If you can’t debut, you’ll get a fatal disease Episode 332
What kind of situation is this?
I’m lying in bed I don’t have a particularly good idea. I’m just chewing the cud.
The situation right before I went to visit Sejin, who had left the hotel room for camping.
– Beep.
I pressed the doorbell of Sejin’s hotel room, but there was no response.
-… … .
I wondered if you were not in the room. But is he the kind of person who will go out and make a gossip with big Sejin?
obviously inside
– Sejin Lee.
I waited a mont and rang the doorbell again.
Then ca the response.
drooling.
Not at the door, but at the smartphone.
[Let’s talk about it later, Moondae. I’m a little tired right now]
That was the end.
“… … .”
I took my hand off the pillow, checked the text once, and swiped it away.
-Are you okay?
“uh.”
Then, the face of Ryu Gun-woo appeared on the screen. I’m in the process of returning the call I hung up earlier.
… … I have to do my job.
“What was the story you were trying to say?”
-… wait a minute.
The guy on the screen moves. Then, raise both hands and point to the air.
– Do you see this?
“no.”
The guy on the screen carefully lowers his hand.
-You can’t see… .
“… … .”
-I did a little research since the last ti I logged in to download the ‘receive rewards’ pop-up.
is it.
– A few days ago, I was able to open the status window by calling it from my side. So I wonder if you can see it on the screen… .
“okay.”
It was sothing worth making a video call with. I understand.
And when he shut his mouth, the room beca quiet again.
“… … .”
A cautious voice was heard.
-That brother. Also, what happened earlier?
“no.”
Can’t you stop asking about that?
I almost felt annoyed at the mont, but I recognized that there was no need for it and pressed it.
… From his point of view, the phone suddenly hung up, so of course you can ask.
“I was hung up on by soone I don’t know, but there was a bit of a misunderstanding.”
-ah… .
After a brief exclamation, he was speechless again. He seems to have understood the situation roughly.
‘Is this the end of the story?’
Now, when you wonder if it would be okay to end the call and hang up.
-I… Then wouldn’t it be okay if I told you the circumstances?
“what?”
– Lee Se-jin, right? You were my close friend. then…
“I’m going to return to the past in soone else’s body and beco an idol, but if I don’t, I’ll die, so just say that you leveled up and ca this far.”
-… … .
“Common sense, this… no sorry.”
At that mont, I realized why Keun Se-jin had stopped talking and left. I guess I did this to avoid needlessly shouting.
I shook my head and continued.
“I will organize and analyze the status window problem you just ntioned, so you should rest today too… … .”
-no. brother.
The guy stopped talking.
– I think it’s really the first ti that hyung doesn’t pay attention to the system story like this. Normally, you would have asked a lot of questions.
“… !”
– I think you are concerned about the current situation.
“… … .”
And a small voice was heard.
-Then just say… How about having a good ti?
I involuntarily clenched my fist.
That was the mont.
I suddenly recalled afterimages derived from those words.
Mistakes this guy made every ti I t him until now.
-brother!
-Geonwoo hyung… .
Errors in titles or endings.
I knew it was because he was so bad at deceiving others.
But now that I think about it, I wonder how the guy who lived in the body of Ryu Gun-woo for several years made such a mistake every ti… .
Isn’t it unnatural?
“You can’t believe you made mistakes whenever you were with the mbers… .”
-… … .
“Is it because you wanted to be found out?”
after a mont of silence.
A voice ca from the screen.
– Maybe…
“… !”
-I wasn’t conscious at the ti, but I think it was a bit unconscious… … . I think that will help my brother.
“what.”
-Testa is soone close to you who has lived with you for several years. I wanted my brother to feel at ease after revealing his secret… .
It is an action based on good will.
However, it reminds of sothing in that it does not consider the other person’s intentions and feelings at all.
And he talks about it himself.
-But that’s what the system does.
okay.
-Hyung, ignoring your thoughts and feelings and just doing it.
It was an overly chanical and inhuman impulse for this frail fellow.
I opened my mouth slowly.
“… So you guessed that it seems to be affected by the system?”
The last ti we t, it reminded of the guy who was especially afraid of the system.
– I feel that the part that has been assimilated with the system is getting stronger. Even if it moves to another body, it seems to have so effect.
And a bittersweet voice cos out of the screen, as if a little dejected.
-yes. So after I noticed, I’m really trying not to make mistakes… .
“… … .”
– It wasn’t really intentional. It must have been uncomfortable for you, but I’m really sorry. I will be very careful not to be swayed in the future… … .
“… okay.”
A sigh of relief was heard from the screen.
‘You’re having a hard ti.’
Being influenced by sothing you don’t know must be quite unpleasant.
‘I’m going to have to pay close attention to this guy’s condition from now on.’
As if I had been bathed in cold water, I looked at the big moon with a bit of my senses.
But the topic has returned.
-But hyung, though, this is a really separate ssage. That friend will definitely trust you.
I’m going crazy.
I said while holding back my sleep.
“If he had the personality to believe such science-fiction sounds, he would have been cleaned up by now.”
