ZOE DEAN’S POV
For a mont, I couldn’t move. Couldn’t breathe.
The sound of the ocean faded until all I could hear was the rush of my own pulse — loud, frantic, as if my heart was trying to break free from my chest.
My father?
No. That couldn’t be right.
I blinked at Nero, searching his face for sothing — a crack in his expression, a smirk, anything that would tell I’d heard wrong. But he just stood there, silent, eyes dark with sothing I couldn’t na. Pain. Regret. Truth.
"You’re lying," I whispered, shaking my head so hard my hair brushed against my cheeks. "That’s not true."
He didn’t say a word.
"Say sothing," I demanded, my voice trembling, panic clawing at the edge of my throat. "What do you an my father killed your mother?"
Nero’s jaw tightened. He shut his eyes for a mont, as if steadying himself, before forcing the words out. "I’m sorry you had to find out this way, Zoe. But that’s... the truth."
The world tilted.
My breath hitched, the wind biting at my face, sharp against the tears I hadn’t realized were falling.
"I don’t understand," I stamred. "My father left when I was a child. I barely even rember his face. He wasn’t—he couldn’t—"
"He could," Nero said quietly, cutting off. "And he did."
I stumbled back a step, instinctively trying to put space between us, as though distance could make the truth less real. "No. You must have the wrong man. You don’t even know what he looks like, Nero. You—"
"I do." His voice hardened, not in anger, but in finality. "I’ve seen his photo. I’ve heard his na. Zoe, your father—Michael Dean—is the man who shot my mother."
The na hit like a blade twisting in my chest. Michael Dean. My father.
I felt everything in still — my heartbeat, my breath, my thoughts. For a long mont, I couldn’t even blink.
My father.
The man who left . The man who haunted every nightmare, who I had spent years trying not to rember.
And now... this.
My knees trembled, and I wrapped my arms around myself, as if I could hold together everything that was breaking inside. My throat ached, words clawing to get out but dying before they reached my lips.
"Zoe—"
"Don’t," I said hoarsely. "Just... don’t."
He fell silent, his expression torn between wanting to reach out and knowing he couldn’t.
The waves rolled against the rocks below, a slow, steady rhythm that sohow made the silence louder.
After what felt like forever, I managed to whisper, "You left because of this?"
He nodded slowly. "I had to confirm it. Somchai found old military records, black-market docunts... and the na kept showing up. When I saw it for myself—" He stopped, exhaling shakily. "It destroyed ."
I stared at him, struggling to process everything. "So all this ti, while I was wondering why you disappeared... you were chasing proof that my father killed your mother?"
"Yes."
"Without telling ."
His eyes flickered, full of guilt. "Zoe—"
"You should’ve told , Nero!" My voice cracked, louder this ti. "You should have told !"
"I couldn’t," he snapped, then his tone softened almost imdiately. "I didn’t even believe it at first. How could I tell you sothing like that when I could barely process it myself?"
Tears burned my eyes. "And now you think I’ll hurt less? You think this doesn’t break too?"
He didn’t answer. He didn’t have to. His silence said everything.
Sothing inside splintered — not from the truth alone, but from knowing he had carried it by himself. That he chose distance over trust.
I turned toward the sea, watching the water crash against the rocks. "So what now?" I asked, voice barely above a whisper. "You ca here to tell my father’s a murderer?"
"No." His answer was imdiate, low, steady. "I ca because I didn’t want you finding out from soone else. You deserved to hear it from ."
I let out a broken laugh — short, bitter. "From you. The man whose mother my father killed."
"Don’t say it like that," he murmured, voice thick.
"How else should I say it?" I t his gaze, my vision blurry with tears. "That’s what it is, isn’t it? My father killed your mother. What does that make us, Nero?"
He took a slow step toward . His voice dropped to a whisper. "It makes us two people who didn’t ask for any of this. Two people trying to survive what they left behind."
The words should have comforted , but they didn’t. They just hurt more.
"I don’t even know who I am anymore," I whispered, my voice shaking. "Everything about feels tainted now."
He shook his head, his eyes fierce. "You’re still you, Zoe. You’re not him. You never were."
I wanted to believe that. God, I wanted to. But the guilt — irrational, cruel — pressed against my chest like a weight I couldn’t lift.
I wiped my tears, but more ca anyway. "So that’s why you sent Benny. You didn’t want around after you found out."
He sighed, dragging a hand through his hair. "It wasn’t like that."
