled in the work and lost myself in it.

When I finished coating the entire canvas in paint, I grabbed a rag, wet it, and began wiping away sections of the acrylic paint in a circular pattern, being sure to leave so of the image intact, creating an effect of round objects that were lighter in color than the rest. I grabbed my bottle of water and splashed so on the canvas. Then I cupped my hand and put a small amount of white paint in it, adding water and creating a milky thin wash. I splashed that across the canvas as well. The resulting look of the image was sowhat like it was cloudy and lting. Finally, I grabbed a brush and began working on details in crimson. The raw, hand painted background adding a new dinsion to the design in a way I hadn't done before. Hours later, I leaned back against a bar stool and looked over the finished design.

"Damn." Theron spoke up, startling . I looked over to see he and Margaret sitting on the stone steps behind that lead up to the dining area of the studio, watching .

"That was fun to watch," Margaret said, smiling. "Are you finished with it?"

"I think so." I said, sowhat embarrassed to be observed like that. Amy was the only person who had ever really watched paint outside of a classroom before.

"I think you are, too." Theron said. "Most impressive. I love it."

I washed up my brushes and cleaned the paint off of my hands. I felt a sense of accomplishnt for the first ti in a long while. Another of the clouds over my spirits seed to fade away a little.

It was late afternoon and I was famished. We all went out to eat at the cafe in Klima again, and I went to the beach while they returned ho. I sat atop a large rock formation and looked out at the beautiful clear blue water as the sun disappeared for the night. I didn't feel at peace, but I felt as close I thought I probably ever would. I missed Amy with everything that was in , but I felt like maybe I was giving her the chance that my mother so desperately wanted for her to have a normal life. I wondered what she was doing now. I wished she were here with . This view would have blown her away. I wished to take her down to one of the tide pools inside the caves and make love to her there with the only light shining up from where the outside sun would shine through the pool. The familiar knot tightened in my stomach and I wept silently in the dark.

Early the next morning, I went down to the studio and looked over the painting I had done the day before. I was pleased with the results and placed it against the wall. I grabbed a fresh canvas, picked a song, and went to work on it. By evening, I'd completed another. I beca prolific. My color choices beca brighter than I normally used, not because I was in a better mood, but because I didn't want to use the typical earth tones that tended to be my routine color choices. I also began to work on a larger scale, the largest of them being one that asured six feet across. That one had overdone it and I settled into a more comfortable two feet by four feet format for most of them.

A few more months passed and I participated in a couple of small local shows around Greece. I even had a couple of paintings on display in one of the larger galleries in Athens. I began to make a small amount of money, nothing even close to enough to live on, but at least I was generating so inco from my paintings. Still, I couldn't help admitting that I was achieving a tiny amount of success as an artist, which was sothing I could never have fathod happening. Much like the rest of my pay since arriving here, I simply put the money in savings and more or less forgot about it.

* * *

One afternoon, after delivering a new painting of Theron's for display at a large gallery in Athens, I walked a couple of blocks down the street to grab so lunch at a small cafe. Not knowing my way around Greek cuisine very well, I blindly ordered the youvetsi from the nu. It arrived shortly after and was edible, but not sothing I would typically order for myself. I sat at a curbside table under a large umbrella, picking at it disinterestedly and watching traffic pass by.

I was lost in my thoughts for a while, thinking how much Amy would love to check out the architecture around here, when I heard a feminine voice speaking to . Her Greek accent was thick, but her English was flawless.

"It's not their best dish, is it?"

I looked up to see a very attractive, tall, slender woman with olive skin and green eyes smiling down at . She had long, dark hair pulled back in a light ponytail and was dressed in an elegant black dress with a small black purse in her hand.

"It's fine, really. I'm just not that hungry." I replied.

"Do you mind if I join you?" She asked, politely. I couldn't think of a polite way to decline her on a mont's notice, so I gave her a small smile and motioned her to a chair.

"Thank you. I get tired of eating alone at lunch every day." She smiled again. "You don't recognize , do you?"

"I'm sorry, I don't." I was now puzzled. Did I know her from sowhere?

"I'm Natali. I work at the gallery."

"Oh, right! I'm sorry, I should have rembered." I pondered if I had ever seen her there. I never paid much attention to the people there. I think I vaguely recalled seeing a tall, dark haired woman around.

"How do you like working for Mr. Cain?"

A waiter ca up and she ordered moussaka without so much as a glance at the nu.

"It's a good job. Keeps busy, but still allows ti to work on my own paintings. He and his wife are good people."