However, Lee Se-jin had the most realistic personality.
I conceded.
‘so… I was procrastinating.’
Because I have to work, the timing is not right.
With such an excuse, I was rationalizing the situation where I kept my mouth shut and procrastinated.
I was drunk with the atmosphere and said ‘I’ll tell you when the ti is right’, so I should say… No matter how I convey it, the probability of not believing it seems too high.
I sighed.
Then, a voice that sounded a bit ridiculous on the screen… What’s not funny?
-Hyung, I’m telling you in case you forgot… That brother was the status window??
I know that.
-I know how Lee Sejin-nim and hyung have been!
“… !!”
– The hyungs fighting and stuff like that… Anyway, I am speaking from the point of view of a third party who knows all the information. Trust … !
It was quite embarrassing to see all of it.
However, the big moon was embarrassing and nabal, and was almost making a noise now.
-That friend knows you as much as you are realistic… ! And we trust each other a lot.
And I’m funny, but I’m listening to that.
– If hyung explains it sincerely and honestly, you will believe it.
“… … .”
I laid down on one arm.
-brother… .
I don’t know.
“I don’t even know how to say it. It happened like this.”
-ah… .
“first… Take a look at the situation.”
It’s nabal to tell the truth now, and I don’t know how this guy will turn out tomorrow.
There was a possibility that it might not be a big deal because my emotions were intensified right away. If you cool down, you can explain the misunderstanding and be a little embarrassed, and then it will end.
– Bro, so… .
The guy on the screen seed to be trying to say sothing of encouragent in his own way, but it didn’t really co across.
“okay.”
I imdiately ended the call and replied to Sejin’s text ssage after conflict.
[sorry. Rest well]
And it was funny, but it really didn’t matter.
The very next day, the overti camp for the album went smoothly.
* * *
“I put a blast sound on the beat, what do you think?”
“Good? But how about putting it only at the point of the chorus and replacing it with a different sound in the verse? Your ears might get tired quickly.”
“All right!”
Big Sejin gave feedback and adjusted the situation well, no different from the previous day. Push the good comnts and cut out the inappropriate ones.
“I want to choose a song based on demo number 4. How about that?”
“… That’s fine. But I think number 3 is better.”
“okay.”
It’s not like when I was angry and the relationship was awkward before, and I didn’t just laugh and act well.
just… The sense of distance has deepened.
‘Damn it.’
You don’t give a chance to have a private conversation.
It was hard to even apologize for this. It’s because ‘I’m sorry’ is impossible to develop a ‘I’m fine’ conversation.
“Let’s get so rest.”
“yes.”
and break ti. I woke up after following with my eyes the guys who were scattering around the suite more freely than yesterday.
‘Let’s pour cold water on it.’
If you can’t concentrate because you’re frustrated, it’s stupid. Let’s have a cold water friction and wake up and look at the album.
I was on my way back after using the washstand by the front door.
“… Lee Se-jin.”
“yes?”
A voice ca from the kitchen next to the hallway.
Bae Se-jin calls the big Se-jin.
It was rare. That’s why I rembered the conversation I had with Bae Se-jin after the big Se-jin left yesterday.
-I… Did I say sothing strange?
-… no. It’s because there was a bit of a misunderstanding with . Sorry for getting you into trouble.
– No, no.
It’s a situation where anyone who hears it will bring up the topic.
The voices of two people with the sa na continued to be heard from across the corner of the hallway.
“excuse … I an yesterday Sorry if I made a mistake.”
“yes? no. It’s not like that. I made a fuss by myself.”
“… Isn’t that because there’s a problem?”
“Oh, that’s just my problem. Did I say sothing rude then? I’m sorry bro.”
“No, that’s fine… .”
After a mont of silence.
“Um bro. I have sothing else to do, so is it okay if I just say this?”
“… … wait for a sec.”
I heard Bae Se-jin swallow his saliva.
“… Hey, it was yesterday, but Park Moon-dae told about the person Park Moon-dae was looking for, so it wasn’t . I didn’t know because I happened to be there.”
“… … .”
“I didn’t have to say… .”
“brother.”
Big Sejin stopped talking.
“I think you should hear this from yourself.”
“… !”
“I really don’t think it’s your fault, so you don’t have to worry. Rather, thanks to you, you know. situation.”
I heard Bae Se-jin’s pain. The feeling of wanting to say what was going on and the thought of being out of place if I intervened more seed to cross paths.
and finally said
“okay. that… I hope you have a good talk with Moondae Park.”
“… … .”
The guy who would normally have said ‘yes’ and finished, instead spat out in a tired and sharp tone.
“… I don’t know. to do.”
“… !”
“anyway… yes. All right.”
I knew then.
Clearly, this guy was more concerned about the current situation than he was.
And there was also the urge to listen to the story because I was so pissed off right now.
‘then.’
I suddenly rembered the last words of the big moon that I replied to my words yesterday, ‘I don’t know what will happen after this happens.’
A statent that didn’t make much sense at the ti.
-Now that the situation is like this, wouldn’t you believe it more if I told you? You’re not the type to say nonsense to an angry person.
