Phel sat silently in front of the classroom, listening to Arza talk about their revised battle tactics now that Evin was gone. Evin's role in the Helm Class was rather big, him being the head of Heavy Mages and all. It was taking so ti to find a suitable replacent for him.
But aside from Evin leaving sowhere without a word, all these things weren't so important to Phel.
His eyes were stuck on Arza. The ponytail that contrasted the rest of his short hair, his forever-grinning white teeth, and of course, his buff abs and plump ass barely being contained inside his uniform. Phel found himself eyeing those especially often lately.
But Phel wasn't just concerned with Arza's looks. His attention couldn't help but get drawn to the charisma oozing from the red-hair's body. The confidence, the air of control, the visionary gaze… The way Arza stood on the podium in such a natural way, he even looked a more convincing teacher than the Chairman sitting next to him.
'Shit…' Phel sighed, once again wondering how he was going to end up with Arza… or if such a thing was going to happen or not.
His mind seed to be experiencing a lot of shifts lately. At first, it felt like a relationship between him and Arza was sothing from fairy tales. How could he imagine sothing like this working in the first place? But gradually, he beca more and more educated on the matter.
Although sa sex relationships weren't sothing so widespread in the kingdom, it was sothing common in the East. It wasn't widespread, but two n could hug and kiss in public without drawing much attention.
It was the sa story in the North. Actually, the story behind that was actually pretty interesting. The story goes that since the Northern n find themselves fighting lots of wars, naturally, they started developing so feelings for the brothers in arms that they so often fight together with.
So books even said that these couples of war fight many tis stronger than normal soldiers to impress their loved ones, and fight even harder to avenge their lovers when they fall in battle. Such a tragic story wasn't for Phel, but he appreciated their existence nonetheless.
Phel dug through a lot of history and found a few other accounts regarding sa sex couples. It was a difficult thing to research, as he needed to blindly pick a history book in hopes of them containing the relevant information. He didn't want the librarians to learn he was interested in the topic, so this was the best he could do for now.
However, Phel was satisfied. He wasn't such a rare oddity he first made himself out to be. There were others like him. This fact allowed Phel one huge choice. To confess to Arza.
It wouldn't be anything difficult. He'd approach the boy, talk about Arza's philosophy of staying true to one's heart, and reveal that he was in love with him.
And honestly, he felt like he had a proper chance.
Arza got into two more relationships after Lopar, and in both cases, it sounded like he just agreed to two random girls just asking him out. If Phel did the sa, wouldn't Arza say yes?
And that wasn't all. He was gradually getting closer to Arza, making himself and the red-haired boy more and more comfortable with each other's presence.
They seed to vibe well with each other too. Phel was one of the few people that Arza never argued with, Phel was also one of the few people that could accept Arza's arrangents of the Helm Class, and was probably the only person who could wholeheartedly accept Arza's rules on staying true to one's heart.
'Well, I can accept it… but it seems I'm not yet able to practice it myself.'
If he did so, he would've confessed already.
"Hey," a girl's voice approached him.
Phel looked over to see Bella standing next to him.
"Hey, Bella," Phel replied. "What's, err… What's up?"
"Nothing," Bella said. "Can't I just say hi?"
"Of course, of course."
It's been a long ti since she went out of her way to talk, so Phel was a bit surprised.
"Well… How's life going for you?" he asked.
"Ugh, miserable," Bella grinned. "I didn't think Evin leaving would be this bad… but it's this bad. I'm even considering talking to other people again."
'Guess she's just bored.'
"Well, I'm definitely not a good conversationalist like Evin, but I'll do my best."
"You damn better," Bella smiled and sat next to Phel.
"By the way, where did Evin go to in the first place?" Phel asked. "Or did he not even tell you?"
"Oh, he did tell . But I can't talk about to you. It's rather complicated. And dangerous. So don't feel bad about him being all secretive about it."
"Oh, I'm curious, but I'm not hurt. Since he has his reasons, I won't pry about it."
"Thanks," Bella smiled, before whispering ever so casually. "So, how's things between you and Arza?"
Hit by the sudden question, it took Phel's every effort to stay calm and collected.
"What do you an? We're doing fine. As friends."
"Oh, co on, don't take for a fool," Bella said, her hand wrapping around Phel's shoulder. Her cheeks ca close to Phel's and she whispered again. "And I'm sure the other girls in the class noticed your passionate stares at Arza too, you know? You practically drool when your eyes fall on him."
Phel shook his head in rebuttal, "Seriously, what are you talking about?"
"If you don't admit it yourself… I might just tell Arza myself."
"N0-" Phel was about to shout, before Bella covered his mouth.
"Shhh. We don't wanna make a fuss now, do we? And you can trust to keep my mouth shut if you just act faithful to yourself. Of course, if you don't want taking the spotlight."
Phel sighed, helpless in the hands of the girl, and nodded.
Bella's mouth widened before forming a grin. She created a small barrier around themselves that isolated sound.
"Really?"
"Yes."
"Holy shit, I thought you… Holy shit."
"You weren't sure?" Phel asked.
"I an… I was pretty sure. But you know?"
She was practically radiating excitent.
'If you love gossip this much, then how co you hate the nobility and their frivolous pastis?!'
"Since when?"
"Since the Helm's Worthy. When he ca to save Evin with ."
Bella asked countless questions afterwards about Phel's feelings towards Arza. Phel replied obediently, feeling like he'd forced to answer if he refused anyway. And it felt good to finally talk about these things to soone else anyway. He's been pondering upon these things alone since forever, feeling that others would judge him. In a sense, he was glad to Bella for forcing him to talk. He was also glad she was taking things so casually.
"You don't feel weirded out by ?" he couldn't help but ask in the end.
"No, of course not," Bella shrugged. "Though in my case, I don't really give two shits who you end up with, so I guess I just don't care. I'm sure Evin would accept you for the proper reasons, though."
"Fair enough."
"But when are you going to confess?"
"I… Not sure."
"Don't tell you're not going to do it."
"I'll do it… definitely. But I'll do it when I'm confident."
"Bah, I'm sure Arza's gonna get another three girlfriends before you make up your mind. Don't co crying to when one of them sticks."
"I'll be happy if he's happy."
"Bullshit. I'm confident Arza will also accept you for the right reasons too, you know?
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