"They seem to be." She agreed.

After a few monts of silence, Natali asked, "So what brought you here from Arica?"

"I don't know. A fresh start sowhere new. I wanted sothing different." I shrugged.

"Sowhere new? You are in one of the oldest cities in the world!" She laughed brightly. It took a mont to realize she was making a joke.

"Yeah, well. It's not Austin, so it's good enough for my purpose."

"Austin? Texas?" She asked, her green eyes seed to stare through . It made uncomfortable, even though she was polite and friendly.

"Yeah." I replied as I picked at my pasta. It was the sauce, I decided, that made the dish unappetizing.

"You don't look like what I picture an Arican from Texas to look like." Smiling at again.

"I left my chaps and spurs in the States." I quipped.

She looked over for a mont, a couple of wrinkles appearing between her eyebrows. Then one of her eyebrows cocked to a high point.

"You are joking with ." She decided aloud. I couldn't help chuckling.

"Ah, you are!" She exclaid, delighted. "You should smile more. You have a nice smile."

She put a hand gently on my forearm, and it finally dawned on that she was flirting.

"Thanks." I picked at my food so more, scraping the offending sauce away.

"You really don't like that very much, do you?"

"Not really," I admitted. "I'm not used to the food here, yet. Still trying different dishes."

"Would would you eat if you could have anything?"

"That's easy. Egg rolls. Hot and sour soup. So good lo mien." I replied.

"I know a place. If you'd like to et for dinner?" Her eyes t mine expectantly.

I looked back down at my plate, trying to think of how I could turn her down without hurting her feelings. The obvious answer occurred to a half second later.

"I'm sorry, I've got to head back in a couple of hours."

"Oh. That's too bad. Maybe another ti." She briefly looked down, her smile faltered a little. But it returned almost imdiately.

"Maybe so. When I don't have to get back to the island so soon." I lied, aiming for politeness.

"Sounds good to ." She replied, brightly.

We finished our al, or more accurately, she finished her al as I picked at mine in disdain and paid for our bills separately. I turned to wave goodbye to her and instead was t with a brief hug. She gave her business card with a ho number written on the back and walked back toward the gallery.

She seed like a nice girl and was certainly beautiful, I thought. But the idea of getting involved with anyone just made my stomach churn. There was only one person I wanted to be with. I flipped the card over in my hand and read over it.

"Natali Panagakos," Her na was followed by so Greek lettering that I assud ant sales representative or sothing similar. The only other thing I could read on the card were the words "fine arts." Fair enough, I shrugged. I slipped the card in my back pocket and walked back to the ferry.

Back on Milos, I told the Cains about the encounter over dinner. They both listened with great interest. Margaret was, of course, completely amused at my obliviousness to having been hit on by a girl until she had touched .

"I know her family," Theron observed. "They are nice people. You could certainly do worse if you decided to pursue her."

"I'm not going to pursue her. That wouldn't do anyone any good, I don't think." I replied, thoughtfully.

"I understand." He replied as he exchanged a slight glance with Margaret, who shrugged. I didn't know what that ant and I didn't ask.

I was pretty sure that I was better off alone at this point. The relationship I'd had with Amy was irreplaceable. There wasn't any reason to bother with anyone else as far as I was concerned.

* * *

Eventually, November rolled around and I realized for the first ti that I had a pretty decent idea of where I could find Amy. She would likely be in Colorado for the week, as called for by family tradition. I pulled out my laptop and priced flights to the US. I chose a flight and sat with my credit card in my hand, about to put in the information to buy the ticket when I froze up. I must have lingered there for ten minutes, indecisive. What would I even say at this point? How could I approach the entire family that way? It's not like I could just knock on their door, walk in, hug everyone except my parents, and sweep Amy up in my arms. What if she didn't want anymore? The very idea sounded absurd. I closed the laptop and went for a walk.

The afternoon of Thanksgiving Day, which ant nothing other than Thursday in Greece, I sat at my kitchen counter staring at my phone for a few long minutes. I finally picked it up and called Aunt Linda's place. On the fourth ring, soone picked up. I could hear the jovial atmosphere in the background. I swallowed hard at the sound of Aunt Linda's voice.

"Hello?"

"Happy Thanksgiving, Aunt Linda."

"Oh my god, is this Adam?!" She exclaid.

"Yes, it is. I'm sorry I couldn't be there this year. I miss you guys." I tried to sound better than I felt.

"I'm so glad you called. We miss you, too! Holly! Holly, it's Adam." I heard Aunt Linda call to my mother. Shit, I thought to myself.

