Chapter 115: Severely Depressed
Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
“After a while, our grandmother insisted that Jiaojiao co back ho to study. She said that Jiao jiao liked to draw. Perhaps I felt guilty, or perhaps I had already passed my rebellious stage, so 1 didn’t stop her this ti.
“She returned to the city, but she didn’t want to stay at ho. She stayed at school and didn’t co back even during the weekend. Even when Mom and Dad brought her back during the holidays, she hid in her room after dinner and didn’t want to co out again.
“She was quiet, as if she could only nod and shake her head like a robot. At that ti, 1 only felt that it was strange. I wondered if she did it on purpose. Perhaps she was establishing a new persona for herself so that everyone would accept her better? After all, although she lived in the countryside all these years, it wasn’t like she was starved or anything…”
Qi Shenbai pursed his lips tightly. His heart felt as if it had been cut open by a knife. It hurt so much.
At this mont, he wanted to just pull Xu Jiaojiao into his arms and comfort her, breaking her free from her painful past.
Xu Zhengyang took a deep breath. His eyes were already wet, and he did not know what to say. He opened his mouth several tis, but no sound ca out.
After more than ten seconds, he finally spoke again, “That night, my father received a call from the dormitory warden at school. She told us that… Jiaojiao had attempted suicide by taking an entire bottle of sleeping pills. When she was found unconscious, the warden imdiately called ergency services and sent her to the hospital to get her stomach pumped.
“Fortunately, they found her in ti and Jiaojiao was saved. However, the hospital gave us a diagnosis. It turned out that Jiaojiao was already severely depressed. She had received those sleeping pills from previous prescriptions, but instead of eating them, she had saved up a whole bottle bit by bit. Then she took them all at once…”
Xu Zhengyang’s voice trembled as he spoke.
Hot tears fell from the corners of his eyes.
“After she woke up, she didn’t want to tell us anything. She was numb, like stone. Dad and Mom quickly hired the best psychiatrist for her, but her heart was completely sealed off, and the effect was minimal. She didn’t even want to take antidepressants. Later, the psychiatrist sought out specifically and said that my words back then had caused her a lot of psychological damage. Moreover, in school…”
Xu Zhengyang did not want to continue speaking. He was not willing to expose his sister’s scars in front of others.
“There was nothing we could do. We just watched her eat and sleep every day. She was like a machine. She didn’t even have the most basic emotions as a human. Even if we wanted to help her, we were helpless. She resisted us with her entire being…
“Until that rainy night, when she ran back to us crying. She was drenched. She just held our hands tightly and told us that she wanted to live. She didn’t want to die.”
Qi Shenbai could already roughly guess what happened after that.
After Xu Jiaojiao finally regained her will to live, her treatnt quickly showed results. With her family’s love and support, she finally recovered from her depression and beca the sunny little girl she was now.
He had never thought that the little girl with that sweet smile had once swallowed an entire bottle of sleeping pills when she was alone that night. He could not imagine her running ho one rainy night, wailing to her family that she wanted to live.
So that was what she ant when she casually ntioned her previous “sickness”.
She had healed the people around her, but no one had been able to heal her during those countless cold nights.
Qi Shenbai’s breathing beca heavy, and his heart throbbed in pain.
Xu Zhengyang heaved a sigh of relief and continued, “After that, she slowly recovered. After 1 found out how badly 1 had hurt her, I blad myself. I swore that I would never hurt her again. I wanted to be the best brother in the world. No one could hurt her anymore. I wanted to treat her better than anyone in the world, better than any other man. That way, she would never leave again.”
Xu Zhengyang muttered. Even though the cigarette butt had burned out and his fingers were scalded, he did not feel anything.
At this mont, he was no longer as arrogant as before. He had thrown away all his pride.
“Qi Shenbai, now you know that I’m not a good brother. I hurt Jiaojiao irrevocably. Now that I’ve seen how happy Jiaojiao is with you, I’m relieved. 1 only have one request — Make sure she’s happy forever, okay?”
Xu Zhengyang’s voice was extrely low, almost pleading.
Qi Shenbai finished the wine in his glass in one go. Then he grabbed Xu Zhengyang’s collar and punched him in the face.
His gaze was as dark as ink, and he was furious. For once, he actually swore.. “I don’t need you to f*cking tell that!”
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