Chapter 105: Enlightennt
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Living with Gu Yu is not an illusion.
The experience of that night he spent at Gu Yu’s house last year left a very deep impression on Zhang Siyi. Especially now, that he acknowledged his love for Gu Yu, he wanted to spend his days, cooking, cleaning, chatting, drinking tea, and sleeping together. He did not want the ti he spent with Gu Yu to stop.
But fantasy is ultimately an illusion. Zhang Siyi never expected Gu Yu to invite him to live together. He felt that anyone who lived with Gu Yu had to be a special, talented individual with a very close relationship with him and that person could never be himself.
There was a ti when Zhang Siyi toyed with the idea that Gu Yu liked him and as such, he could understand Gu Yu’s offer. But now, seeing Tao Fei close relationship with Gu Yu, Zhang Siyi felt inadequate and insecure.
Therefore, in the face of the big pie falling from the sky, Zhang Siyi instead felt overwheld with bewildernt.
……. Is it true what Gu Yu said?
……. Why ?
……. If I say yes, what about the other person Gu Yu is waiting for?
……. Aren’t I just taking advantage of his kindness?
All kinds of doubts filled Zhang Siyi’s mind. He even accepted the dog. Such an enticing proposal is simply impossible to refuse. Gu Yu is waiting for his reply. Zhang Siyi tentatively asked: “Do you only have one bedroom in your ho?”
Although he has already learned the truth from Gu Yao, Zhang Siyi subconsciously asked him the question because he wanted to hear Gu Yu’s attitude clearly rather then it being a mont of impulse.
Gu Yu: “The guest room can be packed up and you can live there.”
Zhang Siyi was surprised. Gu Yu’s statent was contrary to the information that Gu Yao previously revealed. He rembered she told him the room was packed up early. But this is only a small doubt and Zhang Siyi didn’t think too much about it. He asked: “Where does Gu Yao sleep?”
“Gu Yao usually lives at school and rarely stays over.” Gu Yu looked up at him: “If she cos, you will stay with in my room.”
Zhang Siyi: “……” Ah, his heart couldn’t stop pounding wildly!
“What’s the problem?” Gu Yu paused then asked: “or do you not want to live with ?”
Zhang Siyi repeatedly shook he head: “No, no! I think…. I’m just wondering if it’s too much trouble for you.”
Gu Yu sighed and counter-questioned him: “I drove you ho for the New Year, and I drove you back afterwards, and I practiced driving with you…. I haven’t heard you say anything about troubling before. Why are you being so polite now?”
Zhang Siyi remained motionless and silent.
No longer talking to him, Gu Yu turned to look at the ssy living space and asked: “If there is nothing else, I’ll help you pack up your things.”
Zhang Siyi: “Don’t you have to go to work?”
This ti, Gu Yu didn’t have the patience to answer Zhang Siyi properly and Gu Yu eyed him instead. Zhang Siyi imdiately was silenced. He pointed to the pile of clutter in the corner of the room to deal with. Gu Yu took off his coat and put it on the sofa to help him organize it together.
Since his unplanned absence caused his boss to also beco absent and as a result, his Boss is now helping him pack his house instead of being at the company, Zhang Siyi felt unceasingly guilty. It is a cri!
…… But in fact, Zhang Siyi felt very warm and even a bit joyful.
As they were packing and cleaning, Gu Yu asked Zhang Siyi about his experience looking for an apartnt.
Under the warmth and comfort of Gu Yu, Zhang Siyi finally opened his heart and poured out most of the bitterness that he was harboring. Many agencies demanded a finder fee upfront and as a result, Zhang Siyi was cheated out of a few hundred dollars. Thinking about it made Zhang Siyi depressed.
Gu Yu listened attentively then suddenly asked: “Didn’t I ssage you in WeChat that if there were any difficulties, to tell ? You couldn’t find any suitable place for so long, so why didn’t you co find for help?”
Zhang Siyi lowered his eyes and quietly said: “You were too busy.” He did not dare ntion Tao Fei appearance and the real reason why he closed his heart. As a result, he tried to overco everything by himself and by doing so, he closed himself off from everyone’s help, especially from Gu Yu.
Gu Yu couldn’t help but give a lengthy sigh: “Yesterday’s matter, I have told you, when you have a work problem, co to for help. Life is the sa…… I won’t give up on you.”
Zhang Siyi thought it strange. There is no way under normal circumstance that a boss would tell his subordinate that they ‘won’t give up on them in life’. Zhang Siyi’s heart was warming in his chest, but he was unsure if there was any aning to his statent or not. He quietly questioned: “Because you promised my father that you would take care of ?”
Gu Yu raised his head and gazed at Zhang Siyi in the eyes. With overflowing, unspeakable tenderness he softly said: “Just because of you.”
Zhang Siyi: “………”
Blushing a crimson red, Zhang Si Yi suddenly looked down and his heart was pounding. In such a short period of ti, from the lows of yesterday to this afternoon’s crash, and now with Gu Yu’s new revelations, his mood soared. With the nurous bits of indigestible information received suddenly, Zhang Siyi’s brain was completely stirred into paste!