"Aunt Linda!" I tried not to shout, trying to get her attention back.

"Yes?" She sounded puzzled by my desperation.

"Is Amy there?"

"No, she's not, Adam. She stayed in California for the break. You didn't know that?" Now she definitely sounded confused. My heart sank. California? How the hell was I supposed to find her there?

"Okay, thanks. Send everyone my love." I replied.

"Don't you want to say hello to your mother? She's right he-" I hung up before I had to face that conversation.

I slumped at the counter and stared at the wall for a long while.

* * *

When I left the United States, I had originally expected to be gone for just a few months at most. I had now been in Greece for three years. I had co to really enjoy living there and the idea of returning to the States filled with a sense of dread. At one point I looked into renting a house near Theron and Margaret's ho, but they were adamant that I continue living in the small apartnt built off of Theron's studio. I felt that I was about as comfortable as I could ever expect to be, and although the gaping hole in my life that Amy had once occupied was still there, it had diminished sowhat. I can't say that she was ever far from my thoughts.

Over ti, Natali's gentle persistence eventually wore down and we went out on a date during one of my visits to the mainland. Before the date even started, I knew that it was a mistake. I carefully explained to her that I was just not in a place emotionally where I could handle being in a relationship with soone. I made sure that she understood it wasn't about her and that I thought she was a great person. She claid to understand and, after a slightly awkward couple of weeks, we settled into a comfortable friendship. I had worried that she was holding out hope for to eventually want to be with her, but she began dating another guy soon after and I relaxed.

She was a fan of my work and showed so of my pieces to a friend who worked at a gallery in Ro. Before long, I had pieces showing in a gallery there, as well. When I traveled to Ro to deliver the pieces, I stayed at the Palazzo, the sa hotel Amy had stayed at when she was in Ro several years before. I pulled out my phone in the hotel room and looked through the pictures she had sent from that very hotel. As silly as it seed, even to , I wondered if I was staying the the sa room that she had. I sat on the balcony that night, listening to Swans' "Love of Life" album, and wished she were with .

A few months later, I was in my biggest gallery show yet. This ti in London. Theron had a big show there and had pulled strings with the gallery owner to be sure that I was included in the show. Theron gave a thirty foot section of wall space near the entrance to his gallery and ensured that my na and art was included on the promotional materials for the gallery opening. As I selected pieces for the show, I joked that I felt like the opening act for a concert. He comnted that it was a good comparison.

Theron and Margaret both found my thought process surrounding the pricing of my work for the show to be hysterically funny. Every ti I would jot down a price on the list, Theron would co behind and scratch through it, writing in absurdly ridiculous amounts instead.

"Oh, fuck off Theron! No one is ever going to pay 18,000 quid for that. I painted it in three hours.. I practically pissed on the canvas!" I exclaid, trying to write the price back in at two thousand. Honestly, I still felt I was ripping people off asking two thousand for it.

"This isn't those piss ant little college shows you used to do. This is a real show at a serious gallery. They don't know you did that in three hours. And so what if you did? Eighteen thousand is a bargain for that painting. I think you should price it at twenty five thousand quid, myself!" Theron barked back at .

"You have got to be kidding . I don't know if you've been drinking the salt water out there or what, but you are out of your goddamned mind." I shook my head at him in frustration. Margaret just cackled at our bickering.

"I should be taping this." She remarked at one point, earning looks of exasperation from both of us.

They finally bullied into agreeing to their pricing plan, arguing that they had years of experience in the art world and that I didn't understand the value of my work. By the ti it was all said and done, I had set a total value of my paintings to be featured in the show at a little over 340,000 Euro. I found that number staggering to contemplate.

The three of us flew to London together the week of the show and they were both further amused by my excitent about seeing England for the first ti. They had both grown up there, and found the place to be rather dull.

The night of the opening, I was dressed in a suit and tie. It was not my idea, but Margaret had insisted. The gallery was packed with people and I was slightly thrilled to see the degree of interest in my work. Theron introduced to a couple of other very well known artists that were friends of his and I felt I did a fairly good job of hiding my sense of awe at eting so of them. I was surprised to find that a couple of them shared my generally cynical view of the art world. But what really unnerved was the realization that so of the art critics that attended the opening were looking over my work and taking notes.

I don't think it had hit until that mont that my work would be viewed by serious, world renowned art critics this evening. Theron was off working the crowd, greeting so fans, and so on. Margaret noticed the look on my face and brought a glass of wine. She assured that it was going well so far and that I didn't need to be concerned about the critics. I drained the wine in about thirty seconds and a server handed a replacent.

