Chapter 118 Dean’s soliloquy (Part 2)
Not long after that, we moved from the palace to the queen dowager’s palace.
Even so, Queen Ellia kept sending assassins our way.
I didn’t have much practice in actual battle, so I kept at training in martial arts. Even Duke Anderson was shocked at how quickly I progressed.
But all of Ellia’s actions were truly irritating. I’ve considered cutting the issue off at the root, but we’ve never been able to uncover actual evidence of her wrongdoing.
I really have to thank Duke Anderson for his hellish training...sorry, I ant loving lessons. Heh.
At the ti, I studied greedily, absorbing all sorts of knowledge and information.
My ti living in a contained world passed bit by bit.
Finally, most people on the outside gradually forgot about my existence, and I could start going out proactively once more.
Sotis it was patrolling various lands, trying to recruit talent.
Sotis it was attending schools and joining rchants’ guilds, all under different nas of course.
The queen dowager never challenged on any of my actions. More accurately, she encouraged to go out on my own.
And then one day, I t her.
Through introductions made at the guild, I entered the Arnia territory in subterfuge, accepting an errand-running position under an official.
That was where I t Duke Arnia’s daughter.
Since I t her, the world around changed completely. What was once a monochro world beca splendid and colorful.
In this deceitful world where adults all wore shallow, brutish smiles, only she maintained a smile that was pure as a girl’s. She was outraged at injustice and shed tears for her own inability to do more.
Originally she seed like nothing more than an emotional young girl, but she was also more than capable of sticking through hard tis and cutting off her emotions to deal with politics.
Every single ti she could co up with new innovations that were beyond my imagination, and kept moving forward in the pursuit of her ideals.
Everything about her drew to her. I couldn’t help myself.
Even though I wanted to free her to do everything she wanted, I also wanted to limit her at all costs so that she would never be taken away from .
Each and every ti I needed to keep warning myself.
“Don’t forget. In my veins flows the blood of a king.”
But Iris wouldn’t beco like my own mother. After all, Iris’s family was elite even among the nobles–Duke Arnia’s family.
She herself has undergone a suitable education to her family na.
Even though she had lost an engagent, if she were engaged to the first prince then no one would ever want to ntion sothing like that again.
But that also ant that the person she married would have to be soone of significant status.
If she wanted to get married, her partner could only be the first prince, or from another distant nation.
Like Rudy had said, if I secured an engagent with her, there would be significant benefits for both and the Arnia family.
But who really wants to put soone they care about in that kind of danger?
Before I can settle my differences with Queen Ellia, forcing Iris into an engagent will only make her another target for my enemies.
Beforehand because of the queen dowager’s plots, Iris had attended the reconstruction party and recovered so of her reputation. Because of that, she was already sowhat of an obstacle for them. They might even want to take action against her directly.
...But more importantly, if I ever brought her to my side, I would probably beco no different from the king right now.
I would end up breaking her wings and trap her in the cage that we call a “palace”.
She’ll only be able to look at . Even though she’ll be trapped, she’ll never be bored.
If that were the case, the free-spirited woman that I loved would vanish completely.
I’m such a contradictory person.
One day, I will erge onto the political stage as a mber of the royal family.
That day is not so far away.
When the day cos, it will also be the ti for decisions.
So please...just let have a bit more ti, a bit more ti to do what I want!
In the near future, I’ll beco that chanism known as “king”. When that happens, I’ll have to abandon all my human emotions.
So give more ti, until I have to leave her, the person who makes feel most human.
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