-… !
-Since I know you, you won’t think of it as an excuse or a prank if it sounds strange!
“… … .”
X feet. okay.
I picked up the phone and called the manager.
There is no other way. Let’s do it.
* * *
Sejin Lee liked concerts.
If you are familiar with him, it would be easy to misunderstand that soone like Lee Se-jin would prefer variety shows or appearances on famous YouTube channels.
Originally, what people thought with their head and what they felt with their heart were different.
The concert was no different from proof of oneself as an idol.
Existence of dreams and ambitions.
‘So good… .’
But today I couldn’t fully enjoy that good concert.
Originally, at a concert, it is normal for the mbers to get together and enjoy a et-and-greet around the ti of the encore.
Even if it’s not that, when I match the sum with the mbers who are on stage like that, it also inspires imrsion and a sense of belonging.
But today that was impossible.
‘under… .’
It is because we stood on stage together without having had a proper conversation with Park Moon-dae since the uproar a few days ago.
I am conscious of it mont by mont as if a stone got into my shoe, and every ti I feel depressed.
‘why… .’
In fact, I already knew that Park Moon-dae did not ‘look at with as much generosity’ as the other mbers.
In fact, I was rather willing.
Because it felt like a kind of relationship establishnt.
‘Equal friends.’
I even shrugged a little. Even if the group disappears, he is confident that he and Park Moon-dae will continue to work together and remain friends, even if no one else knows.
that reassurance.
However, once you know that it is an illusion, as much as that certainty… I feel betrayed.
‘It’s really funny.’
No, Park Moon-dae didn’t say that he believed in you the most, so what kind of betrayal did he have?
Sejin Lee laughed.
I know very well that being a human being can easily change positions depending on the environnt. And there was nothing particularly sad about it.
‘This industry is more like that.’
However, he couldn’t understand why he felt so sad as if he had beco a great friend with Park Moon-dae.
But if you think about it again, isn’t that enough?
‘It’s not like we were just a moderate group.’
We spent a lot of ti talking about all sorts of worries and accidents and even revealing our personal history.
And yet… .
Sejin Lee clenched his fists.
‘It’s over with an apology through text.’
Park Moon-dae ans that he has nothing to regret right now.
What’s even funnier is that he’s thinking about whether to talk first and solve the situation.
Wow!
Sejin Lee took a deep breath as he watched the shower of flowers burst from the side of the stage.
It wasn’t just out of breath.
‘It’s annoying.’
On this fine day, it was absurd that I was in bad shape because I had a fight with one of the mbers in front of a large number of spectators.
It’s because I’ve tried the most idiot who can’t distinguish that kind of construction.
So I paid more attention to performance and live. If you lack imrsion, you have to do it elaborately.
“Thank you for your hard work~”
“You worked hard!”
So, when I ca down after the concert, I felt a sense of desolation greater than the overflowing joy as usual.
It felt like the energy that was overflowing on stage had disappeared.
“… … .”
“How are you biting?”
“What were you doing, you left quickly!”
In the anti, the fact that the other party went unhard sohow made even more pissed off.
‘Why am I the only one consuming my emotions?’
Lee Se-jin struggled between heat and fatigue, and eventually left with a sigh.
I was thinking of getting in the car and going back to the hotel and going to sleep.
Tirik.
But when I opened the door to the hotel and went in.
“Are you here?”
“… ?!”
Soone was already sitting in the room.
“I got the key from the manager.”
Soone who had their hands on the table… … It was Park Moon-dae.
Lee Se-jin doubted his eyes for a mont.
‘this… .’
What’s the matter?
Why the hell is the guy who said he went in first?
At that mont, a flash of hope passed through my mind.
‘no way?’
I’m going to grab an apple and try it… .
“Sorry for trespassing.”
“Ah, sorry about that?”
X feet X feet.
Big Sejin felt the urge to slap his own mouth. I don’t even know why I’m talking like this.
In the first place, it seed like it was losing in itself to reveal a displeased look.
and… So I was afraid that the relationship would beco strange.
“I’m sorry about that and I’m sorry about the other things.”
However, despite this, Park Mun-dae calmly answered without any other reply.
Being calm, sohow I didn’t like it more.
“what.”
‘No really calm… Did you do it?’
He almost cried, but at the mont he checked Moondae Park’s face and posture.
His expression was still serious, but his hands were touching his fingers and making small movents on his shoulders.
“… !”
Park Moon-dae… I was very nervous.
“That’s sothing I couldn’t properly explain to you yesterday.”
“… … .”
“The hyungs don’t know all about my situation properly. Only part of it was caught.”
“You heard ?”
“okay. So it ans that this is the first ti I am speaking with my own mouth.”
“… … .”
Lee Se-jin forgot all the complexities and irritations for a mont and focused on the conversation.
what the hell are you trying to say
“first… I think it would be appropriate to start by saying this.”
Park Moon-dae’s eyes lit up.
“I am not Park Moon-dae.”
“… ??”
“And back to the past.”
Lee Se-jin began to suspect that he had actually fallen asleep in the car.
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