An older British woman approached us and claid to be a fan of my work. I tried to be gracious about it, but was again very uncomfortable with the idea that I actually had fans. It turned out that this woman had purchased one of my paintings at a previous show in Athens and had actually co to this show to see my work, not Theron's. Margaret flashed a huge smile when she overheard that and nodded at as if to say she had told so. The woman gave an email address and asked that I send her photos of any new pieces I would consider selling that were not currently on display. I assured her that I would and she went on her way. I didn't find out until later that it was considered extrely rude by most serious artists and galleries for a buyer to request to see work that was not currently on display. I didn't see a problem with it, myself.

About an hour after the show started, I was able to ignore the critics milling about and began to get bored. Truthfully, I was surprised I lasted that long. I normally lost patience with these things in the first twenty minutes. I sipped a glass of wine, wishing it was a beer, and was chatting with Margaret when I heard a soft voice behind that made my heart seize up.

"Your new work is beautiful, Adam."

I turned and saw Amy standing before , a shy and hesitant smile on her face. Her eyes were tired but warm and beautiful. She was dressed in a tight, dark blue dress that ended a few inches above her knees with matching heels. The sapphire necklace that I had given her for Christmas years before dangled from her gorgeous neck. Her hair, now longer, was hanging loosely over one shoulder, exposing her neck fully on one side. She didn't look a day older than when I'd last saw her, over three years before. She took my goddamned breath away.

I opened my mouth to speak, and words wouldn't form. I just stared at her for a long mont, just as she stared at . My mind started racing through thoughts so quickly that I could hardly form them into words. Part of my mind was screaming at myself at the top of it's lungs to speak, while another was racing through questions. Did she resent ? She would have every right to. I left her behind. I fucking left her behind. Why the fuck did I do that? Did she still want ? Need like I needed her? Speak, goddamn you! She's right here. Fucking speak! Has she moved on? Is she over ? She's here. She can't hate . Right? Make your mouth work. Hug her. Hold her. Don't. You. Fucking. Cry.

"I wasn't sure I should co." She finally spoke, her lower lip trembling with uncertainty.

"I'm so glad you did." I replied, taking my first breath of air in what I thought may have been nearly a minute. In my mind, my words sounded distant, like I was on autopilot for a mont. I wasn't prepared for to see her. I had so much to say. I tried desperately to get my thoughts in order. Fuck! She was really here! I ached to hold her in my arms.

"So it's okay that I'm here?" Her voice cracked a little, still hesitant. A storm of emotions was clearly visible in her beautiful blue eyes. I could only imagine the sa could be seen in mine, assuming I didn't look as afraid as I felt. Afraid of her. Afraid of myself. Afraid she'd leave. Afraid of... everything.

"It's more than okay. I just can't believe that I'm seeing you." I stepped forward and hugged her, no longer able to control my impulse. The hell with my fears, I had to hold her. At least once.

Her arms wrapped around in a tight embrace and she started shaking. Her wonderful, familiar scent filled my lungs. My body had missed her on a cellular level, as I felt rocked to my very core by the warm softness of her small fra encased in mine. Every fiber of my being was focused on holding her in my arms again. I felt a tightness deep in my chest, a feeling I had possessed for so long that I no longer rembered it was not a part of , slowly begin to uncoil.

We didn't speak for a few long monts, neither of us willing to release our grip on the other. We both seed to physically vibrate with the power of the mont we were sharing.

"You were so fucking hard to find." She nearly whispered, her voice choking the words out. I could feel her tears dampening my shoulder.

"I've missed you so much." I breathed in her ear, my voice cracking around the knot in my throat. I tightened my arms around her in a squeeze for a mont but couldn't will myself to let go of her yet. A tear of my own slid down my face, despite my efforts to contain it.

Finally, she pulled away from a few inches, her hands sliding down my arms to take both of my hands in hers. She smiled at as warmly as ever, relief and elation written all over her face despite the tears that caused her mascara to bleed tiny black lines. Many of my questions fell away from my mind in that mont, no longer relevant as I looked in her eyes. They still shone with her love for . As blue as the water back ho.

I heard soone clear their throat suggestively nearby and glanced up to see Theron standing a few feet away with his arm around Margaret. They both had huge expectant grins painted on their faces. Hell, Margaret looked like she may start bouncing at any mont. Margaret wordlessly held a tissue out to Amy, who took accepted it and held it to each of her eyes.

