Helanie:
"I hate to admit it, but maybe he is right," I repeated myself with a much bigger frown this ti.
"I am never wrong," Lamar sounded cocky, which made both Lucy and give him a judgntal glare.
"Except for the ti when I—" he looked down, ntioning the night we didn’t want to talk about again. It wasn’t the worst thing that had happened to , so it didn’t really traumatize like the other night. I guess it’s because of how much worse my previous trauma was.
"At least you look apologetic. Your girlfriend doesn’t even seem to care," Lucy rolled her eyes when ntioning Sydney. But sohow, Lamar looked so lost at the ntion of his girlfriend.
"My girlfriend?" Lamar raised his brow, asking us in a mild tone.
"She’s talking about Sydney," I rubbed my temples, my voice full of exhaustion.
"She’s not my girlfriend," he scoffed at Lucy, who stared at his face before hugging herself. I wondered what she was thinking in that mont. Probably the fact that she slept with soone who sleeps with everyone—literally everyone. Hopefully, Lucy wasn’t keeping many hopes up with this man.
"Okay, take a shower, and then we’ll see what we can do to find sothing to eat," I told her, pushing her toward the bathroom to freshen up. I was starving too, and my legs were hurting from the hike. I wasn’t like them, who had their selves’ help. Once she went into the bathroom and started the shower, I turned to look at Lamar, who was still roaming around the room, occasionally glancing at .
"I know about your situation," he muttered, making fold my arms over my chest and watch his face in silence. I was just waiting for him to say another joke or make another foolish comnt.
"Do you know who the father is?" The mont I heard those words from his lips, my posture shattered, and my lips parted to let out a gasp that I quickly tried to cover up.
"Huh? I didn’t know you had gone crazy," the awkward smile on my lips must have given away the truth.
"Helanie, you cannot act like it’s nothing. You will start showing signs soon, and then what? What about the physical changes?" he attempted to co closer, speaking in whispers. I stepped back and held up my palm to silence him.
"I don’t know what you’re talking about. Is this your way of torturing ? Are you trying to start a rumor?" My voice was shaky as I kept trying to deny the truth, but he looked so confident about his statent.
"Okay, if you don’t want to admit it, that’s your choice. I’m just trying to help," he said, using a much more understanding tone before walking away to sit on his bed.
I kept staring at him as he used his phone. "There’s a place I can take you two for lunch since we all missed lunch." He sounded so casual, as if he hadn’t just given the biggest shock of my life by telling that he knew my secret.
"How—how can you help?" I stamred, and everything went silent almost instantly. He steadily raised his head, and our eyes t.
"I don’t know what to do," I continued, and he put his phone down, sighing tiredly.
"Do you know the father? Was it a one-night stand?" he asked, not trying to sound sarcastic or mocking.
With a shaky feeling in my body, I shook my head in answer to his questions.
"Do you want this baby?" he inquired. I lowered my head. My hand very steadily moved to my belly, and I rubbed it, wondering what I truly wanted.
"Helanie, you make the decision, and I’ll take care of it for you," his voice was so comforting that I kept looking down and let him speak. "And if you want to keep the baby, I can manage that too."
I thought I didn’t want this baby, but there was a strange feeling inside that made wonder if it would be wrong to not want this child.
"Hey, don’t think too much. I can try to get a leave for you—" he began, but he was interrupted when I raised my head and spoke up.
"I don’t want this baby."
"It’s not my baby," I didn’t know why I thought about it, but I just couldn’t accept this child.
"Okay, you don’t need to say anything else, and trust , it will never reach anyone’s ears ever," he said, giving a warm head nod. By then, Lucy walked out of the bathroom wearing a blue dress.
"How about you two girls get ready, and we head out for lunch? There’s a small pack nearby with the best cafe, I’ve heard. How about we go try that?" he suggested, and Lucy looked over to .
I was too stunned to speak. I didn’t even know what had just happened. Did I really just speak to Lamar about my pregnancy? Could I even trust him?
"Okay," I uttered, rushing into the bathroom to take a hot shower. My body needed it so badly.
After I dressed in baggy jeans and a white shirt, I topped it with my purple sweater and walked out of the bathroom, thinking I might catch Lucy and Lamar making out again. However, that wasn’t the case this ti.
The two were sitting separately on their beds, using their phones.
"All set? I’ve called in a favor from a friend at the hostel. He’s lending us his car," Lamar slipped his phone into his pocket and got up from the bed, inviting us to join him. We followed him to the door, and then I knew I had to take the elevator. But instead of going alone, I noticed Lamar passing to enter the elevator before .
Lucy seed to have no choice but to join us in the elevator as well. I used to be the only one who frequented the elevator, but today, it was the three of us.
When we exited the elevator, we ca face to face with Jenny and Gavin. The two were standing at a distance. Jenny was with the board, looking at the notice, while Gavin was on his phone, texting soone.
I had a feeling things weren’t going smoothly now that we had encountered the two on the ground floor—practically not together, but still present in the sa place at the sa ti.
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