Chapter 61.2 - ng Gu's POV
Translator: MiraiSaesang
For a long ti after that, I didn't get in a relationship again. I thought that what you don't want to be done to you, you shouldn't do to others. If I can't treat others wholeheartedly, how can I ask others to treat wholeheartedly?
And if the feelings are not wholehearted, I don't want it.
To put it bluntly, I am a person who doesn't like to play gas.
Later on, a woman pursued . Her na was Yan Qi, very beautiful and cheerful. She was very passionate in her pursuit, my heart was sowhat aroused. After all, I have been along for a long ti, moreover, I thought it over these few years, I earnestly thought hard over it and I have properly overco it. I should be ready to welco new feelings.
More importantly, Yan Qi was very accommodating to , and her family conditions were also good. This is good, this ti, families are an appropriate match, personalities are a very good match, we should be able to get along smoothly, right?
The result was we didn't.
This ti, it only lasted for four months.
After the initial pursuit, the accommodation eventually changed into tolerance when we got into the relationship, her gentleness sotis ca across as weak and an inability to be independent. She required to report the events of my day to her every day, she was painstaking ticulous, she needed my attention at all tis and it was impossible for . My work did not allow to, and my personality also did not allow to. Furthermore, I am a person who likes to be in control, and sotis Yan Qi had her own ideas and different opinions, but in order to accommodate she will eventually just go along with mine, but was uncomfortable in her heart, and I didn't know.
Then, Yan Qi, who did not receive the "due attention" and "basic respect", was too disappointed with and after four months of the relationship, it was finally more than she could bear. She accused of a series of misdeeds and accused of not loving her at all and said that we should part ways.
I was dumped again.
This ti, I seriously reflected and reviewed myself.
I'd rather not be in a relationship.
Romance is a dangerous thing until it is 100% certain. It doesn't matter if I was dumped for a 4th ti, but every ti those girls who dumped were bitterly crying so miserably that they looked like the victim, and I seeing this was also very upset. Leaving Qi Yao aside, I also really felt guilty towards Li Xin and Yan Qi. Although I tried hard, I still wasn't able to give them wholehearted feelings. I thought that I paid for it, but thinking back about it, I didn't feel too sad at the breakups and I didn't miss them too much after they left. Therefore, I simply thought that I paid for it, that's all.
Anyway, I've been single since then.
But there were still a lot of won chasing , I was cautious and never accepted any of them. Lei Feng said that I was once bitten and so twice shy, I think I am not. I actually already no longer care about Qi Yao, but I have learned a lot from my three relationships. I know that when two people are trying to get along there will be problems. I know what my shortcomings are, I just don't want to repeat the sa mistakes. I hope I can et soone who understands this feeling, I only want to be earnest and serious about feelings, that's all.
I really hope that I can fall in love with soone.
On that day, I got off work and t a woman at the entrance of the hospital, long hair, clean and pretty looks, she greeted . I didn't rember who she was, perhaps so patient that I've treated? Out of courtesy, I greeted her back. She was very nervous, I looked at her so more, and didn't think anything of it and so I left.Later on, I saw the girl again in the inpatient ward. At that ti, I was doing a pre-operation information session with a patient in my office, explaining to them the procedure and answering any questions they had, getting the patient and family signature, and then I looked up and saw her hanging around the door. I recognized her from the ti I saw her at the hospital entrance. I thought that maybe she was a family mber of a patient, maybe she wanted to consult about her family mber's condition? I excused myself for a bit to the patient, who was currently looking over the operation instructions and docunts and then went out to ask who she was and what the problem was. In the end, as soon as I ca out, she ran away and ran fast, and suddenly disappeared.
So baffling!
Although she was very strange, I was very busy and so did not worry about her.
Afterwards, I was in the outpatient departnt and had a long list of patients. I was seeing one patient after another, and later when I called the next na, I paused because I saw the na was Chen Ruo Yu.
I suddenly rembered.
Gao Yu Lan's close friend and buddy, the one who was picking between and Lei Feng at the sa ti, and finally, because Lei Feng has a master already, turned to inquire about my relationship status, was called Chen Ruo Yu.
Soone with the sa first and last na?
When Chen Ruo Yu ca in, I suddenly realized, it turned out to be her!
The girl who nervously greeted the hospital entrance and the one who ran away from in the ward was Chen Ruo Yu. So, her weird and baffling performance was to draw my attention?
She sat down and was nervously twirling her fingers. I pretended not to know who she was and asked where she was having discomfort in a doctor's voice.
After a mont she said chest pain, then it seed that she thought this part of the body will be embarrassing, her face showed a combination of awkwardness and embarrassnt, so she changed it to shoulder pain.
I ca to another realization, she is not sick at all.
I pretended to inquire about her condition seriously. She spoke in a jumbled ss, she was too nervous to speak properly. I really wanted to tell her that if she is not good at lying, then she shouldn't use this trick.
