"Because I understand now, no matter how long we stay together, even if we are bound forever, this marriage will never be as I wish."
Pei Zhan gazed at the moon in the sky, his voice clear and resolute.
Fu Zhen said, "But didn’t you say initially that as long as we were together, you would be satisfied? Are you not satisfied now?"
She wasn’t trying to embarrass him with past remarks; it was just that his attitude contradicted his earlier words.
"Exactly." Pei Zhan looked at the crescent moon, "When I saw you return that day, I was overjoyed and didn’t hesitate to use so ans to make you willingly walk into the trap. On the night of our marriage, I didn’t sleep a wink, wholeheartedly believing that your life belonged to .
"Even when you repeatedly drew a line with , I didn’t mind. I believed that in ti, you would see my differences, you would discover that I was no longer the awkward and rigid child you once saw; you would eventually see as a true man.
"However, from the beginning, you had drawn a line for this marriage. You never thought about changing your mind.
"I underestimated your character. When Xu Yin lured you to reveal yourself with his flute, you were unmoved. When he confessed his feelings, ntioned so many mories of your past, you were not disturbed at all.
"Xu Yin has bewitched Yongping, bewitched Princess Rong, bewitched He Qunying and the Crown Prince. His eloquence is undeniably profound.
"Every ti I couldn’t help but worry that you might waver before him, you always showed a firmness beyond my expectations.
"You let see a deeper side of you — to be honest, seeing this made fall even deeper, yet on the other hand, it left more desperate.
"No matter what situation you’re in, you are always yourself, and no one or nothing can shake decisions you’ve firmly made. You can decisively cast away your past with Xu Yin, so naturally, you wouldn’t accept soone you never intended to welco. You wouldn’t want to continue a marriage you deed a re expedient.
"Like you said, romantic attachnts to you are just embellishnts. Those battles I fought might be impressive to many, but they still don’t move you because what you value is not these things. Even if I conquered the entire world, if you do not fancy , you still won’t fancy ."
This was the first ti Fu Zhen heard Pei Zhan speak so much, revealing such deep thoughts.
Guilt surged from her heart, "Actually, these past few months, I’ve been quite happy in the Pei family."
After a pause, she continued, "You don’t have to be like this, how can Xu Yin compare with you? It’s different situations, not comparable."
She admitted that she never considered this marriage in a long-term direction from the beginning.
However, after hearing these words, she didn’t know why her heart began to feel unsettled, unlike the certainty she had initially.
"Of course, it can be compared." Pei Zhan’s eyes sparkled, "Let ask you, if I don’t agree to separate, would you still stay in the Pei family? Would you comply with my wishes and continue being husband and wife with ?"
Fu Zhen turned her eyes away, picked up a fallen leaf on the steps, and tore it in her hand.
"No."
To Fu Zhen, it didn’t matter where she lived, but Pei Zhan shouldn’t have to waste his life on her.
"Then in your heart, is there anything different about your feelings for ?" Pei Zhan turned her face towards him, "You shared so many unforgettable mories with Xu Yin, you know what it feels like to be moved, have you ever been moved by ?"
Fu Zhen had never faced such a direct question. Facing his unwavering gaze, she slowly lowered her head.
She always knew the purpose of marrying him; though she felt endless gratitude towards him, she never confused gratitude with affection.
Pei Zhan’s gaze lingered on her face for a mont before he withdrew it, "Your silence is the answer. Since you never had a flicker of affection for , what outco can my persistence in keeping you possibly achieve?"
Fu Zhen silently mouthed.
Pei Zhan spoke gently, "At first, I thought even if you didn’t like , being able to spend a lifeti with you would be enough for .
"But after hearing what you and Xu Yin talked about, I realized that’s not the case.
"Rather than simply staying with you, I want your heart. I could certainly find a way not to separate, but that would an imprisoning you with a piece of marriage paper.
"When I married you, I already employed deceitful tactics. If I selfishly bind you again, I wouldn’t be able to respect myself."
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