Selena.
I didn’t realize I had walked that far until the cave was gone, not just out of sight but out of reach in a way that made sothing inside feel strangely untethered, like whatever had held in place before had quietly loosened without asking for permission.
The air felt different away from them, lighter in a way that should have brought relief, but instead it left sothing hollow behind, a space I didn’t quite know how to fill, and that emptiness lingered no matter how far I went.
Still, I kept walking, because stopping would an thinking, and thinking would drag back to everything I was trying to leave behind.
There was no plan guiding forward, no destination waiting at the end of it, just the quiet need to put distance between myself and everything that had just happened, between myself and them, and between myself and the version of that had stayed too long hoping for sothing that was never going to co.
The bond lingered, quieter now and no longer pulling at the way it once had, but it hadn’t disappeared. It remained at the edges of my awareness, steady and unyielding, like a thread that refused to snap no matter how far I tried to go, and that persistence unsettled more than anything else because everything else between us had changed, broken into sothing I barely recognized.
I exhaled slowly, dragging a hand through my hair as I finally ca to a stop, my body beginning to register the strain I had been ignoring, while the forest stretched endlessly around , open and quiet in a way that offered no comfort, only space.
Too much space, and too much silence.
For a mont, I stood there without moving, letting everything I had been holding in finally catch up with , and when it did, the thoughts ca all at once, heavy and impossible to push aside.
How long would I continue like this, pretending their actions were not affecting even when they were slowly breaking apart? How long would I keep standing there, acting like their words and their silence did not cut deeper than anything else had?
And how long would it take for them to realize that what they were doing was hurting more than they intended, or maybe exactly as much as they intended?
Because I understood.
I understood that they believed my father had sothing to do with their father’s death, and I understood that they were still carrying the pain of being thrown out of the pack, of losing everything they had known.
I understood that they were hurting.
But understanding it did not make it easier to endure the way they chose to take that pain out on , as if hurting was the only way to make up for what they had lost.
The thought lingered, reshaping everything around it, and I let out a small breath that almost sounded like a laugh, though there was no humor in it, only a quiet kind of acceptance.
I had spent so much ti waiting for them to realize that I had nothing to do with what happened, waiting for them to see the way they used to, hoping that sohow we could go back to what we had been before everything fell apart.
But everything they did now was ant to hurt , because they believed I was alone, that I had no one to fall back on, and that belief had given them permission to treat however they wanted.
And all that waiting had done was leave standing still, holding onto sothing that had already slipped away.
That ended now.
I straightened slightly, my shoulders settling as sothing inside shifted, not loudly or dramatically, but in a way that felt steady and certain.
If I had nothing, then I would build sothing.
For myself.
Not for them, and not for whatever this bond was supposed to an, but for .
The thought felt unfamiliar at first, almost strange in its simplicity, but it didn’t fade. Instead, it settled deeper, becoming steadier the more I allowed it to exist, until it no longer felt like a question.
Because what else was there?
I wasn’t leaving them, not yet, not while I still owed them my life, because that truth remained no matter how much everything else had changed. And sowhere deep down, a small, stubborn part of still held onto the hope that one day I would wake up and find out that this was nothing more than a bad dream.
But staying didn’t an waiting anymore.
It ant surviving, and more than that, it ant preparing.
My gaze shifted slowly across the forest, taking in the space with a different kind of focus now, noticing the uneven ground beneath my feet, the distance between the trees, and the way the light filtered through the leaves above.
This wasn’t just empty space anymore.
It was sothing I could use, sothing I could learn from, sothing that could beco an advantage if I allowed it.
I didn’t know exactly what I was doing, not completely, but I knew enough to understand where I needed to begin.
I would not stay weak.
Not again, and not for anyone.
The thought settled firmly as my mind began to move forward, piecing together sothing that resembled a plan, even if it was still rough and incomplete.
