177 Coward
Selma Payne’s POV:
I gently knocked on the door, and Aldrich’s voice ca from behind. “Please let be alone for a while. Thank you.”
“It’s , Aldrich,” I said.
He was silent for a few seconds before he opened the door.
“Hello, I heard you canceled today’s training, so I ca to ask what happened.” I pretended to be calm, but my evasive gaze and unnecessary actions had already completely betrayed .
“You’re going on a mission. Why are you still at ho? Are you only leaving at night?”
I tried to find a topic to talk about, but when I realized what I had said, I wanted to slap myself.
“I don’t an anything else, it’s just that I don’t know what I’m talking about, so I’m so embarrassed now. Don’t you want to invite in? It’s awkward to be standing at the door like this.”
I blurted out a bunch of words like a machine gun. Aldrich silently nodded and gestured for to enter the room.
The last ti we were in his room, we watched a movie together. This ti, the atmosphere was very different. The soft sofa made it difficult for to sit still. I didn’t even know where to place my hands and feet.
Aldrich finally said the first words to today, “Do you want so tea? I’ll get the servant to bring it up.”
“No need!” I was so nervous that my voice changed. “I had tea at the palace. It was lemon green tea with three sugar cubes. Kara also told not to eat it so sweet and that it would cause tooth decay. Gosh! What am I saying?”
Aldrich sat down opposite like a silent mountain. I suddenly realized that when he was expressionless, he was a completely different person compared to the usual sweet little dog. His strong body gave people an unparalleled sense of oppression, and his calm gaze treated everyone as air.
We sat in silence.
I quietly observed Aldrich. His expression was empty, and I didn’t know what he was thinking. He was facing , but I was sure his dilated pupils weren’t looking at . I would have thought he had fallen asleep if he wasn’t blinking.
Soone had to break the ice.
I thought.
That was why I was here.
“Aldrich, we need to talk.” I thought about it again and said, “It’s about everything that happened in the past few days, about what happened in the Rocky Mountains.”
He didn’t answer , so I could only bite the bullet and continue, “First, I have to apologize. I know what I said to you that day was too hurtful, but please believe that I didn’t an to put status above our relationship. I was affected by negative emotions then, and I couldn’t control myself at all because I had just absorbed the giant pine tree ford by the demonic shard.
” I regretted it the mont I said those words. I should have apologized to you, but I hesitated. I was afraid, nervous, and a little embarrassed. I don’t know how to tell you. I felt that anything I said would be wrong. It would be too deliberate. At that ti, I was a bit of a jerk and didn’t want to do those things that would ‘lose face’.
“You didn’t say a word on the plane. I wanted to find an opportunity to say sothing to you, but I missed it because of my hesitation. After returning to the palace, I had an ostricious ntality and didn’t want to face this matter. I pretended it didn’t exist, which caused the conflict between us to deepen.
“I don’t know why, but I sohow feel that you’re gradually forgiving . Please don’t laugh at for overthinking, but every ti I look into your eyes, I can’t help but have this thought. People who hate won’t look at so gently. You’ve been giving hints, but I’ve been avoiding them.
“To be honest, I’m a little afraid you’ll forgive . It’s contradictory, right? But that’s the truth. Because your temper is just too good, you’re always forgiving . Whether I made a mistake intentionally or unintentionally, it doesn’t matter to you. I like this feeling, but I also hate this feeling. I don’t want you to break your bottom line because of . The reason is very selfish because I don’t want to take on this role of controlling people.
“You know what? I’ve even thought about breaking up these past few days, but yesterday, my parents told that...”
“I’m not breaking up.”
Aldrich, who had been absent-minded the whole ti, suddenly spoke up.
“No matter what, I won’t break up.”
My train of thought was interrupted, and I suddenly stamred, “No, listen to first.”
“I won’t listen,” Aldrich said unyieldingly. “In any case, I won’t break up. No matter what.”
I couldn’t help but laugh at his childish behavior. “I’m not breaking up. I’m just telling you my feelings.”
Aldrich was like a doll wound up with a spring, suddenly receiving a vital life force. He looked at with a serious and stubborn expression.
“I only had that thought for a mont.” I looked into his eyes and said thoughtfully, “Only one second, but I quickly brushed it away.
“It’s because I love you, Aldrich. Love made a coward, but it made willing to take on all responsibilities. I don’t think our conflict has reached the point where we can end our love, and I can’t give up because of this small setback. If I do, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life and look down on myself forever.”
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