Theron mouthed the word "Amy?" to , although he looked certain that he already knew the answer. I nodded slightly, suddenly rembering where I was and that we were in a room full of people.

"You must be Amy." Theron said. Amy glanced at with a puzzled expression, but nodded to him.

"This is Theron Cain and his wife, Margaret. This is Theron's show." I explained.

Theron extended his hand and Amy shook it politely, her other hand still holding mine.

Margaret leaned over and planted a kiss on Amy's cheek, motioning to . "I can't tell you how important you are to this man. I'm so very glad to get the chance to et you."

Amy didn't seem to mind Margaret's well aning affection, despite her being a stranger and hugged herself to my arm, which was still trapped fiercely in her grip.

"He's everythi-" She started to speak and buried her face in my shoulder instead, shaking against . I pulled my free arm up around her and held her close.

People were moving through the gallery, blissfully unaware of us and the trendous importance of our reunion. We weren't being stared at, but I wanted to be alone with Amy all the sa. I didn't care about the show at all anymore. My little sister was back in my arms and that was the only thing that mattered to right now. I looked up at Theron, who nodded at as if reading my mind.

"Get out of here, man. I'll call you in the morning and tell you how the rest of the show went. You've got more important things to take care of." He smiled at , and put his arm around Margaret again.

Margaret's eyes were shimring like she was going to start crying at any mont as she smiled more widely than I would have guessed she was capable of.

"Thanks." I acknowledged, and led Amy out of the gallery to the street. Her arm was still wrapped around as we walked. I wasn't going to complain.

I started to hail a cab, but decided to walk for a while instead.

"Do you need to sit sowhere?" I asked her. She shook her head, letting out a little gasp as she tried to recompose herself.

We walked alongside the gallery building in silence for a few monts, without a destination in mind. I tried to organize my thoughts, not wanting to terrify her with a mountain of questions and declarations. She seed to be calming down and I thought she was probably trying to do the sa. We passed a well tended pavilion that was positioned next to the gallery and ca across a Starbuck's.

I walked toward the entrance and Amy, seeing the building, broke her silence.

"You always hated Starbuck's. You said they were a cult and were going to slip potassium in the coffee at any mont and take out half the world's population."

"I still do. And I stand by my theory." I replied, grinning a little at the mory. "But you used to love the stuff."

"Let's find sowhere else." She said, sliding her hand down my arm to interlace our fingers. I suspected her arm was tiring from the grip she'd had on mine for so long now. I know my arm was grateful for a little respite, but I would have died before I voiced a complaint.

We kept wandering down the block and I suddenly had a silly urge to state the obvious.

"We're walking the streets of London together. Who would have thought that would happen?" I asked.

She stopped walking and gripped my hand a little tighter signaling to do the sa. I turned to face her as she moved in closer to . Smiling up at , she said "I'd always hoped to."

I got lost in her smile for a mont and, impulsively, I kissed her. Her lips t mine and parted imdiately. Our tongues gently explored each others' mouths, rembering their favorite places. It wasn't a hungry, driven kiss. It was a passionate, loving kiss. I felt years of tension and longing falling away from . If anything had ever felt more right to in my life than this mont, I didn't know what it would be. My free hand ca up and wrapped around the side of her neck, my thumb resting just beneath her ear. She purred contentedly against , letting out a relieved sounding sigh.

"Was that okay?" I asked, hesitantly, when our lips parted. I didn't know where we stood, really. I didn't know if she had soone else in her life, now. It had been years, after all, and I'd acted on impulse, kissing her almost instinctively. She hadn't acted like it was a bad move, but... Christ, I was thinking too much again.

"Oh god, yes. Do it again." She exclaid and moved her lips back to mine. We kissed again, deeper this ti, a little hungrier. She whimpered into my mouth, a satisfied sound that told that she felt this was as right as I did.

We were interrupted when my arm was struck by a woman with an armload of shopping bags as she passed us and I suddenly rembered we were standing on a relatively busy sidewalk.

"Sorry, excuse ." The woman said over her shoulder.

"We're gonna get run over if we keep standing like this," I muttered and we resud our walk.

Amy took the lead now, and it took a mont to realize where she was leading us. There was a diner up ahead that had booths lining the walls and didn't look extrely packed at the mont. I held open the door for her and followed her inside.

Once we were settled into a booth and I finally had both hands free for a mont, I reached up and loosened my tie. As I slid it into the pocket of my suit jacket, Amy shot a look.

"Why'd you do that?" She asked.

"It was uncomfortable," I replied as I unbuttoned the top button of my dress shirt and felt a great sense of relief.

