Tori‘s POV
“Will...will you co back to visit again?” I stuttered. “I enjoy having you...having you here with .”
He froze.
For a mont, he just looked at . Then he arched an eyebrow, as if he couldn’t imagine that his company was pleasing.
“Please... I feel safer when you’re around,” I added.
My confession ca out of nowhere. I imdiately realized that, subconsciously, I had wanted to say it.
But when I actually spoke the words aloud, I realized that it wasn’t my place to even think about it.
Cayden didn’t seem to mind though. His fingers took my chin and lifted my gaze from my hands to his eyes.
Then, slowly, he leaned down and captured my lips with his own.
The kiss was soft and gentle.
If I could have deepened the kiss, I would have, like a greedy child wanting more of a good thing. I wanted more of him, always, but at the end of the day, he wasn’t mine to have more of.
As his lips left my own, I saw a dark, hungry swirl of emotions lingering in the depths of his eyes that made want more.
“I miss you,” I whispered, so low that I could barely hear it myself.
My face was burning. I couldn’t believe I said that!
But I did miss him...
It had been a while since he touched in the ways only he could, and I couldn’t deny that, in my dreams, I longed for him.
A hint of surprise flickered on his face. Then his eyes narrowed slightly, and I sensed sothing dangerous, as if I was his prey.
Within a split second, he was upon .
I gasped.
Our hands moved frantically as his lips caressed mine. I couldn’t contain the moans that left as I was quickly bared to him. The soft and gentle touches of his hands upon my naked body drove a lust through that I didn’t understand.
Cayden let his lips travel down, wrapping around the erect bud of my breast, and as his tongue swirled around it, it shot pleasure straight to my core.
Slowly, inch by inch, he slid himself deep inside . His thrusts were not rapid and hunger-driven like in the past. Instead, they were slow and passionate, as if he didn’t want this mont to end either.
Gradually, my hips t his with every thrust he made, and a low growl left his lips in pleasure as I moved slightly.
The pleasure built up at a rapid pace as I felt myself ready to explode around him.
“Cayden,” I moaned, closing my eyes and arching my back. “I can’t hold on much longer.”
A growl of satisfaction left him. “Then don’t...co undone for .”
At his request, I didn’t hold back. The orgasm that racked caused him to release his own and spill his seed deep inside as his knot held us in place.
I was his in more ways than one, and monts like this made question whether or not he cared for more than he claid.
We laid there panting, a smile across both of our lips as he leaned down to kiss again.
“It had been too long since I had you.” His whispered confession made lt against him.
“I am always waiting for you,” I whispered, a blush spreading over my face.
A chuckle left his lips at my response before he leaned down, kissing my forehead in an affectionate manner.
I was glad, so glad to have this ti together, but it soon proved short-lived, as a knock on the main door caught both of our attention.
“Alpha, you have a ssage.” A guard’s voice ca from the living room, causing Cayden to slowly slide from with an annoyed expression.
“What is it?” Cayden’s voice rumbled as he pulled his pants back on.
He looked at , a signal to cover myself; I didn’t hesitate and pulled the cover over myself modestly. Cayden opened the door only slightly to speak to the guard on the other side, making a point to block his view of .
I couldn’t hear exactly what they said, but I watched the muscles ripple in Cayden’s back as he tensed, and then pinched the bridge of his nose, letting out a sigh.
“I’ll be there in a mont.”
With those words, Cayden closed the door, keeping his back to . He hesitated before turning to face .
I knew what was coming. No matter how much I wished he could stay, it wasn’t possible.
Matters of the state would always co first to him, and that was sothing I would have to learn to accept.
“I have to go to et with Marcus now,” he told softly as he moved to gather his clothing and finish getting dressed. I wanted to tell him that he didn’t need to explain to where he was going, but I didn’t, because I loved hearing his voice.
I nodded. “Of course.”
“But I will be back later,” he continued.
I looked up at him in disbelief. “You will?”
I wasn’t expecting him to tell as much after everything that had happened. I thought he had his fill of what he wanted, and it would be a while before I saw him again.
There was really another side of him that was so different from his usual deanor, and it continually shocked .
“Behave and rest,” he murmured. “The baby needs it too. We must do what’s right for him.”
He leaned over toward with his shirt finally buttoned, and rested his hand upon my stomach. His eyes stared hard at the child still growing within my stomach. “The child will be strong. I can feel it.”
“He will be like his father,” I replied warmly, watching as Cayden’s eyes rose to mine. There was hesitation there, but as he leaned over, he brushed his lips against mine, kissing softly.
“Hopefully, he will always have his mother’s kind heart.”
With his statent, he rose to his feet and walked toward the small table that had food and water on it. Cayden had a bad reputation, but I knew he had a kinder heart than he wanted to admit. I saw more and more how he tried to hide who he was from others.
Carefully pouring a glass of water, he turned toward and held it out.
“In ti we shall see what the kid will do.” His words shocked . I wasn’t sure if it was sothing he had ant to say, but it lted my heart.
“Life is only ten percent what happens to us and ninety percent how we handle it, Cayden,” I replied softly. “You are going to be an amazing father. I know it.”
The struggle within him was evident, and I saw the hesitation matched with a smile that didn’t quite et his eyes. Stepping closer to , he leaned down, kissing the top of my head.
“Get so rest, Tori.”
A soft smile crossed my lips and I watched as he slowly straightened himself once more and then made his way out my door.
As much as I was happy about what he said, a part of was hurt by the way he had initially stated about this being about the baby. I knew it was, but sothing inside knew that his words held a different aning.
Making sure that Cayden’s heir ca into this world healthy and safe was my task. But at the sa ti... I wanted him to care for as well.
To care about for my sake, and not just because I was carrying his child.
Every ti I thought things were changing between us, he would say or do sothing to remind that I was rely a breeder, that I only held my position in his life for as long as I was useful to him.
Those reminders were the ones that kept up late at night and made shed tears for a man I would never be able to have the way I wanted. For a life I could never have.
Why ?, I wondered.
I prayed that one day, I would wake up, and Cayden would tell he cared about . That I was more than just his breeder, that I was everything he wanted.
But those were the hopes of a foolish woman.
Indeed, in a relationship, whoever falls in love first, loses.
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