Alpha's Dark Desires Chapter 138: Once Upon A Time

Dean’s POV

I shouldn’t have stopped.

I shouldn’t have let Kane feel all of it.

But I did.

I kept absorbing the darkness.

And the more I took in, the harder it beca to control.

I rember the first ti I let a little slip through the cracks. Giving him just a fraction of what he was ant to feel.

He ca to that night, his voice unusually quiet, his expression guarded.

"I want to try sothing," he said. "Sothing... different."

I didn’t give much of a fuck. Kane was always so damn proper, so controlled. So, if he wanted to dip his toes into sothing darker? Why the hell not?

"Go for it."

That’s how Laura ca to be.

His first sub.

His first taste of control.

And I didn’t mind.

I let him play. Let him explore that side of himself.

Until she threw herself at .

And let’s be honest—who turns down an easy fuck?

Certainly not .

So, yeah. I fucked her.

And when Kane found out, he was furious.

Raging. Snarling.

And I?

I didn’t give a single damn.

Not until he called during one of his punishnt sessions.

That’s when I knew sothing was wrong.

Because I could feel it.

The darkness inside him.

It was clawing its way up, creeping in, tainting his every thought.

Laura had disobeyed him, and instead of the usual punishnt, he had snapped.

I rember walking into that room, the scent of leather and sweat thick in the air, the flickering candlelight casting shadows across Kane’s face.

He was gone.

His eyes—usually sharp, calculating—were empty.

And Laura?

She was trembling.

On her knees.

Tears staining her cheeks as she pleaded.

Begging him to stop.

But he didn’t even hear her.

Because he wasn’t Kane anymore.

The darkness had him.

And if I didn’t step in?

She was going to die.

So, I did what I always did.

I took it.

I absorbed every ounce of his rage, his sadistic hunger, his need to break her.

And just like that—

He sobered up.

The fog lifted.

He looked down at Laura, at the damage he had done, and guilt swallowed him whole.

He let her go.

Forgave her.

And I was left carrying the weight of what he had almost beco.

That night, I made a decision.

I could never afford to let my guard down again.

Because if I did?

Kane wouldn’t survive it.

But the problem with absorbing darkness is that it needs an outlet.

And with the entire pack against , with his parents whispering their poison, I had no reason to care anymore.

So, I found an outlet.

I left the packlands.

I went to the rogues.

I drank from them.

Filthy, desperate bastards.

Nothing like pack wolves.

But it worked.

I could drain them dry, and no one would give a damn.

I could take their rage, their hatred, their sins—and for a mont, it felt good.

But I forgot sothing.

Rogues and vampires have never been friends.

It was a humiliation unlike any other.

To have a vampire drink from them?

To be nothing more than prey?

They were furious.

And when they found out where I was from?

When they saw my face and realized I looked exactly like Kane?

They wanted revenge.

They stord the pack.

Slaughtered Kane’s parents.

Burned down half of what he called ho.

And who did he bla?

.

Even now, after all these years.

He still blas .

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Kane never forgave .

Not for Laura.

Not for the rogues.

Not for the deaths of his parents.

And honestly? I never asked him to.

Because deep down, I knew the truth.

He needed soone to bla. Soone to bear the weight of his sins. Soone to carry the darkness so he could stay clean.

And that soone had always been .

I was the monster lurking in the shadows, the curse that tainted his bloodline, the evil twin, the abomination. The thing that should have never existed.

At least, that’s what they told .

What he told himself.

But Kane had always been a fool.

He thought he was better than , stronger than , purer than .

But what he refused to see—what he could never accept—was that we were the sa.

Two halves of a whole.

He could fight it all he wanted. Could pretend he was the noble Alpha, the protector of his pack, the loving mate.

But at the end of the day?

He had my darkness inside him.

He had always needed .

Because without ?

He was nothing.

And I think, sowhere in the back of his mind, he knew that.

That’s why he never truly pushed away.

No matter how much he hated , no matter how many tis he cursed my na, no matter how many bodies piled up between us, Kane could never erase .

I was the shadow he could never outrun.

And when the darkness finally ca for him—when it wrapped around his soul and whispered in his ear—I was the only one who understood.