"You look good in a suit." Amy observed.

A waitress ca and took our order. I didn't ask, but I think we both ordered more out of politeness and nervousness than anything. I certainly wasn't hungry. By the ti our waitress headed for the kitchen, I felt I had put off the inevitable long enough. It was ti to ask questions. I wasn't quite sure where to start.

"Are you vacationing here or..?" I ventured.

"Kind of. I guess. I ca here looking for you." She smiled at the last bit, reaching across the table to take my hand.

"Wow. You heard about the show in Austin?" I didn't think it had been advertised that widely. I an, I understood that it could be found online, but I hadn't thought it would so prominent as to be heard about in the States.

"Well, Portland, actually. I found an announcent for it online and saw your na."

"Jesus. And you ca all the way here in case it was , just from seeing my na?" I was a little surprised, even though I shouldn't have been. I would have gone farther, if I knew for sure she'd be there.

"I'm glad you did, don't get wrong." I added defensively, as a tiny grin crept over her face. I wasn't exactly oozing confidence at the mont. In a perfect world, she might end up mocking for this one day. How weird is it that I missed her making fun of ? Hell, I missed everything about her.

"This is incredible. You're really here. I really found you. We're together." The words nearly exploded from her as she broke into on of her most excited smiles that spread from ear to ear. "I almost can't believe it."

"Yeah" I chuckled, feeling slightly giddy as her words sunk in. "We're together. You really found ."

"I love you." I told her, feeling nearly as nervous as I had the first ti I had said those words to her in a non-familial context.

Her long delicate fingers moved to intertwine with my own again. She looked up at , her stunning blue eyes locked with mine. "I love you, too."

"So there's no one waiting for you back at the hotel? Or in Portland?" I asked, regretting my insecurity imdiately.

"No, baby. There's no one but you. There could never be anyone else." She squeezed my hand, rubbing her thumb over mine.

"That's a relief," I sighed. "I an, you let kiss you and all, so I thought... I just... Fuck." I brought my other arm up on the table and buried my face in the crook of my elbow. This is my little sister, the love of my life. Why can't I just talk to her? Fuck. I sighed in exasperation.

She reached across and ruffled my hair. I looked up into her soft smile.

"I'm nervous too, baby. It's okay." She reassured .

"I'm sorry. I just have so many things going around in my mind."

", too." Amy replied. "So let ask, you don't have a girl waiting for you back... wherever?"

I raised my head from the table and looked at her again.

"No one could ever replace you. Why even bother trying?" She adopted the relieved expression I'd had a few monts earlier.

"So, do you live in London now?" She asked as our waitress arrived with our coffee.

"No, but I do live in Europe." I tried to give her a mysterious smile.

"Really? That's exciting."

"It wasn't at first. But I've gotten used to it." I sipped my coffee.

"Can I ask what happened after I went upstairs that morning? When I ca back down, you were gone and he wouldn't tell where you went."

She had been taking a sip of her coffee, but she set it down and stared at it for a long mont. She reached over and picked up her spoon, dumped a sugar packet in her coffee and started stirring. Her small tongue slid across her lower lip, moistening it, as she prepared to speak.

"I was screaming at him. I couldn't believe he was blaming you for everything. And what he fucking did to you. My god..." Her eyes welled up a little, but she seed to contain it. "It got to where I was just incoherent. I don't even rember what I was yelling anymore. I was so scared, you seed so badly hurt."

She paused. "How bad was it? I never could get an answer. I found out you went to the hospital, but all they would say was that you were discharged the sa day."

"It could have been worse." I shrugged. I didn't want to get her worked up over it now, I'd long since healed from that whole debacle.

"Anyway, mom took out to the car and drove to grandma's for a while. She just wanted to get away from him for a while. And away from you, I guess. Later, dad took to see our uncle in New York for a couple of weeks. That was a horrible trip. I didn't want to go, of course. He threatened to have you arrested if I didn't. He refused to listen to anything I had to say about us. He was convinced that you had taken advantage of sohow, and wouldn't let tell him otherwise. I don't know how I never realized what an asshole he was to you before. I know you made black sheep jokes, but I didn't see how serious it was." She dropped her spoon on her napkin and took another sip of her coffee before looking back at . The sadness in her eyes gnawed at . I reached up and put my hand to the side of her face, hoping to reassure her. She nuzzled her face in my palm for a mont and kissed my palm before she continued speaking.

"Anyway, you know he canceled the cellphones. He shut off the internet connection at the house, as well. He was trying to do anything he could think of to eliminate ways for you to contact for a while."