"Then what was it?" I asked, voice trembling. "Because to , it looked like you ran."
"I did," he admitted quietly. "When I found out, I lost it. I couldn’t think. All I could see was my mother... the blood, the sound, everything. And I was terrified that if I stayed, I’d look at you and see him. I didn’t want that. I didn’t want to hurt you."
I stared at him, disbelief and sorrow tangled inside . "And you thought leaving without a word was better?"
"No," he said softly. "But it was the only way I knew how not to break you — or myself."
The sincerity in his voice cut through my anger like glass. But it didn’t stop the ache.
I turned away again, hugging myself. "You should’ve trusted with the truth," I murmured. "You should’ve known I’d never bla you for wanting answers."
He hesitated, then stepped closer. "I was afraid," he said finally. "Not of the truth — but of losing you."
I closed my eyes, my heart twisting painfully. "You lost the mont you walked away."
He was quiet for a long ti. Then, softly, "I’m sorry."
The sun was sinking lower now, painting the horizon in bruised shades of purple and gold. The air between us was thick — not just with grief, but with everything unsaid.
When I finally found the courage to look at him again, he looked... tired. Like a man who had carried a war inside him for too long.
"What happens now, Nero?" I asked. "Are you going after him?"
He didn’t answer imdiately. His gaze drifted toward the sea, eyes reflecting the fading light. "I don’t know."
I frowned. "You don’t know?"
He shook his head slowly. "I’ve thought about it, again and again. The revenge. The anger. But I’m done letting it own ." He exhaled, his voice barely above a whisper. "I’ve chosen forgiveness."
I blinked, stunned. "Forgiveness?"
"Yes." He looked at , and there was peace — fragile, but real — in his eyes. "I’ve spent years chasing a ghost. Years planning how to destroy a man I’ve never t. But if I go down that road, I’ll lose myself. And worse — I’ll lose you. I can’t let that happen."
My heart stuttered.
He took another small step closer. "That’s why I needed ti alone. To face it. To let it go. To choose my happiness over revenge."
I stared at him, unsure whether to cry harder or collapse in relief. "You’re serious?"
"I am."
For the first ti since he’d spoken those awful words — your father killed my mother — sothing warm flickered in my chest. Pain still lingered, but beneath it was sothing quieter. Hope.
I took a shaky breath. "I don’t know how to move past this, Nero. I don’t know if I ever will."
"Then we’ll take it one day at a ti," he said softly. "You and ."
His words hung in the air between us, fragile and trembling, like the last light of the setting sun.
I looked at him — really looked — and saw the man I had fallen for, standing there with his heart laid bare.
Maybe forgiveness didn’t erase the past. But maybe it was the only way forward.
I didn’t realize I was crying again until Nero’s thumb brushed a tear from my cheek. His touch was hesitant, almost reverent, like he wasn’t sure he still had the right.
"I never wanted to hurt you," he murmured.
"You did anyway," I whispered. My voice wasn’t angry anymore — just tired, fragile. "But I know you didn’t an to."
He nodded slowly, eyes glistening in the dim light. "I didn’t. I swear, Zoe... I just didn’t know how to carry both truths — loving you and hating what your father did."
The words struck deep. I swallowed hard, my voice barely audible. "And now?"
He hesitated, then said quietly, "Now I just want to love you. That’s all I’ve ever wanted — stripped of revenge, of blood, of the past. Just... you."
My chest tightened, the ache shifting from pain to sothing rawer — sothing that felt like healing trying to begin. I wanted to reach out, to touch him, but my body wouldn’t move. My heart didn’t know what it wanted yet.
"I don’t know if I can forgive him," I admitted softly. "My father. Not after what he did — not after what it cost you."
"I don’t expect you to," Nero said gently. "Forgiveness isn’t for him. It’s for us. So we can stop living under the shadow of what he did."
His gaze held mine — steady, patient, full of quiet conviction. "I don’t want his sins to define either of us."
For a long mont, neither of us spoke. The sea filled the silence, rhythmic and endless, carrying our pain sowhere far beyond the horizon.
Finally, I took a slow step toward him. "You really think we can co back from this?"
His lips curved, a small, almost broken smile. "I think we already started to."
The honesty in his tone undid . I exhaled shakily, closing the distance between us. He reached for then — slow, careful — and when his arms ca around , I didn’t resist. I let myself sink into him, into the quiet thrum of his heartbeat against mine.
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