The younger sister is smart too, but she seems a little lacking compared to the older sister
Such was the evaluation Ji Xinxin often heard from others in her childhood.
Ji Xinxin wasnt a slow learner. On the contrary, she was actually smarter and more mature than her peers. She would have easily been the pride of any family, if not for the fact that her older sister was a true prodigy.
Her child mind couldnt comprehend why she was unable to keep up with her older sisters footsteps, no matter how hard she worked. Werent they supposed to be twins?
While Ji Xinxin was trying her best to get first place in school, Ji Fanyin had already clinched a tier-1 prize from Hua Luogengs Golden Cup.
While Ji Xinxin was desperately revising Olympiad questions, Ji Fanyin had already claid its golden trophy.
While Ji Xinxin was revising educational material three years ahead of her peers, Ji Fanyin had already finished a bunch of university textbooks that were now piled up by the corner of her room. She was even able to help their undergraduate neighbors with their assignnts!
While Ji Xinxin had just started learning about Picasso and Beethoven, Ji Fanyin was already making robots that could play any music sheet in the world.
Everyone always had their eyes focused on Ji Fanyin. Their complints were always reserved for her. It was almost as if everything good in the world belonged to her.
Even their nas were so different.
Fanyin (Vivace), Xinxin (Joyful).
No matter how hard their parents tried to explain that they had taken their nas from the ancient poemthe five notes resonate in a harmonious vivace, joyfully wishing the emperor good healthshe was still unable to curb her feelings of jealousy.
As Ji Xinxin slowly grew older and her attempts to chase after her older sisters footsteps always ended in failure, she began to realize one thing.
No matter how accomplished she was compared to her peers, as long as Ji Fanyin existed, she could never beco the center of attention. There was no way she could ever catch up with her older sister.
Never.
This despair drove Ji Xinxin into illness.
It was just an ordinary cold at the start, but she made a huge fuss and scread that she was in excruciating pain. Their parents anxiously sent her to the hospital to conduct a full body check-up, but of course, they were unable to find anything wrong with her.
That very mont, their hearts were with her and her only. They were so worried about her that they even stayed overnight at the hospital.
It was a night of just Ji Xinxin and no Ji Fanyin.
That was her mont of realization.
I dont need to be more outstanding than my older sister to make everyone see .
It could have been karma arising from her pretense, but she really fell severely ill shortly after, to the point where she beca delirious.
In her dreams, she saw herself becoming no more than an accompanying shadow living under her older sisters towering success.
At the sa ti, she also saw a woman whose na was also Ji Fanyin but was living a life completely different from theirs. That Ji Fanyin had an incredibly beautiful appearance. She had no lack of money, and she was revered by everyone around her.
Countless people would willingly beco slaves under her skirt at her command. That was how loved she was.
Even when Ji Xinxin finally awoke from her dreams, she still couldnt forget about the other Ji Fanyin.
So, she started copying her actions and behaviors. One step at a ti, she slowly found her own path and finally beca soone who was more eye-catching than her twin sister.
But even so, there were still two things which Ji Xinxin dared not to let her guard down on.
One was her older twin sister, Ji Fanyin. She knew that Ji Fanyin would soar like a phoenix as soon as she regained her confidence, so she was constantly keeping an eye on her.
The other was the Ji Fanyin she saw in her dream.
It was out of deep admiration for the other Ji Fanyin that convinced her to copy the latters actions and behaviors, and she eventually beca the current her. But at the sa ti, she also feared Ji Fanyin, who had unwittingly imparted to her all of her current skills.
Ji Xinxin had looked it up on the internet several tis over the years, and there was no film empress going by the na of Ji Fanyin. There was no such person during her childhood days, and that remained the case even after she graduated from university.
Maybe its just a dream. Maybe its a revelation from heaven upon hearing my wish.
Ji Xinxin was ready to accept it as such, but the two Ji Fanyins suddenly converged into the sa person.
TL Note: Fanyin (Vivace) has a more sophisticated tone to it whereas Xinxin (Joyful) sounds a little perfunctory for a na. The Chinese value the significance of their na quite a bit
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