(Rigel)
I make my way to et my mother and Aziel. I knew he had returned from his therapy session.
He has taken this initiative and I do wonder if I should go down that route too. But the thought of opening up to a stranger is unsettling for .
My steps halt when I hear his voice through the door. The heightened hearing helps . He is speaking to my mother.
"I don’t know how to tell her what I have been through. After so many years of abuse, speaking to others is a laborious task for , even with Amaia..."
His voice has such an anguished plea that it reminds of my darkness and how it has shaped my whole life. I can’t even bring myself to share those harrowing scars that have scarred for life.
Wounds so deep that they are etched into my soul.
"I only know how to speak with you openly because you know, you have seen what I have been through," he continues to lant with my mother.
"Aziel, what we went through changes you for life. We won’t be the sa people. My sons are battling their own demons, and so is Amaia. But we are together now and will nurture each other to heal," she kindly tells him.
I stand there, listening to them for a while and then finally knock on the door.
"Co," my mother gives permission. Opening the door I enter the room. They smile seeing but I can sense the tension, the suppressed grief, the hidden suffering, the bruises which have tortured their souls.
"Rigel, co sit with us." Mom pats the space beside her. I sit and clasp my hands together, facing Aziel.
I see myself in him. The happy mories of childhood, the ones I spent with him flash in my brain.
"You can speak to . I will understand. I know you don’t wish to worry Amaia." I wish to tell him all this.
She has wounded all of us in one way or another. So of us have bled more so less and so like have lost parts of them which will never heal.
Aziel gives a wounded smile. "I wish to heal and lead a normal life or sothing close to it but I don’t know how. That’s what I was discussing with mom."
My mother has such a big heart. She has adopted Aziel as her son and I am sure she sees my three brothers in the sa way.
"I think we need to find you your mate. Rigel and I did and believe that helps," Mom says with a smile of her own.
Aziel takes a deep and desperate breath.
"If only..."
"Tell Amaia to bless you with so of her luck on finding mates," mom teases, her eyes crinkling at the sides.
The atmosphere lightens and both of us burst out laughing.
"Yeah, I am going to talk to her. Is she free?"
"She is with her friends in the grounds outside. Go, I am sure she would love connecting you with them." Hearing this, Aziel thanks before taking his leave.
The door closes and I lean on my mother’s shoulder, holding her. With eyes closed, even my shadows relax in her proximity.
Mom keeps her arms around , kissing the top of my head. She lets relax for a while before speaking.
"There is sothing I an to speak with you about. But..." I sense her body tensing. Whatever it is, it’s not going to be pleasant.
Does she want to speak to about living with her in Fudaria? That will be a difficult decision.
I straighten up and face her. The trepidations are so apparent in her eyes. She is afraid of my reaction, I can tell.
I collect both her hands in mine and squeeze. "You can speak to freely."
She nods in appreciation. "It’s about your father. I want you to know the truth before we go to war."
My father? What about him I wonder.
"What is it?" I ask, confused and her lips purse. She is trying to keep them from quivering. Her eyes beco watery.
"Orion is not your biological father..." She pauses and draws in a breath. My heart is tightly squeezed in my chest. "Hathial is."
A mountain seems to have been dropped on my head, crushing . The man whom I always believed to be my father is soone I have no connection with. The one I blad for my condition and not coming to my rescue.
A man I have barely t twice is my real father.
The shadow magic. The sudden drawness to him. The peace I experienced in Fudaria. It makes sense now.
But...
Letting go of my mother’s hands, I abruptly stand. My shadows go restless on my skin. The agitation grips every limb.
That ans I am the Prince of Fudaria and not Orion. That Saiph is only my half-brother and others are not even my brothers. I have no blood relation to them.
No, no, that can’t be. Any stability I was trying to find. Every lost connection I was desperate to stitch together has been snatched from yet again.
I grab my head, wishing to pull my hair. The rage is blinding , tunnelling my vision. So much rage that all I can see is red.
"Does she have sothing to do with it?" I rage out, not at my mother but I can’t control this tumultuous anger clawing my very existence.
My mother frantically stands up. "Rigel, listen." She takes a step forward but I step back.
"Just tell , Mom. Please," I frantically say and she sadly nods. Trying to keep her tears from slipping out.
No matter what I do or where I turn, that woman has destroyed a part of my life which can’t be reversed.
Her actions have taken my father and brothers from . Wedged this distance between us that I won’t be able to bridge now.
I love my brothers. Will I even be able to live with them?
The man I called father will probably throw out, knowing I am not his son. How will I survive, especially without Amaia?
She can’t leave all her mates just for . And we can’t live here.
"No, no...no no." Vigorously I shake my head. A maelstrom of fury has engulfed , tearing at my flesh.
"This can’t be...THIS CAN’T BE," I yell until I feel my lungs would explode. My hands hold my head, transporting back to where she tortured . My knees wobble and I kneel on the floor.
I have to control myself but I can’t, I don’t want to hurt anyone. My mother is right beside , trying to get closer and hold . I can sense her, she is saying sothing but the voices in my head, the insults, the mocking is so loud that I can’t hear anything else.
But the tempest inside is going to explode any mont. My shadows shift trying to shield my mother from it.
Only then do I feel Amaia’s comforting arms and her soothing voice.
"I am here."
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