[Day Forty-Seven.]
I witnessed the confrontation between Seraphina and the current pact head, Tyrus Vistidon, the Head of Strength from Lord Flalle. The sense of oppression, even only witnessing from the outside 's perspective, was overwhelming.
But Seraphina managed to pierce his heart with her fingers... remarkable. This is the pact head chosen by Ansel, her martial prowess is unparalleled.
In this eting, the outside spoke of matters I had considered long ago. The conflict between the Empress and Lord Flalle is intensifying, and if they go to war, the consequences will be unimaginable. Ansel must be aware of this. I have always believed… he must have prepared for this.
Because he clearly does not have an urgent need for the pact head, he could spend a year, no, four years slowly taming , indicating he is not in a hurry to increase his power.
I wonder how he plans to deal with this. Will I have ti to participate and offer him assistance?
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[Day Fifty]
I began to attempt to influence the mories of the outside .
In three years, the soul fragnts created by Lord Flalle for the outside are about to dissipate, and her mories will start to uncontrollably synchronize with mine from three years ago. Stay tuned to empire
Due to Lord Flalle's impeccable creation... as long as enough soul fragnts are supplented, the outside is indeed myself, a completely independent soul. Even though I have studied nurous soul secrets over these three years, to influence the outside silently and without Ansel noticing, I had to wait until now.
I succeeded... I can control the order of her mory awakening to so extent and even insert fabricated mories of my own.
Excellent, this way, I can ensure everything proceeds smoothly.
However, sothing unexpected happened.
Suellen... she approached , telling she knows the cause of grandfather's death, and in exchange, I need to help her deal with Evora.
Grandfather...
Ansel, ideals, the Tower of Babel, and grandfather's death... these might be the four things driving to continue living.
...the outside would not pass up this opportunity, nor would I now, but could this be Ansel's trap?
...
The outside confessed this matter to Ansel, the most reasonable and correct choice, but she remained extrely cautious and did not ask Ansel why grandfather died, believing the cost of obtaining this information was too high.
Three years ago, I did not ask either... but now it seems, it was because while living with Ansel, I let go of many obsessions, focusing solely on him and life, no longer troubled by past sorrows and pains.
Not because... seeking answers from Ansel would co at a great cost.
How absurd, yet so reasonable... the outside and Ansel have completely lost trust in each other.
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[Day Seventy-two.]
Ansel has a maid... no, should I say an attendant? Secretary? That girl nad Marlina, Seraphina's sister, gave my external self a hint.
She said Ansel has so kind of hidden trouble.
Of course, I know this, I am more aware than anyone in this world that Ansel must have hidden troubles, but... why would she tell the outside this?
Marlina said she learned this from Ansel's mother, Madam Annelisa. Why would Ansel's mother... tell this to an ordinary person?
Fate... are you ddling, deliberately pushing things forward?
Assuming this entity truly exists, I have discovered too many things over these three years that could be caused by It, imperceptible while within, but as an observer, I can vaguely capture the "deliberateness."
If fate is pushing my external self to be tad by Ansel, deliberately pushing for what both Ansel and I desire, then is it beneficial for fate if Ansel successfully tas the outside , or is it beneficial for fate… if I succeed?
...Too difficult, even a slight contemplation, and I can feel Ansel's pain.
Facing such a thing, whom can he trust?
He cannot even trust himself.
The outside , due to Marlina's words, has already sensed the blurriness and fragntation of mories, further doubting the truth of those years, further falling into Ansel's trap.
I do not know what Ansel will do, nor what fate intends, but I must... I must continue.
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[Day Eighty.]
I began investigating the cause of my grandfather's death, and Ansel intervened. Was this part of his plan? I do not know.
... Leiden, my father, had visited my grandfather's old residence.
He couldn't possibly be the murderer; neither his motive nor his capability aligns with such an act. So, was he there to pay his respects?
I haven't seen him in so long. To , he is rely a aningless term, and even now, I harbor resentnt towards him, the outside 's dissatisfaction and hatred for him have only grown.
The outside conversed with my parents... How strange, I could feel that they seed to care for . Their concerns didn't seem feigned, yet their betrayal of my grandfather was real. What is the truth?
I never considered them because they deed abnormal, but my grandfather saw as the hope for the future. How could I possibly acknowledge them under such circumstances? But why would they...?
Ansel interrupted my conversation with my parents. He wouldn't do sothing so aningless. Could it be that my parents truly care for ?
No, I must not be swayed by such thoughts. If I want answers, I will confront them once everything is over. They can wait for , but Ansel cannot wait for anyone else.
... He did it to again.
The outside beca increasingly emotional after just a few etings with Ansel. He is lting the outside , just like three years ago.
Only with him do I truly feel alive.
But... never mind.
Puppet again. What is he thinking? Why place my body on a puppet? If you have the ability—
… No, it won't work. The outside got ahead, and I can only watch helplessly. I can't accept this.
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