Chapter 513 I am not needed
Xiaosi stared at her in a daze.
"You are my husband. After waiting for over eight months, you are finally back. You have no idea how torturous those months were. But what are you doing? Ever since you are awake, you are avoiding . It's as if you have married your work now. At ho, you don't pay attention to . You cancel dates, and when I want to be intimate with you, you ignore once again. How long do you think I should suffer all this?"
He stiffened.
Caihong sighed. "I didn't want to co to this. But you leave no choice. I ca here to enjoy myself. But then that man kinda flirted with ."
His expression blackened.
"I talked to him and found him interesting. We were just chatting together, and then he offered to dance with . What's wrong with that?" She raised her brow.
Xiaosi stamred but couldn't counter anything in the end.
"He…he wants m-more than just dancing from y-you…" he loosened his tie.
"And? Why does it bother you?"
"Of course it does! You are my wife-"
"But you are not acting as a husband. If that's the case, then don't expect to behave as a wife either."
He took a breath and exhaled uncomfortably. A fear suddenly creeped in his heart.
She smiled. "Now if you will excuse . You terrified that innocent man a lot. I will need to talk to him."
She took a step forward when he blocked her way. "Don't go."
Caihong studied the tense movent of his irises and the trembling of his lips. She could sense that he was thinking hard to stop her from leaving. But after the argunt she laid, there was nothing he could really speak in his defense.
She waited and waited but when Xiaosi remained silent for a long ti, she faced him, exasperated. "Xiaosi. You do realize that I could marry soone in the future once you leave , right?"
As if he was hit by a teor, Xiaosi's mind crashed. His eyes slowly widened in horror as he t his wife's gaze, but he tried to maintain his calm as much as possible.
"H-Huh?"
"Don't stamr. You have been putting distance between us for this whole ti, and you think I didn't notice it? Until the end I didn't found that you gor your mories back because why would you lie to ? But when Grandpa told it's definitely the case, I couldn't help but believe him."
How did he know? Xiaosi took a sharp breath.
He awkwardly smiled. "I-It's nothing like that, Caihong. I…"
"Then tell a very good reason of your behavior," she narrowed her eyes.
He stiffened and gulped.
"See? You don't. You are doing all this so that you would leave us one day. Okay, imagine that day cos. What do you think? Will I never remarry? Or I should ask that it wouldn't matter to you anymore, right?"
He trembled.
"I an, you would leave us. If I found another man who I fell in love with, then it should be okay to spend my life with him, right? After all, you won't be a part of my life then. But now I wonder. You want to leave . But you also don't want another n to approach . What exactly do you want, Xiaosi?"
He opened his mouth but nothing ca out. Imagining Caihong with another man filled his heart with anguish and imasurable sadness.
"Then you won't be Chyou's father anymore. Naturally, you must have considered all this."
He bit his lip hard.
'Dada'
His angel daughter's sweet voice calling another man Dada brought tears to his eyes.
Her mouth twitched. "Why are you crying now!? Why do feel hurt by my words so much? It was your decision, which you took without even thinking about or Chyou at all!"
"I did…I did think of you and Chyou!" His voice filled with despair made the air still. "A man like shouldn't be having any happiness. I…don't deserve you or-"
"Why?" She sharply asked. "Who made you the judge of what you should deserve or not?"
Xiaosi grabbed her arms. "You don't understand! You think I should forget that night as if it never happened and just continue living with you and Chyou? I made you suffer the worst possible pain. You should be hating ! Then why…then why did you spend that night with ?"
It was the night just before his accident happened.
"In the end, I was just like my father. A disgusting creep who ruined a woman's dignity. After the night seven years back, I never vowed to touch you again. D-Do you realize how it feels to think that I ended up just like him? I…I had sworn to myself to protect the woman I would fall in love with. But look what I did? I couldn't even protect you from so goons!"
He laughed as tears stread down. "I took your responsibility because I-I didn't know what else to do. I wanted to protect you from the world. Then Chyou entered our lives. Naturally, you hated her. I…just wanted her to get love from at least one parent. I don't bla you. I never did. But I couldn't leave her alone. But now things are different. N-Nobody will question Chyou's existence. Nobody will look down upon you with disdain. That night is far from everyone's minds now to raise any suspicions. Now you love Chyou too," his lips after a long ti, had a wide smile. "She has her mother now."
"So I am not needed anymore, Caihong. You don't need a man like in your life who forced himself on you. I am not needed. I was never needed. Neither by my mother nor by the woman I so wholeheartedly love. Caihong, I hate myself. Ever since that night, I have only hated myself. That's why…That's why even if you find a better man in the future, I won't stop you."
Even if it hurts like hell, I will always want your happiness, Caihong.
Always.
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