I would start small, with what I could control, focusing on my movent, my awareness, and my strength, building everything that depended only on , everything that didn’t require permission, and everything that didn’t depend on them.
The bond stirred faintly at that, a quiet reminder of its presence, but this ti I didn’t follow it, and I didn’t fight it either. I simply let it exist without answering it, without trying to understand or fix it.
Then I stepped forward again, and this ti it wasn’t aimless.
Each step carried intention, small but steady, leading deeper into the forest until I found a clearing that felt right, open enough to move and quiet enough to focus.
I paused at the center, letting my gaze sweep across the space before drawing in a slow breath, deciding that it would do for now.
Rolling my shoulders back, I grounded myself and adjusted my stance, testing my balance, the weight of my body, and the tension in my muscles. There was stiffness there, but beneath it was sothing steadier, sothing that felt ready even if it was unfamiliar.
When I moved, the first attempt lacked control, my footing slightly off, but I didn’t stop. I adjusted and tried again, then again, letting each movent build on the last.
I focused on my breathing, on the way my body shifted, and on the small corrections that made each attempt better than the one before it, allowing each mistake to beco sothing I could learn from instead of sothing to avoid.
Ti slipped gradually as the world narrowed to movent and breath, and the quiet determination building within beca stronger with every repetition. The forest faded into the background, its silence no longer heavy but grounding, sothing that supported rather than pressed against .
It wasn’t perfect, and it wasn’t graceful, but it was mine, and that was enough.
The mont they stepped into the clearing, I felt it, not through sound and not through the bond, but through sothing quieter that had sharpened in without permission.
Awareness settled at the back of my mind the instant they arrived, telling exactly where they were without needing to look.
They thought they were hidden.
They were not.
For a brief second, my body almost reacted, the urge to stop rising sharp and imdiate as every part of wanted to turn, to face them, and to demand answers for everything that had broken between us.
But I didn’t.
I forced the reaction down and continued moving as though nothing had changed, as though I had not felt their presence settle at the edge of the clearing.
If they wanted to watch, then they would watch.
That was their choice, just like everything else had been.
I steadied my breathing and continued, letting my body fall back into rhythm, each movent deliberate and controlled as I focused on what I was building, refusing to let anything else pull away from it.
A part of remained aware of them the entire ti, aware of the weight of their attention and the silence stretching between us, of everything that had once been easy and had now turned into sothing strained and unfamiliar.
Anger lingered beneath it, quiet but steady, because whatever we were now had not co from nothing.
And still, the bond remained.
I felt it in the quiet monts, present in a way I could not ignore, and I knew they felt it too, even if they refused to acknowledge it.
My movents sharpened as the thought settled, my focus narrowing as I pushed myself harder, letting the tension feed into the control I was building.
I needed this.
For myself.
Because one day, whether they stood beside or not, I would take back what had been mine, and when that day ca, I would not stand there waiting for anyone to decide whether I was worth following.
I would not need them.
The thought settled quietly, firm and unshaken, even as Nyra’s presence flickered through my mind, unwelco and sharp. She had inserted herself into sothing that had never belonged to her, shifting things in ways I couldn’t fully see but could feel all the sa.
She complicated everything, but there was little I could do about that, and I was not about to fight for n who were more than capable of making their own choices.
If they chose her, then that was their decision.
Ti passed until the strain in my body forced to slow, and eventually I stopped, my chest rising and falling as I caught my breath, sweat clinging to my skin.
They were gone.
I had felt it the mont they left.
Only then did I turn, my gaze settling on where they had been hidden, the space empty now but not unnoticed.
I held that spot for a mont as a quieter thought settled in, wondering if this was what we had beco or if it was sothing else entirely.
A test.
The idea ca without warning, settling into place before I could dismiss it.
Not theirs.
Sothing bigger.
The goddess.
If this was a test, then I would endure it. Not for them, not for the bond, but for myself—because one way or another, I would not be the sa person who walked into it.
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