Yao Mingyue's heart condition had been a long-standing issue, sothing that could be said to be congenital.
Yao Mingyue steadied her emotions, gently lifting her head from Xu Musen's embrace, knowing she could no longer hide it.
Xu Musen sat on the bench, letting her head gently rest on his shoulder.
"Do you rember, when I was a child, my developnt was always a little slower compared to my peers.
Sotis I would experience symptoms of hypoglycemia and anemia, often feeling dizzy and light-headed, which kept from participating in strenuous activities. Most of the ti, I would silently watch other lively and cheerful children my age run and play to their hearts' content.
Especially in winter, it was worse, as if soone had pressed the pause button on , hiding away in the blankets, still with hands and feet cold as ice. Every winter I would always be sickly..."
Before junior high school, she was always a tiny one, following behind Xu Musen so closely that she would get out of breath, a little "tail" that couldn't keep up with his pace.
These issues had slightly improved as she grew older, but the problems with her heart were never thoroughly resolved.
Xu Musen certainly rembered how beautiful Yao Mingyue was as a little girl, although her complexion was always pale, like a delicate porcelain doll that could shatter at the slightest touch.
Holding Yao Mingyue's small hand, Xu Musen nodded, revealing a slight smile on his lips to lighten the mood, "Mmm, of course I rember. Back then, you were so tiny, no matter how much you ate, you couldn't gain weight. Sotis even a slightly larger dog would be a close call for ."
"I wasn't as weak as you make out to be!"
Yao Mingyue's sorrowful mood dissipated a bit with his teasing, but as she looked at his teasing grin and felt the warmth of the hand holding hers, it was comforting.
Just like when they were younger, he had always teased her, but whenever there was sothing tasty or fun, he would always save it for her first.
She huffed angrily.
"Anyway, I just didn't develop well before. I couldn't eat much. Otherwise, by now this beauty would certainly..."
Yao Mingyue was speaking when she sneaked a look downward, realizing her chest was still a bit lacking.
Otherwise, with her mother's body proportions and genetic heritage, she could have compared herself to a certain Nuannuan's ample figure!
No, why would she want to be that big? It would lead to sore shoulders, clothes looking bad, just making a certain soone more interested, pah! She certainly didn't need to be liked by that shallow man who only recognizes chests, not people!
And so, Xu Musen got another taphorical foot stomp.
Looking at her eyes turning faintly red with a hint of resentnt, Xu Musen knew what the sensitive girl was thinking: "I didn't say anything; it's all your imagination, isn't it?"
"You wouldn't think..."
Yao Mingyue trailed off, now leaning on his shoulder, recalling how she used to get jealous—even jealous of her own mother, sotis resenting her for not passing on those great physical attributes.
And seeing Nuannuan just proved that Xu Musen, that superficial guy, did indeed like that sort!
But now, Yao Mingyue genuinely didn't have much energy left to feel jealous.
"Actually, my parents have taken to many doctors since I was young, but the conclusions were always the sa.
My heart was innately weak, like most people have a 2.0 engine, but I only have a 1.0. It's fine most of the ti.
But once winter hits, or there are changes in my body, or I experience any major emotional fluctuations, I easily 'break down'."
Yao Mingyue laughed, her tone seemingly lighthearted, yet it still managed to sound incredibly bitter and sad.
Xu Musen silently held her hand as she spoke.
"The doctors' advice was conservative treatnt. The risks of a complete operation were too great. They said things might get a little better as I got older, but it would be difficult for to have a lifespan as long as normal people's..."
Yao Mingyue was like a dazzling flower blooming in the years of youth, blossoming vigorously, but also withering faster than ordinary people.
These years, Yao Mingyue's gradually changing personality had beco stronger, teaching her to hide her fragile side deep within.
To outsiders, she had completely transford from a girl who could only hide behind Xu Musen into a perfect goddess that everyone envied.
Perfect to the point where everyone thought she was truly fine, even Liu Rushuang began to believe that her precious daughter's illness had gradually improved with age.
All her forced bravado, twisted and knotted inside, beca the catalyst for her evolving into a sickly character...
Xu Musen gently stroked her head, looking at her reddening eyes and pale face.
Just like when they were children, on winter days when the two would walk ho hand in hand, Xu Musen would have to warm up her tiny cold feet—a pitying sight indeed.
"Why did you not tell these things sooner?"
Xu Musen did not bla her, but he had never heard her or Liu Rushuang ntion these matters, and Father Xu and Mother Xu only knew Yao Mingyue had a weak constitution, they too were unaware of the severity of her condition.
"Letting you know would've only caused you worry, so it was better that I faced it alone..." Yao Mingyue lowered her head, her feet placed side by side on the wheelchair, tangled and lancholic.
"If I no longer have the right to worry about you, that would make even sadder than worrying."
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