Then I stopped asking, and then simply gave her a checklist of examinations for her to do. She showed a distressed expression about the money. I thought it was a little funny. She was wasting dical resources, shouldn't she pay sothing for this?
In the end, she gathered up her courage and stamringly said, "I am Gao Yu Lan's friend."
I know, but I didn't give her a response.
Maybe she thought that I didn't rember who Gao Yu Lan was so she said, "Gao Yu Lan is Yin Ze's friend."
I nodded and said, "Hello." I thought that her self-introduction was awkward.
My cold reaction made her finally sound of the difficulties and retreat to avoid defeat. She turned red and went out with the checklist.
This outpatient appointnt was the beginning of my interaction with Chen Ruo Yu.
Later, she ca for a doctor's appointnt again.
Of course, she was not sick, she was just using this as an excuse to see .
I was very dissatisfied with this behavior. Does she know that she is wasting the ti of the patients who are waiting to see a doctor? Does she know that an on-duty doctor's ti should be used for proper business?
This ti she was still nervous and said that her stomach was a little uncomfortable. I asked her specifically which area she was uncomfortable. She also gave an answer that was all over the place. I was thinking that she was so stupid that every ti she didn't properly make up her lie, or that she was too nervous, and so every ti she ca, she couldn't rember what she had planned.I was not happy and asked her where in her stomach was not hurting. She nodded and then shook her head. I was really annoyed with her, not only was she wasting other people's ti, but she also lowered the overall IQ of all her fellow won.
"Miss, do you have a stomach?" I asked her. She blinked and then finally understood what I said, and then she turned red and seed to be a little angry with my teasing.
I also blinked, I just teased, I just wasn't courteous to her, how co?
The result of that? Next ti when she ca back, it was if nothing had happened.
She is the most unusual woman that I have t to stubbornly pursue a man like this. She gave flowers and said that she was grateful to for treating her. God knows that I have done nothing except giving her a list of expensive examinations to do, and every ti she had on a distressed expression. She didn't go for the examinations every ti, and will then co back after a period of ti.
She also sent durian candy. I don't like sweets, and I hate the taste of durian, and she actually gave this candy. Even if you want to give a man candy, you shouldn't send him such stinky candy.
I really want to ask her: who is your man pursuit coach? Who gave you such a bad idea?
She asked out, saying that she wanted to et up with Gao Yu Lan and Yin Ze to chat and have a al and asked if I would like to go together. I refused.
I had no intention of inadvertently giving her any hints, so she doesn't have even a single strand of a hope of a possibility.
Most importantly, I did not see any deep feelings for in her eyes. She was nervous, but not shy, and her face going crimson every ti was more like an awkward reaction.
There is no love, only courage, this was my interpretation of her performance.
Her eyes clearly expressed, that I am a man that she knows who has good conditions, and so she feels that she should co to pursue.
That's it.
If it wasn't for Yin Ze, I would have earlier told her so words that would have made her feel so ashad that she wouldn't dare to show her face again. I think I would ask her, where exactly do you feel that we are a good match? I think I can cite a bunch of reasons to refute her. I also want to ask her, if you don't love this man and you catch him, how can you be so sure that you will fall in love with him later? If you can't fall in love the whole ti, what do you intend to do?
Of course, I didn't ask anything. I felt that it was not necessary to deepen my interaction with her. She was just like other won who want to pursue , only a hurrying passerby. There is no need to be too familiar. I rejected her with indifference, and she ought to understand my aning.
But her speed of understanding is a bit slow. From ti to ti, she would run to the outpatients ward. One day while I was at the outpatients clinic, I ca out to go to the bathroom and saw Chen Ruo Yu bent over on the ground looking under the chairs in the waiting room helping an old lady find sothing. While she was on the ground and looking from side to side, she comforted, "Don't be anxious, it must be near here, don't worry."
I didn't look much, there were still many patients waiting, so I have to return quickly. However, there are so many people sitting in the waiting room, everyone just simply bowed their heads to look around them. Only Chen Ruo Yu, this sorry figure, got down on her knees to look under the chairs.
When I ca back from the bathroom, I heard Chen Ruo Yu happily shouting: "I found it, I found it, I said it wouldn't disappear, it just rolled to the far back. Auntie, look, I found it."
I went back to the office, knowing that Chen Ruo Yu would co in a mont co in again. This woman, although her face is thick and she pursues a man in a silly way, but her heart is quite good. Should I find a ti to talk to her and clearly it clear, so that she can give up on ? Tell her not to waste her ti, and to quickly go find the next possible target.
But she didn't show up until the end of her appointnt. I felt a bit strange, she was obviously here, so why didn't she co to see ? Didn't she co to see ?
From that day on, Chen Ruo Yu disappeared.
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