[Vol.2] Quest 173- The Saint & The GoddessThe first ti I t her was late at night. She was rather ill-tempered, to say the least. She does bear a very striking resemblance to Cirrus, enough for one to think he was actually her child, but after that, she is nothing like Cirrus and more like…well, I don’t have soone to compare her to.
"U-um…"
"Staaaaaare~"
"Um, my na is-"
"Shirakusa Ai, fifteen years old, level 6, known as the Flashing Saint of the Susanoo Familia, 5’3, not counting ears, bust 85, waist 59, hips 87."
"H-how do you know my asurents!" She said, covering herself with an embarrassed flush.
"I have an eye for won. I can tell how they are from the way they talk and walk, how much effort they put into their hair, skin, nails, clothing, everything that could or would make a woman a woman. I know it."
"R-really!?"
Cirrus said she was the goddess of won; I can see why.
"Yup so~" She gets up and sits next to Ai. "I can see you’re a very kind, a bit ditzy girl with a prudish sense of style; black pants with boots; white and purple top that covers your cleavage; yet you have a rather aggressive appetite, don’t you?"
She has the grace and bluntness that can get anyone off their rhythm. She hits those spots so well it’s comparable to Artemis’s aim.
"!!!" Her face began to turn even redder than before.
"I was right! Don’t be embarrassed; you have to be that aggressive to beat Cirrus."
"C-can we stop talking about this subject!" she said, covering her ears.
"Fine, but do you wish to be of more use to Cirrus?"
"Huh?"
"Well, you are very skilled at many things, but…I’m sure since you are from the Far East, you know of the term, Yamato Nadeshiko, correct?"
"O-Of course! Everyone wishes to strive to be that for their loved one!"
"Then if you like, do you wish to learn to achieve that?"
"Eh?"
She was the goddess of won, of course. She would be everything a woman would wish to be and do and all the positive and negative things that co with it.
"I asked if you wished to be a Yamato Nadeshiko. I can teach you to reach such a title. You could be more useful to Cirrus than just cooking, fighting, and stress relief. I can endow you with the cunning and wisdom to match his intelligence!"
"R-really!!"
"Well, close enough to it to help him with any paperwork and the like, along with so other choices."
"I…I’ll take that offer!"
I would co to greatly regret accepting that offer. I regret not listening to Cirrus.
I took a shower and was given clothes to wear. When I left to go et her, she was wearing the sa clothes but with a beautiful straw hat for the morning sun.
"Make sure you get rid of the weeds and check for any insects."
"Right!"
She showed
how to garden.
"Clean this room up for . You can dispose of the bottles however you wish…no actually I wish to see your drawing speed."
"My drawing speed? Um sure?"
My sword-drawing skills are probably what I’m most proud of, more than my cooking, clothing, and my hair. So of course I would show off.
"Amazing! Try this one!"
Lady Hera would continue to test how good I was by making more and more complicated ways for
to cut the bottles in one slice until she was satisfied, which lasted for about 3 hours, and then we moved on to sothing else.
"Do you know how to sew?"
"Um…no? Well a bit, not a lot."
"Well, you are learning today. You're going to be sewing so well that you'll never need a seamstress!"
She was talented in many things, as I would learn through the days I spent with her while Cirrus was dealing with Alfia’s request,
"Too much salt."
"It’s one two three, one two three!"
"What is the conjugate of the complex number z = 3
2i? -3
2i, -3 – 2i, 3 – 2i, or 3
2i?"
"What the hell is imaginary!? Why are letters in math!!"
and extrely strict.
"Keep your head up! posture straight! If one book falls, it’s ten lashes to the thighs Cirrus loves so much!"
"How do you know that!!"
Her standards were easy to satisfy, but the more she taught , the harder they got and the more it took to satisfy her.
"Again! Now do it within 5 minutes on the dot!"
"It took you 9 minutes and 19 seconds to finish cleaning up! I want it done in 5!"
I could see why Alfia didn’t like her goddess very much, but-
"Hahaha!!! You did it!"
"Perfection!"
"Keep it up!"
When she complints you, it’s truly like all your work has been validated. A feeling close to leveling up is what I can compare it to, but it is far in between the yelling and lashing from failures.
"Run it again! One, two, and step!"
"What is this garbage!"
Truthfully, I found my feminine skills have greatly improved, but…my inadequacies have also improved from these flaws that I can’t seem to get over. They gnaw at , wanting
to be better, to do better.
"One more sit up! n like girls who are thin and light!"
"Don’t cut your hair! A woman’s beauty is in her hair!"
I felt so inadequate all the ti, I felt miserable.
"That’s enough for today. Go rest." She left, walking out to the garden with another bottle of wine in hand.
I would see her out there drinking alone…for one who sees herself as the pinnacle of what a woman could be, she looks so very alone, almost unnaturally alone.
"Um…Lady Hera?" She wanted to see if she was okay. "Are you fine?"
"I am. No need to concern yourself with ."
"I’m sorry you…you just look so lonely."
"…Go to bed. I don’t want to talk."
"…Okay."
I looked back at her to see her face as stoic and resolute as always, but her fierce ruby eyes looked weak at that brief mont. Maybe she drank a few too many bottles and her shell broke, showing a very brief pain. I won’t ever really know what I saw and thought that night. I know from my interactions with Hera that she will never discuss it.
