DESTINED MATE : SWEET ALPHA PHEROMONE Chapter 63

Our life after back from the hospital went on as usual. We returned to Gruvv’s house on the mountain, after we had experienced such a long RUT and HEAT. We experienced RUT and HEAT again simultaneously after that.

A short while later, Gruvv was asked to co to the Dhurudatta family’s main house. I know the Dhurudatta family was so kind to when Gruvv was going through the interminable RUT, they took care of and made sure that I was in a safe condition.

I could see Gruvv was so nervous when he was in the dressing room, he stayed in front of the wardrobe just to look at all the suits hanging neatly.

"Don’t know which one to wear?" My question made him turn his head, I could sll his pheromones. Funny, now I can tell what he’s feeling just from his pheromones.

"Yes, this is the annual dinner our family holds, what do you think I should wear?" He asked while crossing his arms over his chest, his eyes still staring at the wardrobe with the translucent glass.

I moved closer to the wardrobe and sorted out so suits, "These always fit when you wear them."

He frowned his forehead, "You’ve seen wearing these two suits?"

I nodded. He had worn it on business out of town a while ago, but he didn’t seem to rember that. I was always watching his every move, what he wore, what he ate and drank. In an instant his presence in my life just happened and now I’m used to it, if he’s out of sight for a while my heart gets restless.

He took the suit I picked out and put it on, I gave him two thumbs up. He looks handso and dashing.

I stared at the car leaving the house, hugging myself as the winter wind hit. I wore only a thin cardigan, escorting Gruvv’s departure from the terrace. I quickly went inside.

Strangely, this house doesn’t make lonely.

There’s a warm feeling inside this house, in a house that once even felt so foreign to . I lived in this house for almost a year and in that year we went through many things. I didn’t know that Gruvv’s presence beside could make this comfortable.

Gruvv said he would try to get Seth back. But, I’m not sure he can do it.

I sat down on one of the couches in the room, Ave greeted kindly and asked if I would eat my dessert lunch and I nodded. She imdiately prepared what I wanted, without speaking Ave already knew what to put in front of . What I liked and didn’t like, she had morized it by heart.

"How was the pudding today?" Ave asked, she sat beside and looked at with her usual gentle gaze.

I was scooping the pudding into my mouth, "This is delicious, it tastes so fresh." I said, Ave smiled with her whole body.

"Lychee pudding is supposed to be eaten in the sumr, but I’m sure Mr. Shiloh would like it even if it’s the middle of winter."

I nodded, I liked many foods that I had never even tried before. During my ti in this house, those foods turned into my daily als.

"What about your HEAT Mr. Shiloh?" Ave asked, taking the empty pudding bowl in my hand and sliding a plate of chocolate cake closer to .

"I experienced it many tis after a long ti of not experiencing it, it feels.... weird.."

Ave nodded, she stirred the hot tea that she had just put sugar into. I myself still feel like I’m in a dream, what I experienced a while ago with Gruvv is really like a miracle. After Elina said that I might be transitioning into a recessive Oga, suddenly the RUT that Gruvv experienced also triggered the HEAT inside .

We had both just experienced them after not having experienced them for a long ti. If I can say, after I woke up from what happened, my body felt like it was destroyed. The pain was from my toes to my head.

"Mr. Shiloh had a seizure so ti ago..." Ave handed the cup of tea that she had finished stirring. She looked at who was chewing a piece of cake in my mouth.

"Seizures?"

"Mr. Shiloh, you can’t take birth control pills, it made Mr. Gruvv lose control for a while when you had a seizures."

I don’t rember it. There were many things that I didn’t realize, or didn’t even rember. Like the wound on my wrist, I repeatedly asked Ave what happened. At first, Ave didn’t want to say anything, but I pressed her.

She said I made a suicide attempt and that morning the one who found was Gruvv, he had a panic attack and almost lost himself. There were a few more things that happened and I kept making Gruvv lose control of himself.

Sotis, fear haunts . I feel like I shouldn’t be here, I shouldn’t be by Gruvv’s side. After all, I’m Gil’s son.

"Mr. Shiloh, I hope you recover soon. Since you’ve been here, Mr. Gruvv is much more gentle." Ave held my hand, rubbing it gently. I could only manage a small smile and nodded although in my heart I wasn’t sure.

I was sitting on the bed in my room, the curtains were open so I could see the snow falling. Gruvv was at his family’s house, I didn’t know what they were talking about there. My fear that his family would reject my presence made eat up all the negative thoughts.

However, it’s not like they’re rejecting .

Again, shouldn’t I know myself? I’m Gil’s son.

I watched the snow fall one by one, making white piles on the balcony terrace. This was the first winter I could enjoy without the fear of my father coming and bringing dicine to drink, I no longer had to worry about cold food that looked more like dog food than human food.

I didn’t need to hear my father cursing at every day and telling that I was useless. Mom’s death was like the beginning of hell for , and now Gruvv freed from those shackles. He took out of Madam Rose, he killed that old woman, and now he’s after dad.

Does Gruvv hate ?

I’m Gil’s son, the man who almost destroyed his family’s business. The man who made his family lose so much money. He should hate , but, he says that he loves . He said it over and over again at every opportunity, when we were making love, when we were watching television, when we were having a snack, when we were walking in the backyard, or when we were enjoying the flowers in the greenhouse.

He always said that he loved . I couldn’t help feeling too, I loved him. It was a different kind of love like when I felt it with Mateo. A feeling of love that gives a sense of security and comfort.

I walked to the window, closed the curtains and now darkness fell. I didn’t turn on the light and sat back on the bed, not hearing any sounds from outside the room. Usually at night there was no one else in the house, but Gruvv had now asked one of the maids to wait for him to back while occasionally checking on .

I know he’s worried.

I took off my clothes, turned on the light and walked into the wardrobe room, I looked at my naked body. So of the scars were still visible and didn’t seem to be able to just disappear, I touched Hanahaki’s surgical wound. Finally, I was no longer vomiting flower petals, I don’t have to feel cramped anymore on my chest. I trace the scar from when I gave birth to Seth, a beautiful scar that I will never forget.

"The pheromones you released for Seth were a traumatizing mont for you, hence you have trouble slling your own pheromones and cannot experience HEAT for a long ti."

That sentence rang in my head. I still rember how it felt to hold Seth in my arms, his loud cries and showering him in my pheromones. I wanted him to rember , the tears just fell, I sobbed.

I quickly put my clothes back on, this body doesn’t look beautiful, why would Gruvv want to be with ? Does having sex with make him horny? I don’t look pretty. But, he always call pretty, beautiful. Weird.

He is weird, but I love him.

I miss him, being alone in this house without him makes feel empty, I want to hug him, I want to lay my body next to him and look at his face. I miss Gruvv.

A ssage ca in when I had just pulled up the blanket and closed my eyes, it was from Gruvv. A ssage that made smile widely.

Dad said you should co to our next family dinner. You’re part of this family.