"Such humiliating words had been heard by him; if today doesn't end well, then she'll just have to kill him to silence him!"
"I didn't."
Xu Musen quickly shook his head.
"If you want to laugh, just laugh. After all… this is just the kind of… 'loser'…I am."
Zhu Yulan felt a bit like giving up.
Xu Musen couldn't help but smile, "If you're a 'loser,' then no one else stands a chance. Honestly, everyone has a bit of vanity. Having a beautiful and outstanding girl like you like does make very happy as a man. However, I feel you may be seeing through rose-tinted glasses and perhaps so events you've gone through leave you lacking this kind of beautiful longing. In reality, I may not be as great as you think..."
Xu Musen could understand why Zhu Yulan would feel this way because of her family background—where interests reigned supre. Although her material needs were t, emotionally, she had no one to rely on.
Thus, when she saw how unconditionally Xu Musen indulged An Nuannuan, Zhu Yulan envied that limitless protective feel.
"At that ti, I also thought that maybe I was overthinking it. You annoying guy, as long as you didn't trick , it would be fine. How could you take care of like how you take care of Nuannuan? But after that fallout with my family, not only did my friends not help , but none of them would even speak to . I don't know why, but the first person I thought of was you. And sure enough, you did not disappoint ."
Zhu Yulan looked at Xu Musen, her eyes turning red but also glinting with light.
"Actually, I didn't do much; I just arranged a place for you to live, and I even took your rent." Xu Musen said, shaking his head with a smile.
"No, you gave more than just a place to live; you gave trust and dignity."
Zhu Yulan's eyes sparkled, "You understand my personality. Your so-called 'rent,' your so-called 'work,' it's all because you didn't want to carry so much ntal burden... You're always like this, pretending to be an but making everyone feel warm inside.
It was from that ti on, being able to interact with you up close every day, especially during that ti, I saw how you managed everything so well despite being busy at work. Every night, you would co ho with a smile, ready to face Nuannuan, including Ming Yue, Malt, and everyone at the company... You took care of everyone so well.
It was then I realized that career and love aren't either/or choices; one shouldn't have to give up one for the other. Even people who are busy should always make ti for those they love..."
Zhu Yulan's voice trembled toward the end; she still harbored resentnt about the ti her mother was seriously ill, and her father was too busy with the family inheritance to see her mother for the last ti.
But if the most loved ones are gone, what is the significance of status and money?
She didn't understand, but from Xu Musen, she felt the responsibility and security she had always wanted.
"That period was the happiest ti for . I lived like an ordinary person, working nine to five, eating takeout, and spending half a day with Malt over a discount of one or two dollars. It was tiring but fulfilling. During that ti, I slowly got used to having you around. Strangely enough, although you were soone else's boyfriend, every ti I saw you, I felt exceptionally secure."
Zhu Yulan wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes and showed a silly smile, "From that ti on, there was an indelible shadow in my heart, but at that ti… I didn't want to admit to myself that I had fallen for such an annoying guy.
Until that day..."
Zhu Yulan's tone trembled again, "It was supposed to be my issue, but it ended up hurting you all..."
"Everything is in the past now, and you were a victim too. Besides, you've tried hard to make ands. It's not your fault."
Xu Musen gently patted her head; after all, such incidents were unpredictable.
Moreover, Zhu Yulan had done her best to make ands; rather than apologizing and self-doubt, Xu Musen actually admired Zhu Yulan's way of handling it more.
"You are always like this, a hopelessly nice person…"
Listening to his soft words, Zhu Yulan's emotions surged even more; yet, this was the part about him she liked the most.
Vengeful to outsiders, endlessly gentle to his loved ones.
"I always thought I could just go on alone, as so things might not even allow us to remain friends once spoken, especially with Nuannuan, I'd be even more of a villain.
But I always felt that if I couldn't hold back, I would regret it for the rest of my life."
Zhu Yulan slowly straightened up from Xu Musen's embrace, one hand gently pressing on the place over his heart.
The other hand lightly rested on her own chest.
Feeling the different rhythms of their heartbeats.
Their gazes intertwined.
Zhu Yulan's cheeks flushed with both intoxication and nervousness, her breathing even slightly shaky, this was her mont of courage.
"Xu Musen, I know… telling you this might not yield the answer I hope for, and it might even sour the friendship we've gradually built, but if I don't speak now, I will regret it for the rest of my life."
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