Qin Huai said this directly.
Zhao Cheng'an remarked that Qin Huai's cursing was really foul now.
"They all say that a spirit only ets their destined straw in the last lifeti, but I feel I've already t mine in this life. Even if Xiao Qin didn't give this coconut mooncake, I might awaken in a few years." Gong Liang said, adhering to the local customs, his address to Qin Huai shifted from Master Qin to Xiao Qin.
"In this life, I have completely forgotten that I am a spirit. Only so residual mories influence through dreams. Yet, I still retain so traits of the Scamr beast, so I've been eloquent since childhood; otherwise, I wouldn't have beco a salesperson at the Silk Factory."
"But I have stage fright."
"When I first joined the sales departnt, everyone had high hopes for . They believed my talents would make a good salesperson. Our departnt head even thought it was a pity for to be at the Silk Factory, suggesting I could achieve great things at the neighboring Cotton Mill."
"But I knew I couldn't do it."
"The first ti the departnt head took to discuss a major deal, though I had prepared well, even drafting beforehand and envisioning many scenarios and responses, when I actually faced the situation, all I felt was fear and anxiety."
"I have a natural fear and dread of people with higher status than . Before them, I was so frightened that my lips trembled, unable to speak, with my mind blank."
"The departnt head thought it was my first ti showing timidity, did not bla , and even comforted . But I know that fear is engraved in my bones."
"I don't know why, but I'm just afraid, an instinctual fear."
"The second ti the departnt head took out for a deal, just like the first ti, I botched it."
"The departnt head still comforted , but by then I was contemplating quitting. I felt I couldn't be a salesperson and needed to find a job more suitable for . I was doubting myself, even beginning to experience auditory and visual hallucinations like Qu Jing did in her middle life, unable to distinguish dreams from reality."
"It was Master Jing who saved ."
"He noticed sothing was wrong with , didn't ask anything, didn't even initially encourage . He treated like a kid in need of comfort, bringing different delicious snacks ho each day after work, telling that if feeling down, have sothing sweet, and the mood would get much better."
"He didn't tell what's right or wrong, didn't scold for avoiding things, he just told to do what I wanted, saying I'm still young, and any choice would have a bright future."
As Gong Liang said this, his eyes glistening with tears: "Master Jing was truly my straw."
"Without him, I might have beco introverted like in my second life, living in fear daily, becoming eccentric, misunderstood, and ending my life in diocrity and agony."
"Worse yet, I might have ended up like Qu Jing at that ti, being tortured by dreams, unable to distinguish between illusion and reality, going insane and then committing suicide."
"But I didn't."
"And it's all because of Master Jing."
As he spoke, Gong Liang paused: "He saved , yet I didn't save him."
"Many years after Master Jing injured his leg with coal balls, I've constantly pondered if, instead of running business outside, I had returned ho, might I have heard Master Jing's cries in the first instance."
"If in the first mont of taking Master Jing to the hospital, I had determined to persuade Zheng Da and Shengli to transfer Master Jing to Shanghai, might I have saved his leg."
"If after Master Jing injured his leg, I had cared for him as he cared for , not being busy with work, not thinking about venturing into business, but spending more ti accompanying him next door, might Master Jing not have died of depression so early."
"After Master Jing's passing, when Zheng Da wanted to start a business, I gave him money to support his venture. When Shengli wanted to maintain the state-owned restaurant and turned it into Huang Ji Restaurant, I invested and helped him purchase the state-owned restaurant, renovating it to create present-day Huang Ji."
"Everyone says I help them because the three of us have known each other since childhood and have good relations, but it's more than just that."
"The most important reason is because they are Master Jing's apprentices."
"As long as they are still here, as long as Huang Ji is still open, as long as Zheng Da is willing to do snack business, I'll feel Master Jing's craft is not interrupted."
"My spiritual support remains."
"Even if I don't awaken this ti, he is my true straw."
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