I rember sothing she said that stuck out to
now: "To speak of your pain is a weakness, and weakness is sothing won mustn’t have. They must always be strong and prideful so no one can bring them down or hurt them.". A view possibly stemming from experience.
I can see what she wanted
to be, not just a Yamato Nadeshiko. No, she wanted
to be sothing more; sothing that can handle whatever cos my way and that no one wants to throw away. But it’s impossible to know what she is thinking.
…It sucks…it’s horrible having to bottle up so many different emotions and not do what I want. I’m not that…I’m not a Yamato Nadeshiko either…I’m just not what I wanted nor what she wanted.
Five days after Cirrus had left, he finally returned.
"I’m back!!"
His voice was like an ocean of relief to .
"Cirrus!!"
I said, running up to him and embracing him as warmly and tightly as I could.
"You seem to have changed?" His eyes dart around my body, checking for anything. "Did you start to grow out your hair?"
"I have been instructing her on how to be the perfect woman!" Hera said, drinking from her seat.
"Taught her?"
I can see the look in his eyes. Hera was eying everything. His gaze was quick and sharp like hers, another similarity.
"I see!" he said with a forced smile. "Well, thank you for your help, but now that I settled Alfia’s request, I think we’ll get going now."
I could tell he was angry by the slight tightening of his fingers and the twitch of the corner of his eyes.
"Sure thing! It was nice to et my future granddaughter-in-law! You held up well these past few days! Far more than those of my Familia."
She helped pack so things and we were gone. She didn’t try and make our stay longer; she never even deviated from her casual expression not once.
"Bye-bye!" She gently waved them off.
He didn’t ask
anything about my ti there until out of the blue, in the dead of night, when Nox was asleep.
"You know, I think you're perfect, right?"
"Eh?"
I couldn’t sleep, I’d been restless since leaving Hera’s ho, and her words linger in my ears. Maybe that’s why he brought it up. He knew Hera got to .
"I know Hera…well taught you well, but you shouldn’t take everything from her as gospel. There is a reason why Zeus keeps having flings."
That’s right when I asked Lady Astraea about Hera, she said that her beloved was never faithful to her. At first, when I saw her, I couldn’t see it. Hera was a golden beauty with skills that could easily win over anyone, but…she was prideful to a fault, assured in her own words and opinions. It was unbearable to be with her, to say the least.
But…that day, I asked if she was okay when she was drinking alone. That mont sticks out in my ti with her so much like a 20 story tower in a small village out in the boonies. Maybe there was far more to her than I had thought.
"So be yourself, Ai. I love you for all your flaws and imperfections."
"B-but don’t you want a perfect lover?"
"Perfection is subjective and impossible for us all to achieve. I an, do you think I’m perfect?"
"Mmm…" She thought on it and Cirrus did have so stuff that rubbed her the wrong way. For one, he was too much of a workaholic, working day and night on stuff and patrols. He would always keep things to himself, preferring to let himself be the only one to carry them. Ai gathered that it all stemd from his baggage from the Kaios Desert. "I guess not."
"But you still love
nonetheless, right?"
"…Yeah. I see your point."
Why did I second guess his feelings? He still wears the charms I made him five years ago. But…it’s still their…that thought.
"You don’t look certain?"
"I’m sorry…but I still find it a bit hard, you know…She really got to . I should have listened to you."
"Hmm…well we all make mistakes, Ai. I an, if you learn from that, then it was a mistake worth making. I an, I’m sure you picked up so useful stuff from her right?"
"Hm. I learned so very useful stuff…a surprising amount. But…I still feel like shit."
No matter how good her teachings were, I still feel that I’m not good enough. I could do better, be better. It gnawed and gnawed at
as this self expectation slowly consus as if I was in a pit of tar.
"Hmm…How about I tell you sothing only I know and no one else in this world knows? I don’t know if it’ll make you feel any better, but it’s sothing special to ."
"What is it?"
"My na."
"Your na? It's Cirrus Zephyr, isn’t it?"
"That is what I was given by Fels and Ouranos, but I do have a birth na."
"!?"
He had a birth na!? Then it’s the na his mother gave him!
"R-really!?"
"Yup." Cirrus takes out several Sound Eaters and places them around him and her and whispers. "My birth na is Alcides."
"Al…cides?"
"Yes, that was the na my mother gave
when she left . It ans' strength…guess she wanted
to grow up healthy…. I have never told a soul about it; not even Nox knows. So you are the only one to know."
"Alcides…Alcides…Alcides…" She says it to get a feel for the na. "Hm… I think I like Cirrus better."
He made a warm smile, a smile only I have seen and, even if it is selfish of , I wanted to keep it to myself.
"Thanks…So can you fall asleep better now?"
No. I couldn’t.
"A-Ai what are you-?"
I took advantage of the Sound Eaters and kissed him. I could see his face blush a bit and his eyes widen from the surprise.
"Cirrus, can we stay like this?" Ai hugs him tightly.
We stared into each other’s eyes as we lay next to one another in each other’s embrace.
"Yeah…this is fine." He brings her in close.
I put my ear to his chest and I could hear his steady heartbeat.
Thump! Thump!
Thump! Thump!
It was like a lullaby, lulling
into a calm sleep.
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