"Yeah, I figured that was what happened."

"By the ti we got back ho from New York, I was a complete wreck. I dropped out for the sester. Mom had put the rest of your stuff in storage, so your bedroom was mostly empty. I used to go in your room and just sit against the wall on the floor for hours. It was as close to you as I could get. It used to piss him off sothing awful. Dad even took the painting that you had given out of my room and put it in storage with the other stuff. He never knew about this, at least." She placed her hand on the necklace I had given her.

It made ache to think of how much it must have pained her to be there. At least I had been able to go sowhere new, without constant reminders of her everywhere.

"After a couple of weeks, mom sent to Colorado to stay with Aunt Linda and Courtney for a while. She told them that you had so huge fight with dad, had left ho, and that I was have a really hard ti dealing with it. So I stayed there for a couple of months with them. I missed you so badly that I broke down one night and told Courtney the truth about us. She was shocked, but eventually she accepted it. She's never told anyone. She tried to help find you, but by then you seed to have disappeared off of the planet."

"That was two or three months after?" I asked, rembering that I had left for Greece by then.

"Yeah, not quite three months. We had no luck at all. When you called Aunt Linda's that first Thanksgiving, Courtney was really upset that she couldn't get to the phone in ti. Mom was pretty upset, too. She just wanted to know you were okay. We weren't the only ones looking for you, either. John contacted a few tis, so did gan. No one knew where you went. When you decided to disappear, you did a damned good job of it. Oh! gan married Man-bun, by the way. Turns out his na is Eric." She gave a weak smile, that grew when I started laughing.

"Oh wow." I laughed. I couldn't imagine gan being married. "Does he still have a man bun?"

"I don't know. I haven't been back there in a while. I got a job with a finance company in Portland after graduation. I've only been there a couple of months, though. I took a few days off to co here."

"So you got your degree? That's aweso!" I exclaid, genuinely proud of her.

"Thanks," She smiled, amused at how excited I was for her. The waitress returned with our food and made sure we didn't need refills on our coffee.

"So what happened after Colorado?" I asked, picking up a piece of bacon and eyeing it with intent.

"I didn't want to go back ho. I just couldn't take it there any more. I applied to transfer my credits to UCLA and was accepted. I qualified for a couple of grants and moved into the dorms there. I hit the books hard to keep myself busy. I wasn't really trying to graduate early, but that was a pleasant side effect. I was just trying to keep moving. Most of my free ti was spent online trying to find any ntion of you."

"I imagine there wasn't much to find."

"Not a damned thing." She agreed.

"Until last month when I found the announcent online for the art opening, I was worried you might have died or sothing. But, surely we would have gotten word of that. It was really lucky that I even heard about the show. I wasn't looking for you to be in Europe. I thought you might be in Houston or Dallas or sowhere close by. Maybe San Antonio. Surely, at least in the sa country. I thought one of my best chances to find you might be if you did a show sowhere. I'm subscribed to mailing lists for art galleries all over the place. It must be more than a hundred of them. So of the listings are for multiple galleries that do these cross promotions for each other. That's the only reason I saw anything for the show at all. When I saw your na and saw the show was in London, I couldn't believe it I feel like I haven't slept in weeks, waiting for tonight to get here. I even called the gallery from the States trying to find a ho address for you. They wouldn't tell anything."

"Probably thought you might be a stalker." I chuckled.

"My turn to ask a few things." She said, as she watched swallow the last of the piece of bacon.

"Go for it."

"Where have you been all this ti? Where did you go?"

" At first I stayed at Jeff... er... Dr. Miller's art studio. Once I was able to, I tried to find you and couldn't figure out how to reach you. I used to sneak by our parent's house and watch for you, but you were never there. After a while, I just kind of fell apart. Everywhere I went reminded of you. And it hurt to be around. I was so fucked up by it all. I just couldn't stay anymore. After about a month or so, I got offered a job as Theron's personal assistant in Greece. I took it as a chance to try to get myself together. I've been living on an island in Greece ever since."

"Holy shit. Greece? Really?" She looked at wide eyed, forgetting she had a fork full of shredded potatoes in her hand.

"Yeah. Milos, Greece."

"Wow. That explains your tan. What's it like?"

"It's fucking beautiful. The water is an amazing shade of blue and crystal clear. There's these incredible rock formations along the beach and all kinds of natural caves. It's really sothing." I told her as I glanced down at my hands. Tan? I hadn't realized.

She smiled wistfully at my description. "It sounds amazing."

"You like Portland?"

