Chapter 255: Disarray Of Thoughts {1}
"I didn’t know you two were THAT close" I began before I could stop myself, it was really hard keeping my mind and body in check.
"We aren’t but for so reason, it doesn’t matter"
"Hmm I see... a Venator such as yourself wants to help Emma find her werelion, that has a nice ring to it" I mused and I noticed sothing in his eyes.
"Don’t call
that"
"What?"
"A Venator!" he snapped at
and I froze at his outburst. He sounded like he was in pain now and I was worried.
"Sorry, I..." he sighed, closing his eyes for a brief second. "I shouldn’t have snapped at you like that"
"N-No it’s okay" I placed my hand on his arm and he looked over at it but I was too clouded by worry to think of anything else. "Are you okay? You sound like you’re in pain" I said with the softest tone I could muster.
His eyes darted to mine and locked within my hazels, he was definitely in pang, like sothing was bothering him and I was eager to find out so that I would take it away.
"I’m fine Emilia and it’s not in your nature to be worried about "
I couldn’t resist an eye roll right now. "Really?"
He moved away from my touch leaving
hanging, my chest twisted by his action but I just let it sink.
"Fine then, you don’t wanna talk about it"
"Who’s Dace to you?" he asked suddenly.
"I thought you weren’t talking"
"Well we’re now" he took a step closer to
closing the small space between us.
"He’s my brother," I said with my leveled gaze. "And because of
he’s in that state and separated from his Female, I wanna make it right and bring him back" I brought my eyes back to him and he looked puzzled now.
"Female?"
Shit! How could I let that slip???
"Yeah, Emma, she’s a female isn’t she?"I said with a smile. He lingered but then the curiosity was gone in his eyes and I almost sighed in relief.
"Anything to eat here?" he asked, changing the topic. "You cooked for only Emma, I thought I was your guest too" he mocked.
Of course, I thought of you! I had it in mind to cook for him but I didn’t know if he would like my cooking, I have never been conscious about it before but when it cos to him I found myself being all nervous.
"Emma is more important"
"Figured" He reached for the cupboard and saw a pack of bread, he grabbed it. "Fresh?"
"Yeah, we get restocks"
He opened the other cupboard and grabbed the peanut butter. I just observed his every action, from grabbing the plate and applying the peanut butter on the bread.
"That won’t fill you"
"It’s okay" he just mumbled.
The silence was awkward now and I just stood there like so fool mopping at him, I couldn’t help it as I kept betraying my body each ti.
I noticed even after coating the bread with the peanut butter he had no intentions of eating.
"Thought of a plan of how to get your brother back?"
"Y-Yeah working on it," I said watching as he brought the coated bread to his lips and took a bite, I just studied his eating actions, unable to stop myself.
His eyes darted to
and he was still in the process of chewing until he swallowed.
"Don’t look at
like that," he warned.
I licked my lips before I answered him. "Like what?"
There was a strong enthusiastic silence after my question, my body could literally feel it but within
was a clash of storms reacting only to his stares.
"Like you wanna kiss ," he said in a soft tone, and my body betrays .
"What if I want to" I admitted, sothing I shouldn’t say but I did.
He narrowed his eyes almost like he was trying to read
and I was too but I wasn’t so sure both of us would get the answer we needed not until I said sothing or perhaps acted to what was silently pulling us together.
He leaned toward
and I knew exactly what he was gonna do so I remained still.
My chest rose and fell slowly and my heartbeat quickened, I couldn’t take my eyes off him as he inched close to
in each passing second and I almost forgot to breathe, the very air was taken away from , and the world spinning around
stayed still.
His breath washed upon my face and closed my eyes, allowing it to cloud my senses. I shuddered too from this wonderful closure and I was dying for his lips to press against mine. I wanted him to kiss
so badly.
"I will not fall for it" his sudden words caused
to flick my eyes open and then a gasp escaped .
He pulled away and I saw it again... the apathy in his eyes.
"Emilia"
I turned at the sound of my na and I saw Emma descending the stairs. I darted my eyes back to Grayson who grabbed a drink from the fridge and walked upstairs with his plate of bread in silence.
My body shuddered once again as I tried to catch myself and handle the impossible pain in my chest, but nothing could make it better, guess I will have to bear it again.
"Emilia" Emma said once again and she ca to , dropping the plate in the sink before observing .
I smiled hoping I would stop her from asking anything because I felt like breaking right now and I didn’t want her to see that, please let her not ask but this is Emma Adams.
"What’s going on between you and Grayson?"
"How long were you there?"
"L-Long enough" she bit her bottom lip. "Emilia... are you okay?"
"No, I’m not" I concede.
"Tell
what’s wrong... please"
"It’s complicated and..." I exhaled sharply. "I think I might have hurt soone to the point he would never forgive "
"Grayson" she blinks. "Sothing happened between you two"
"Well yes... when I tried to stop Dace from killing him, I took the arrow he aid for Dace. And then he nursed
back to health, well more like we spent a day in a house and things got... steamy"
I noticed she gulped. "Y-You two kissed?"
"No darling we had sex"
Her eyes went wide in shock.
"Hot steamy sex," I said breathlessly.
"Whoa"
"And..." I paused.
"W-What happened?"
"I saw..." I exhaled. "I saw my mark on him, Emma"
"WHAT?!" she yelled and I shh her. "He bears your mark?" She was quieter this ti.
I just nod.
"B-But he’s not a werelion I an-"
.C??m-cσ??
"Are you?"
She paused.
"Look it’s confusing I know and it took
by surprise but whatever connection Dace had with you the first ti I think I do too with Grayson... but I can’t accept it, so I blew him off, I hurt him to the point he thinks I’m shit"
"C-Calm down" she pointed and I understood what she ant when I saw the sink I gripped, any further grip from
will cause it to collapse.
"Fuck!" I cursed. "Of all things Emma, he’s a Venator!"
I noticed she flinched, maybe it was from my outburst or sothing else but I was too lost in my anger or pain to think straight. I felt like I wanted to burst right now, my insides were fuming, and I knew I was getting pissed because he didn’t kiss . Shocker, I know... do you know how badly I wanted to taste his lips? Very bad!
"Did you tell him... about the mark?"
"I couldn’t bring myself to, he doesn’t know what it ans and I think it’s the best... I don’t want him to think he’s forever bonded to , I an he has his life and his ideologies, he’s a Venator like an enemy to my Clan, my parents won’t accept it and I don’t think my body will"
Spoiler alert! My body is betraying ! I don’t think even at this point I care about what my parents think. I was more scared about him looking
in the eye after I told him everything and then he just rejects , which will literally destroy .
"I don’t feel like I’m trapped with Dace and I admit at first I was super freaked out when I found out that I’m his Female and his future..." she paused with a blush and I knew she was still grasping that part, I don’t bla her though, she’s only 17. "Scratch that... I just focus on the present and I know the future will be okay as long as we work on the present. I try not to think further into it,"
"That works for you Emma, but I’m not sure it will work for
or Grayson,"
"You don’t know what he thinks, don’t make assumptions yet"
"Yeah but I do know he hates
after what I pulled off. You know how he is... will even accept ?"
"You can’t know until you tell him"
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