"Ash…"
Wuxing muttered, staring at her teared up face, not really knowing what to tell her. A part of him knew about her feelings but back then the situation looked much different, making it impossible for the two to be together.
Being a rcenary was a dangerous job. He could die at any ti after failing his mission and having a lover would only distract him, changing his decision making.
He knew himself well.
If he had a girlfriend waiting for him back at ho, he would always choose the option with the least risk. In his job, taking a risk was sotis necessary which was the reason why he didn't push for a relationship even though they were obviously more than friends.
He was about to cheer her up but Ash wiped her eyes with her sleeve and stopped him, raising her hand, "It's okay, don't mind . It's okay if you don't love anymore. You have Dongi now so it would be silly of to expect anything from you. She is a great girl, you should take care of her."
Her tears were still flowing down her cheeks no matter how much she wiped so she just covered her eyes with her sleeves as if hiding from him.
"Gosh… this is so embarrassing. I shouldn't have confessed knowing what would be the result anyway. I am such a stupid idio—" Ash blad herself when Wuxing suddenly lunged forward and embraced her, cutting her off sternly, "Stop it."
His sudden hug caused her to freeze in place and peek at him confused.
Wuxing closed his face onto her own and declared, "You are not stupid."
"I am. Even now, I still love you and I can't slow down my heart. It's trying to jump out of my chest and now that you are holding , it's even worse," Ash countered, supporting her body on him. "Tell , how am I not stupid? Only a stupid woman would still love a man who just rejected her."
"I didn't reject yo—" Wuxing corrected but Ash imdiately argued back, "Then you love back? If you didn't reject then it ans you feel the sa? Please, don't give hope. Either love or reject properly. I can't stay in the middle. It hurts.
Even if I have to suffer a few years until I finally forget about you, it is better than living with false hope."
"Do you think it is that simple? I can't leave Dongi. I love her dearly, but I also don't want to lose you. I don't want you to forget about . All the ti we spent with each other in the past. All the special monts.
I treasure each and every mory. How do expect to choose?" Wuxing questioned, looking deeply into her eyes.
One was the love of his life while the other was his best friend of many years, soone who saw all of his ups and downs, helping him battle all of them. How can he even compare them? What tric can he even pick?
Ash seed to be just as troubled as he was. "I don't know, you tell . I can't stay in the middle, living with hope. If you know you can't love , I will just leave," Ash decided determined.
"Leave?"
"I can't move on when I'm around you. It's a blessing you returned to but also a curse. I really don't want to live with pain, watching from the side as you create a happy family with Dongi," Ash explained with a pained voice, grasping her uniform where her heart was and pulled away from him. "I'm strong but you underestimate my strength. Don't I deserve to be loved too?"
"Ash, if there was a world where I could make you both happy, I would gladly live there but it doesn't exist. I can't simply leave Dongi to be with you. I'm not that kind of a person," Wuxing affird and pointed at himself. "If I were to do that, I would not be the person you know and love."
"I thought my Wuxing could always find a solution no matter how hard the situation he was put in," Ash comnted and finally turned around, closing the conversation. "I guess I was wrong."
Wuxing was already hopeless but he couldn't leave the case at this was and stopped her, "Ash, don't be unreasonable. Put yourself in my situation. There is really no safe solution for our situation. There will always be soone left hurt. Unless I can date both of you at the sa ti, it's impossible to make you two satisfied."
To his surprise, Ash's back trembled when he said that and she turned around, looking at him with hope in her eyes.
"That's it," Ash called out excitedly. "Can't you just date the two of us at the sa ti then?"
Wuxing blinked twice, not sure if he was hearing right. What he said was obviously an unreasonable example yet Ash took it seriously.
"Ash, both of us know how impossible it is. I was just joking earlier," Wuxing tried to explain yet Ash didn't seem to listen.
"I'm not joking. You are right, this is the only thod. The only way to make us happy is by dating us both," Ash repeated, wiping her red eyes with her hands, showing a bright and gentle smile.
She stopped crying completely and dove into his arms, hugging him tightly. "I guess I was right. You can always find a solution no matter the case. You are really a genius."
"Wait, hold up. I think you are misunderstanding sothing. This is not how dating works." Wuxing tried to stop her excitent but she was already in her zone.
"No, I understand it very well. Thank you, this was exactly what we needed," Ash thanked, leaning forward to give him a quick kiss on the cheek. "Even if you have feelings for us both, you can't accept loving two people as you think that will hurt at least one of the parties. What if both of us agreed? That wouldn't be a problem anymore, right?"
The whole concept was so surreal that Wuxing's head started to hurt. Having two wives? He heard it was quite normal in certain countries but Wuxing couldn't imagine himself doing it, his endless loyalty already pledged to Dongi during his proposal.
"Don't bla , this was your idea," Ash added. "I'm not going to give up on you. If that's the only way for to receive your love, I'm willing to share you with Dongi."
Before he could even counter that, Ash released him and headed towards the exit, causing him to grab her in panic. "Where are you going?"
"I'm obviously going to talk to Dongi about this," Ash replied with a smile and looked at the reflection of her phone screen to check the condition of her face. "We won't know until we try, right? We have ti to make it work but one thing I know for certain. I either ride or die. There is no in-between."
Wuxing couldn't count how many tis she got him speechless already but he only awakened when she was already leaving, opening the curtain.
"Wait!" Wuxing called out to stop her yet she didn't stop, leaving him behind.
"Damn."
He cursed under his breath and quickly transford back to Chaleon, following after her. He had to regain control of the situation before it completely turned into chaos.
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