"It's okay. Rains a lot. Humid."

"I didn't exactly plan on Greece." I explained. "Well, I guess I kind of did, only because it was sowhere besides Austin and it was the first opportunity to co up. I would have gone anywhere. I could have been offered to go to Nigeria and I would have gone. As long as no one knew . Sowhere without mories."

Amy nodded and looked out the diner window at the cars driving by out on the street, taking in the sights of London. I watched her, still trying to wrap my head around the idea that she was here. It blew away that she had co all this way just to find . I would have done the sa if I knew that she wanted as badly as I wanted her. But Amy had done flown here blindly after not seeing for three years. It suddenly occurred to that she was a braver, stronger person than I. But I had always kind of thought so.

"When do you head back to Greece?" She asked.

"Our flight leaves Monday afternoon. Yours?" It was Friday. I hadn't thought about it until this mont. There was no way in hell I was going to lose track of her again.

"I'm supposed to fly back day after tomorrow, but I don't think I'm going. I don't really care if I ever go back to Portland. I don't want to be away from you again." She looked at with a hopeful expression in her eyes, as if she needed to hear that I wanted her to stay.

"Fuck Portland. I need you with , Amy." I replied taking her hand again for emphasis.

Amy's whole face lit up in a beaming smile and she looked like she was about to launch herself over the table at . Instead, she darted around the table and wrapped in a huge hug, squealing in delight like she was a little kid again. I couldn't help chuckling at her. For a mont, she was my adorable little sister. And the woman of my dreams. Even now, years later, my brain sotis hiccuped over those strangely stitched together bits of data.

"Oh god, Adam. I'm so fucking excited!" She gasped, as she tried her best to crack a few of my ribs in her embrace. I was hugging her back, of course. But I wasn't trying to inflict bodily harm. I happened to glance over the top of her head and noticed our waitress standing next to a couple of other staff grinning at us. I didn't care. I never wanted to let her go.

"I love you so much, Adam." She cried, tears of happiness sliding down her cheeks.

I held her to , stroking her hair softly. "I love you too, beautiful. I love you with all my heart."

Finally, her arms gave out on her, and she settled in on my side of the booth with . I pulled her plate across from her side for her and passed over her coffee. She finished her al half sitting in my lap. I didn't mind. Although, I did have to chuckle when a bit of shredded potato went rogue and slipped down the cleavage of her dress, sending her on a flustered trip to the bathroom.

We spent hours sitting in the booth catching up about what had happened over the past couple of years. Amy brought up to date on family matters, in as much as I cared to know. Brad had finally proposed to Brenda and they were married. Amy had attended the wedding as a bridesmaid, and endured a number of questions about my absence. She told about attending UCLA and we compared our experiences in Ro. Between the ti change and the long, emotional evening, Amy's adrenaline and excitent about our reunion finally lost the battle to fatigue and she suddenly seed about to fall asleep next to in the booth.

I flagged down our new waitress, as there had been a shift change in the interim, and got our bill. I made sure to tip our new waitress well, and gave her a second tip, requesting that she pass it to our forr waitress. I had long had a soft spot for what I considered to be an unjust pay system for wait staff.

Amy climbed out of the booth and took my hand as soon as I stood up. I couldn't help noticing that one of my ass cheeks had fallen asleep. I freed my hand from hers to stretch a second, only to have it snatched back the mont I lowered my arms. As we walked out of the diner, I noticed that it looked like the sun might be coming up and checked my watch.

"Holy shit. It's almost five." I comnted.

"No wonder I'm exhausted," Amy yawned. "Where's your hotel?"

"Whoa now... I'm not sure that's proper." I attempted my best poker face.

"Oh? Um.. Okay, I can-" She began, looking a little crestfallen.

I pointed to the tall hotel, almost directly across the street from the gallery. "It's that one."

"Don't do that to . I'm tired, damn it." She whined, with a hint of amusent in her voice.

We walked back to the hotel, the movent causing her to wake up a little along the way.

"You shouldn't have listened to mom." She said as the elevator doors closed in the hotel a few minutes later.

"I know. I'm sorry." We both knew she was talking about the letter.

"That's why you didn't keep trying to find , right? After the first year, I an."

I nodded, feeling guilty. I could have tried harder, and I knew it.

"It's okay. I get it. I saw the letter. It would have screwed up, too." Her hand reached over to take mine. "But she's not us. And she doesn't know how strongly we feel about each other. She was wrong. Hell, she probably even realizes that by now. Not that the she isn't too stubborn to admit it. It doesn't matter anymore. You're here now."