Jiang Shuangi continued retreating, until finally, she had her back to the cold doorfra.
The fake Jiang Shuangjie was still watching over her gently, worriedly, trying to soothe her anxiety.
Though Jiang Shuangi was reminded of how, the last ti she had actually been with her older sister, the sa thing was happening, but, she had her back to Jiang Shuangjie.
Both pain and self-loathing rushed through her mind once more.
Her hand was on the door handle on her back.
Her words were already hoarse while she continues apologising. Her whole face was ssed up, and her three closest, fake relatives were all deeply concerned, wondering why shes crying so badly, and why shes apologising.
Why? Its a question Jiang Shuangi wanted to ask herself as well.
She took a deep breath and wiped her tears away, then gave a final sorry, and said, we should be seeing each other again at another place, at another ti, but not here or now.
Giving the shadows from the past one last look, and slling the familiar fragrance from the ho-cooked al, she said, goodbye
Finally, she turned to leave, not once turning around to see until the door was shut. She could not bear to turn around and say goodbye another ti.
She walked without direction in the neighbourhood. She left the neighbourhood then, and got to the main roads. Then, she ran into Fei, who was coming from the opposite direction of her.
Of the small group Mu Jiashi, Ding Yi and other Missiontakers ford, Fei might play an important role, but she never commanded much presence.
Just like that na of hers, which was only a nickna, and not at all her real na.
Wu Jian is theoretically similar, but he felt much more connectable than Fei.
Jiang Shuangi never had much of an image of her.
Until when she ran into Fei on that street, when her appearance shocked her.
Fei is a doctor.
Noticing Jiang Shuangis shocked glance, she smiles bitterly, and explains, Im in training still an intern. Ive forgotten all my professional knowledge after all the ti spent in the Tower anyway.
Jiang Shuangi is amazed nonetheless.
DoctorsJiang Shuangi thought the profession was the definition of calm, rational thought and sharp wits. Scientifically and empirically driven. The opposite of Fei.
She was always overthinking stuff, paranoid, and anxious. She believed in all sorts of unsubstantiated conspiracies, speculating about what was behind their being trapped in the Tower, and believed that NE had mass surveillance on them.
Jiang Shuangi cant help but be curious about the reason behind this, but she doesnt ask out loud; its Feis private things, after all, the sa way that Jiang Shuangi herself would be unwilling to talk about her older sister as well.
They walk forward, without incident.
Though Fei has started talking about herself of her own accord, actually there were tis, when I felt like I could not at all understand what was happening to all of us, a pause followed, and then, you might not understanding what Im saying
No, I do, Jiang Shuangi quietly says, there are things that I did not need happen, but it did.
Fei nods and mumbles, yes. Thats right, then she seems to fall into thought. Later, she adds, the Tower is one such thing. None of us wanted, but it happened; and, I have to justify why that happened sohow.
Anything must have happened as a result of a cause.
Jiang Shuangi appears to recall sothing painful at that sentence.
They walk forward, in silence.
Then Fei says, what weve encountered so far appear entirely chaotic and unreasonable And yet, there must still be an underlying reason behind it all. That is what I believe. Therefore, I keep searching, for possibilities.
Fei adds after thinking, anypossibility.
Jiang Shuangi then asks, do you believe in God?
God? No, I dont Fei seems surprised by the question, and says, but, if you do happen to want to assign that label
Jiang Shuangi listens quietly.
Those whose existence is entirely beyond our current understanding. Extraterrestrial lifeforms far more advanced and powerful than humans Would you, agree they can be called Gods?
Jiang Shuangi, shook, hesitantly answers, perhaps although I would rather not think that way.
Fei whispers, thats true, yes. If God is also just another creature of this universe, then whats preventing them from being creatures that want to hunt us, rather than bring us salvation
The topic they discuss turns rather absurd, but they continue to chat about it for a while.
Until, the fog suddenly appears.
That fog
Fei is knitting her brows.
First, is this really the grey fog outside the Tower and not just weather in the Nightmare itself?
Second, if this really is the grey fog, why is it in the Ultimate Nightmare? What effects would this have on it?
The questions make Fei deeply worried and confounded. They really didnt understand the Ultimate Nightmare well, or at all But then, X Beijin should know, shouldnt he?
He told them the way to open the Ultimate Nightmare, and he told them to stay sane and sharp in the Ultimate Nightmare. All in all, he should be on the side of humans.
If so, does he not know about the grey fog that would appear in the Ultimate Nightmare?
If he knows, and, knowing this will probably cause them doubt and even panic, he should have at least reminded them, no?
Or, is it simply because, theyve already been to X Beijins Nightmare, so he was expecting them to be able to deal with the grey fog and ntioning it was unnecessary?
It doesnt sound entirely implausible.
Though Feis mind is still in a clear panic right now.
She manages to calm back down slowly, and reassures Jiang Shuangi, this should be fine. Yes, it should
She reasons that if the grey fog was going to be of any great danger to them after it appears in the Ultimate Nightmare, X Beijin would have given them a warning.
He did not, therefore, it ans the situation is still under control.
Therefore, as long as they continue to obey X Beijins advice, to stay sane, stay lucid, keep their wits about them, keep their sense of self with them, so that they do not succumb to the Ultimate Nightmare, then all is still well.
Fei chooses to believe in that.
However, as the fog thickens more and more, so much so that an extended hand cannot even be seen clearly anymore, Feis trust finally collapses.
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