Grayson just stared at Dane with his smiling face frozen. The surroundings were just as quiet as if death had co.
... ... What is it?
Grayson thought blankly. It felt like soone had hit his head hard with a blunt object. How could he be so dazed?
Yes, that’s right. He barely rembered. Soone must have hit my head. That’s why I heard such nonsense. It’s a hallucination. Why would Dane say sothing like this to ? We still have five days left, I told Dane that I loved him, and Dane would love .
Suddenly, his whole body felt cold as if he had been splashed with cold water. His fingertips felt numb, so he clenched and unclenched his fists repeatedly.
“Oh, sorry.”
Grayson hurriedly raised the corners of his lips and said.
“I think my head is ssed up. Did pheromones build up? My pheromone levels are higher than average, so I have to remove them often. Oh, did I ntion that Papa’s hair is weird? This is confidential, but you’re my lover, so it’s okay. If you neglect your pheromones, you’ll end up like Papa......”
“Grayson.”
Dane cut him off with a sharp voice. Grayson, who had frozen once again, slowly lowered his hand that had been covering his face and raised his head. He was looking at Grayson with an extrely devastated expression.
“You didn’t hear wrong, you heard right. ......Let’s stop now.”
His heart must have stopped. Grayson couldn’t even breathe anymore, and he stared at Dane. Why? Why is Dane saying this?
What’s wrong?
“I love you.”
“I know.”
He confessed his true feelings again in a trembling voice, but Dane’s answer ca out too easily. His lips were pulled up as if in a smile, but his eyebrows were furrowed. Dane muttered with a pained, yet bitter smile.
“You’re probably right. I’m the one who’s wrong.”
Grayson still wasn’t convinced. He just stared blankly until he realized it belatedly.
“Ah, I see.”
Grayson blinked and continued speaking hurriedly.
“I... I’m not your type, right? Huh? Yeah, I’m too big, stupidly big. What, what if I do this? Should I cut off my legs? If I cut off this much, I can beco smaller. What do you think? That’ll work? Huh?”
“Grayson.”
“Or is your torso too big? What if I cut off your arms this much? That’ll work. If I cut off your arms and legs this much, you won’t be half as big. That’s okay? If I beco smaller than you, I, I.”
The more he spoke, the more desperate Grayson beca. No matter how hard I try, nothing will change. No matter what I do, no matter how much I cry and cling to him, I can’t hold on to Dane.
Because this man doesn’t love .
“If I......”
Grayson opened his mouth as he faced Dane’s empty face that was just looking at him.
“If I were small and lovable like Yeonwoo, if I were......”
“No, Grayson. You’re not wrong. It’s not your fault.”
Dane shook his head strongly. Even as he looked at Grayson’s confused face, he had a hard ti finding the words to explain. He had never explained anything to anyone before. Okay, no, if he just threw out a simple conclusion and turned around and left, everything would be over. He had only had cheap and frivolous relationships that were okay.
So that he wouldn’t have to face his whole heart like this.
But it was already too late. Grayson Miller was a man who had so much, yet he treasured a cheap can of dog treats so much. It would have been better if he hadn’t known, but unfortunately Dane found out.
So now he had to end this hopeless relationship.
“I was wrong. From the beginning.”
He muttered self-deprecatingly.
“You’re not like . I can’t.”
Dane repeated the sa words over and over again. He confessed to Grayson, who still didn’t understand, like a sigh.
“I’m a person who can’t love soone.”
Dane raised his gaze, which had been wandering sowhere below his feet, and faced Grayson. He was still smiling, but it looked awkward. Perhaps it was because of his distorted eyebrows and eyes. Grayson suppressed his anxious heart and waited for his next words. Dane sighed, rubbing his mouth and chin with one hand.
“I don’t know. What love is, or if it even exists inside .”
He lowered his gaze again. His hand still lingered on his chin as he muttered.
“What I feel for you isn’t love. It’s closer to pity.”
It didn’t matter though. He didn’t know what Dane felt for him. Grayson wanted to tell him that he just wanted him to stay by his side, but he held back silently. Dane couldn’t help but know Grayson’s feelings. That wasn’t all he wanted to say. What on earth was he trying to say?
Sothing that could convince ... ... .
When he thought that there was no way that could happen, Dane finally opened his mouth. With great difficulty, in a low voice, as if he was forcibly digging up sothing buried deep in the abyss.
“My mother was an oga.”
Grayson was montarily stunned by the unexpected # Nоvеlight # confession. Silence fell between them again. And in Dane’s empty eyes, he returned to the past.
“Dane, why don’t you have a father?”
He realized that fact when he was around 3 years old. The apartnt where he lived alone with his mother had broken windows and was located in a slum where gunshots could be heard day and night.
I can’t rember the nas of the guys I used to play with now, but I rember hanging out with them to relieve my boredom when my mother went to work.
He was two years older than Dane, and he also lived alone with his mother. Although he was caught selling drugs and was in prison, his father definitely existed. He proudly said that he and his mother once visited him.
Anyway, Dane had his first question at the innocent question of his age. Why don’t I have a father? His friend said with shining eyes.
“I guess your dad went to prison too.”
“The sa prison as your dad?”
He nodded at Dane’s question. Then he pointed to a house with his finger.
“Well, my older brother sells guns. When I grow up, I’m going to earn money and buy a gun.”
“Gun? Why?”
“We have to save Dad from prison. You should do it too!”
“Okay! We’re going to save our Dad too?”
“Of course. Okay!”
The friend held out his dirty hand, covered in dirt and saliva. Dane took his hand without hesitation. Dane’s hand wasn’t much different. They held each other’s hands like adults do and made a resolution, then went back to the beginning.
“But do you know how to shoot a gun?”
When Dane asked, his friend blinked and answered.
“There’s a hole for your finger. Put your finger in there and do this, this way.”
The boy wiggled his fingers and pretended to pull the trigger. Dane looked at him with a curious face.
“That’s great. too, too. I want to buy a gun too!”
“You idiot, you should save up money first.”
Dane sucked his finger with a regretful look on his friend’s face and asked.
“Do you have it?”
“Do you have it.”
“Where? Where?”
“It will co later.”
The friend raised his head arrogantly and said.
“When you grow up, you’ll have money. Look, Mr. Bill over there is sitting there drinking all day, and he always has his pockets full of coins. He has coins that are a di a dozen...”
“Wow.”
Dane blinked in amazent at his friend’s expression. With that amount of money, he could buy ten candies at the corner candy store. At the ti, the largest number Dane knew was 10, so he thought that with confidence.
“Then when I grow up, I can buy a gun, too?”
Dane’s friend nodded confidently at Dane’s question.
“Graham, let’s rob a prison together!”
“All right, all right!”
Dane shouted excitedly. They imdiately made a gun shape with their fingers and started shooting at each other.
“Tang tang, tang tang.”
“Taang tang, tang tang!”
I was practicing hard, when suddenly my friend put his hand down and said, “Uh.” Dane, who turned his head, shouted with a bright face.
“Mom!”
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