Arwen halted when she heard him say that. She opened her eyes and pulled away a little just to look at his face.
Aiden also shifted and stared into her eyes, nodding and confirming his words. "I know that you were drugged." But he didn’t let her assu things on her own. Just when he saw her pulling away, he held her and tugged her back, keeping her grounded to herself.
"Let go of . I —"
"Don’t rush, Moon. Hear out first," Aiden said, his voice strained with an emotion that was hard to express. "Yes, I know that you were drugged, but this isn’t sothing I knew from the beginning."
She stopped struggling in his grasp. And he nodded to her, explaining.
"I knew it only later, when Jason put you through a few tests. And even without knowing it, I never blad you. I never hated you. If I hated soone, I hated myself for leaving you alone through the phase in which you needed the most."
"I didn’t marry you out of pity, Moon. I married you because without you, my life was pitiful. I can’t imagine my life or the world where you aren’t there. So, no, our marriage was never anything but my need —need to make this world a living place for . Don’t think it otherwise, please. It breaks when you do that."
Arwen didn’t respond to his words. But her eyes conveyed all her emotions.
They stared at each other for a while before Arwen asked, "Why didn’t you tell at all?"
Since he already knew it, he couldn’t have told her. Why did he have to hide it from her?
Didn’t she deserve to know it all?
"You knew it all along, yet you hid it from . Why?" she asked again as though that thought was twisting sothing painfully inside her. "Was it fun to see so clueless around you?"
Aiden shook his head, almost imdiately in response to her word. "It was heartbreaking," he said, his voice laced with a heavy emotion. "It was so heartbreaking that I wanted to burn the world just to find that one person who did that to you. I wanted to find him and then torture him a thousandfold for what we were suffering. You were suffering. But I couldn’t co and tell you."
"Not because I didn’t want to," he paused only to continue again, "but because I couldn’t dare to."
Arwen gazed at him, and he explained further. "The drug in your system wasn’t a simple one. It carries a threat —a threat that we are unsure about. We can’t trigger any of the mories that you have forgotten. Or else, your mories along with your life would be at risk."
"But that drug is no longer in my body system, it has been neutralized and —"
Before she could finish, Aiden cut in. "It might be neutralized, but the threat remains. The drug was incomplete, and no one knows the real effects it could cause."
"But —"
"Moon," Aiden interrupted her, knowing what she was trying to say. He would never agree to it. "I can risk anything in this world, but you. You are too precious to . I can survive this world with you, even if you forget again completely. But I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist."
Arwen’s breath hitched. She wanted to argue, but when she heard him put it like that, she couldn’t bring herself to. The fear in his eyes was unconcealed, as though he wanted her to see it.
His deepest fear wasn’t anything ... but her. Losing her.
How could he love her so much? What did she really do to deserve it?
The more Arwen tried the think, the more difficult the answer seed. Because nothing seed enough to have soone so devoted.
She stared at him for a long mont before lunging forward to wrap her arms around his neck.
Aiden was caught off guard for a mont, but soon his arms found their way to her back. They hugged each other for a long ti before Arwen finally spoke again.
"You don’t have to worry so much anymore," she said, her voice soft. "The drug is no longer a threat to . I got an antidote —one that neutralized its effect in ."
Aiden didn’t respond. He knew what she was talking about. He held her and let her speak.
"The report shows that I have been taking the drug neutralized consistently, but ... I don’t rember anything like that I have been taking consistently like that. I was never on any dication." She pulled away, and then, shaking her head, she continued while looking at him. "And even thinking I can’t think of sothing or soone who would be behind it. Do you know anything about it?"
She asked without beating around the bush. If he knows, she wants to know it too. She doesn’t want to stay in the dark anymore.
Aiden’s expression didn’t change. He looked at her evenly, and just the way he looked at her, Arwen knew that he had her answers.
All her answers.
"You know it," she muttered, looking into his eyes. "You know what is it that neutralized the drug effect in my system, don’t you?"
Aiden didn’t answer imdiately, and the more silent he remained, the stronger the confirmation beca.
"What is it?" she asked, this ti no longer in doubt. "And who is it?"
"Knowing it no longer serves the purpose, Moon," Aiden tried to say, but before he could finish, Arwen shook her head, refusing to accept that.
"It still serves the purpose," she said, her voice carrying an edge. "I want to know, so please tell ."
Aiden looked at her for a mont. His eyes remained deep at her as if contemplating whether telling her would be right decision or not.
"Aiden, I deserve to know it. Don’t you think?" Arwen insisted, her eyes not begging him but demanding him for the answer. "Please."
"It was the chocolates."
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