Because I had always been there.

Waiting.

Watching.

Knowing, sooner or later, he would finally break.

It had started subtly.

The small cracks in Kane’s carefully built facade.

He liked to pretend he had control, that he had mastered himself. But I saw the way his hands clenched too tightly during training, the way his eyes lingered too long on a fresh wound, the way his breath hitched at the scent of blood.

He wanted to tell himself he was different from .

That he was stronger.

That he would never let the darkness win.

But then ca Laura.

His first taste of control.

His first taste of power.

The first ti he let himself indulge in that darker side of him—the side I had always known was there, lurking beneath the surface, waiting to be freed.

I didn’t push him into it.

I didn’t need to.

It was already in him.

That hunger.

That need.

The need to break sothing. To claim sothing. To own sothing.

And I watched, from the shadows, as he explored that need.

It started with little things.

A slap here. A whispered command there. Laura fell to her knees at his feet, eager to obey, eager to please. And Kane—oh, sweet, naive Kane—thought he had it all under control.

Until he didn’t.

Until one day, he called .

I found him in his private chamber, standing over Laura’s trembling form. His hands were shaking, his pupils blown wide, his breathing ragged.

He had hurt her.

Not in the way she had wanted.

Not in the way she had begged for.

No, this had been sothing else.

Sothing raw.

Sothing ugly.

And he hadn’t been able to stop himself.

The darkness had taken hold of him, had wrapped around him like a vice, and he had lost control.

I had seen it coming.

I had felt it coming.

Because he had started blocking from our bond, refusing to let take his darkness, refusing to let be his filter.

And now, he was paying the price.

I could see it in his eyes—the horror, the guilt.

And I knew what had to be done.

So I did what I always did.

I absorbed it.

Took his sins into myself, let the darkness sink into my bones, let it consu instead.

And just like that, Kane was himself again.

Just like that, he was the noble Alpha again, the protector, the man his pack needed him to be.

And I... I beca the monster once more.

After that, I knew.

I couldn’t stop absorbing it.

Because if I didn’t, Kane would lose himself.

He would fall into the abyss.

And no one—not even —would be able to pull him back out.

So I took it all.

Every violent impulse.

Every dark craving.

Every twisted thought.

And I buried them deep inside myself.

But the thing about darkness?

It doesn’t just disappear.

It festers.

It grows.

And with every ounce of Kane’s sin I absorbed, the harder it beca to control.

The hungrier I beca.

So I did what I had to do.

I fed.

I sought out the rogues—the filth of the supernatural world—and I drank them dry.

I let their blood stain my hands, let their screams echo in my ears, let their suffering beco my release.

Because I had to.

Because if I didn’t, the darkness would consu , just as it had almost consud Kane.

But I made a mistake.

I let them see my face.

I let them know who I was.

And when they realized that I shared Kane’s face, that I carried his scent, that I was of his pack...

They took their revenge.

They ca in the dead of night, their fangs bared, their claws drenched in blood.

They tore through the pack like beasts, like rabid animals, like the monsters they had always been accused of being.

And when the night ended, Kane’s parents lay dead.

Slaughtered.

Ripped apart.

And Kane...

Kane blad .

Because of course he did.

Because it was easier than blaming himself.

Easier than accepting that he had made this way.

That every dark impulse he had ever buried, every wicked thought he had ever suppressed, every ounce of sin he had ever refused to acknowledge—he had given it all to .

And I had carried it willingly.

For him.

For us.

But it was never enough.

I was never enough.

And so he cast out.

Told I was a mistake.

Told I should have never existed.

Told that if he ever saw again, he would kill .

And maybe... maybe part of wished he had.

Because living without him?

Without the bond that had once made us whole?

It was worse than death.

It was hell.

But here’s the thing about hell.

Once you’ve been there long enough...

You stop fearing the flas.

And now?

Now the darkness is .

I don’t fight it anymore.

I don’t hide from it.

I let it in.

Let it consu .

Because I finally understand.

I was never the monster Kane feared.

I was the monster he created.

And one day, he’ll have to face the truth.

One day, he’ll have to pay for what he did.

And when that day cos...

I’ll be waiting.