This was not the first ti Zuri did this, in fact, it was her mother, who taught her how to do it. She needed to keep her appearance impeccable and as her only daughter, she was made to believe that and follow her thods religiously. This was the fastest way to stop her from gaining weight.
Zuri shoved her fingers down her throat to regurgitate her breakfast. Tears stread down her face and once she was done, she was spent. She sat next to her own vomit and stared at the ceiling while the voices in her mind kept going.
It was quiet here, but not in her mind.
"I really need to take the dicine," she said to no one in particular. "They are getting too loud." She nodded to herself as if she had a friend to talk to. She had none.
Pushing herself up, she went back to her bedroom after asking an oga to clean up after her. She took the dicine and fell asleep until it was late at night.
When she woke up, she found Xaden sleeping next to her. He was fast asleep. This morning, he said that they were going to try for the baby again, but probably because he saw that Zuri was fast asleep, he stopped himself and chose not to bother her.
Zuri was not sure whether she should be grateful for that or what, since she heard a lot of scary stories about male shifters, who forced themselves on their mates and it was within their right to do so.
The bla would be put on the female shifters if they didn't comply with the demand.
Out there, the sky was still so dark, indicating the morning was still hours away, but Zuri was wide awake, therefore, she chose to get out of bed. She glanced at Xaden one last ti before she walked out of the room.
It was still in the middle of spring and the wind was warm. Zuri could sll the scent of flowers in the air as she walked in the hallway and a few guards nodded their heads in respect to their luna.
Ever since what happened to Faye, they were wary of her, which was good. If Zuri couldn't get their respect yet, wariness would do for the anti.
In the end, Zuri went close to the woods and shifted into her beast. It had been a long ti since she shifted into her beast and she felt great to let loose.
Her wolf was black in color and smaller than the average wolf. When she was still in the River Creek pack, she loved to run in the woods with her third brother, Rhett. He was the one who taught her everything, probably because they were closer in age.
She missed her brother. Their father didn't like him, even though he was the most capable one among the three of his sons and it was because his first mate died during childbirth when she gave birth to Rhett. Alpha Roland kind of blad his son for her death.
The black beast ran through the woods, until its legs were in pain. She found a clearing and only then she stopped near a river.
Zuri shifted back into her human form and took off her dress to dip in the cold river. It felt so good against her sweaty skin.
In their world, they could preserve their clothes whenever they shifted, because it was their beast form that made an appearance, while their human form was dormant. Therefore, she didn't need to bring a new dress whenever she wanted to shift.
"You shouldn't fall asleep."
Zuri furrowed her brows. She didn't need to open her eyes to know who it was. She had sensed his presence when she was still in the woods.
However, the thing that made her open her eyes was the sound of water splashing.
"You don't need to join ," Zuri said with a cold voice, as she watched Xaden take off his clothes and join her. He was naked and his shirt and pants were thrown next to hers.
Xaden ignored that, as he moved closer to her. "I don't know if you did it intentionally, but I have told you that we will try again tonight for the baby, yet you fell asleep."
"You think too much. It's not like I can avoid you," Zuri replied, her black eyes darkened when Xaden was so close to her and he grabbed her by the waist. He pulled her closer, so she could feel how hard he already was.
The water in the river was not too deep. It just reached her waist. Thus, when they stood facing each other like this, their upper bodies were fully exposed.
Xaden looked down and stared at her breasts, while Zuri remained unfazed. She prepared herself to enter the numbness again.
"You are right, you can't avoid . You are tied to until the end of your life." Xaden caressed her breast and stared at her expression. He wished to see sothing aside from her cold expression, but Zuri didn't give him the satisfaction. "I want you to want it too," Xaden said hoarsely. He pinched her nipple and leaned over to kiss the hollow behind her ear. "It will be less painful for you if you are less stubborn."
Zuri didn't heed him. She just wanted this to be over quickly. She was taught not to turn down your own mate if you wanted to have a happy union, but it didn't an she would enjoy it.
Sex felt like a chore to her at this point. Completely mundane. Ever since that first night they spent together and what happened after, she didn't have any expectations for her union with Xaden.
"Co on, Zuri." Xaden's hand traced down her body and caressed her inner thigh, as he rubbed his thumb against her clit. He leaned over even more and captured her nipple into his
mouth.
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