Once again, the answer ca, but the sensible aspect of himself desperately tried to prevent him from thinking about it.……
Gu Yu lowered his head and continued packing a box with the pile books in front of him. He explained: “Tao Fei and I are just friends. When I was a graduate student at T University, we joined a team that participated in an architectural design competition. He is a very good designer. Although he is loud and has a temper, his design ideas are very divergent. Moreover, he has received a master’s degree in the UK and combined with his undergraduate dostic education, he has a unique set of designs insights. What he can teach you is probably better suited to your current needs than I am. For two days, I wanted to arrange a eting with Toa Fei and have a al together for a good chat, but you……” Gu Yu sighed, and looked at Zhang Siyi oddly. “Well, I’ll arrange for you to do several projects with him and then you will understand when you see it.”
Zhang Siyi did not ask for an explanation. Gu Yu seed to have guessed his heart and answered his doubts and uneasiness. Zhang Siyi is both ashad and embarrassed. Did Gu Yu recruit Tao Fei just to help him improve?
It is true that he was the only international student in Group A and there are no elders of the sa background to help him. Sotis, Zhang Siyi questioned whether his working environnt was suitable for his own long-term developnt or not.
Zhang Siyi very much recognizes Gu Yu’s many viewpoints and the principle of doing things, but design is multifaceted. Each person has thier own concept and styles. While Gu Yu is very strong, he isn’t a comprehensive teacher.
After this understanding, Zhang Siyi felt guilty once again. All along, Gu Yu was thinking about his needs and instead of communicating with him, he treated Gu Yu poorly out of jealousy…. God, he feels like a complete idiot!
Until this mont, Zhang Siyi felt completely relieved. Although he still has so lingering issues with Tao Fei, with Gu Yu’s explanation, Zhang Siyi no longer was stupid enough to be jealous over him.
Apart from Zhang Siyi own room, they cleaned up the rest of the apartnt that afternoon. Although it is decided for Zhang Siyi to live with Gu Yu, it was too late to move tonight. The two agreed to make the final move on the weekend.
As they placed the last few bags in the garbage downstairs, Gu Yu received a phone call from the company. Standing fearful next to him, Zhang Siyi dare not make a sound, but at the sa ti, he listened to Gu Yu speak on the phone. He was surprised to hear Gu Yu lie about his whereabouts.
Hanging up the phone, Gu Yu explained the situation to Zhang Siyi: “It is a temporary project eting, I have to go back.”
Zhang Siyi: “I……”
He was going to say that he also would change his clothes and go back to work, but Gu Yu interrupted him: “Don’t go. Rest well tonight then tomorrow, go to the personnel departnt to fill out an absentee note.”
Dropping his line of site, Zhang Siyi nodded.
Gu Yu raised his arm and checked his watch: “I wanted to take you out to eat, but there isn’t ti now. Rember to eat dinner.”
Zhang Siyi obediently nodded again: “Hmm”
Gu Yu smiled and raised his hand to rub his head: “See you tomorrow…” He said and added: “This ti, I’ll really see you tomorrow.”
Zhang Siyi: “……”
Zhang Siyi watched Gu Yu’s backside as he walked away from Zhang Siyi’s apartnt building. Recalling the problem that has plagued him for a long ti, his brain turned into paste again. The person Gu Yu likes, isn’t it him?
Zhang Siyi nodded again: “Hmm.”
…… “Just because of you……”
…… It’s like telling him, ” because I like you.”
…… (o////o) ……
…… Is it true? Gu Yu really likes him?
…… But if so, why doesn’t Gu Yu tell him directly?
…… Wait……. Could it be, like himself, Gu Yu is afraid of saying it?
That’s it! In Gu Yu opinion, he is a straight man who has talked about his girlfriend. He also made it clear that he wasn’t gay and Fu Xinhui was just a friend.
Oh, my God!
With his sudden enlightennt, Zhang Siyi was excited and pumped his fist. His stomach growled angrily……….. He’s hungry (=_=)
From yesterday evening until now, he did not eat. Zhang Siyi did not know how he had any energy to support himself. At this mont, he felt like he desperately needed the power of food!!!
After changing clothes, Zhang Siyi ran downstairs and first bought rice balls and sausages from the a nearby grocery store. Then he rushed to the Soup shop: “Boss, a large bowl of five, no give ten wontons, please!”
Half an hour later, Zhang Siyi touched his bulging belly which was stretched out by the wonton soup. He laboriously returned ho to lie down in bed. Now that his hunger was satiated, he continued to ruminate over the recent events excitedly. If Gu Yu likes him, what is he going to do?
When Gu Yu expresses his feelings, then they will be together as a couple?
…… Shit! Shit!
Zhang Siyi never thought about what it would be like to have a relationship with a guy.……
With only a thought about being in love with Gu Yu, Zhang Siyi felt his heart pound and his body heated up from head to toe.
Not to ntion, hugging and kissing, but also ……
Ah-ah-ah… Zhang Siyi buried his head in his pillow and didn’t dare think about it further!
Zhang Siyi didn’t want to exhaust his energy on sothing that wasn’t possible in the future and thus, he had to confirm his suspicions in order to make his next move.
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