- HAZEL -
It’s been two days, I clench my fingers around the huge pink plushie on my bed, sinking my head into it. It’s so soft. And the best part about it is, it cos with a voice box.
I gently press the collar around the neck of my plushie, which has my na engraved on a golden heart-shaped na tag, and a deep masculine voice plays. It’s Killian’s.
"Hello kitten, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I’m begging you. Please. Forgive . Give a chance to make things right. Take care." Rang in my ears. Every word ca with a sexy growl and that pleased my ears.
In fact, it makes my eyes roll but I’m conflicted. I don’t know if I should accept Killian’s apology or not. Why does he even care? I’m just his student.
Soone walks in. The nurse flashed a smile and checked the condition of my room again before leaving. Killian also made five playlists for . This made giggle. I don’t know how he knows but so of my favourite songs are here.
He made one for my mood swings. One to calm down or make feel at ease. One that makes feel alive and wild. One to aid with sleeping or studying. And the last.... well.... that’s just for to know.
I bit my lower lip.
Killian makes it so hard to hate him. But hey! Anyone can make five playlists and get a plushie and flowers with juice and healthy snacks for to get better! What he did is not special at all! My mind tries to convince .
But the gesture is sweet. And charming and dreamy. My heart is saying sothing else.
I sighed.
At least one of these songs can aid out right now to clear my head. I put on my ear buds. Killian got them for too with this iPad.
Okay, maybe he’s worth not hating.
He sure knows how to get into soone’s head and clear negative energy. But that doesn’t an I have forgotten what he said. It still haunts my mind. Whenever I look at him or even think of him, those words keep pissed. Maybe if I close my eyes and lay down while listening to music, it’ll be different?
I can try.
I lean my head backwards to rest on my pillow, still clutching the plushie on my body and I took a deep breath. I exhale gently, letting the music rule my mind as I try to think of positive things about Killian.
My brows creased.
It’s not working. All I can rember is that day.
"Why are you following , Hazel?" My mind draws back to our conversation in the dark corridor. Killian’s stern tone still sounds graphic in my mind. It’s almost as if it was yesterday.
I rember how he looked at and how terrible it made feel. How I longed for a different gaze or at least pleasing words.
"After one night?"
"One aningless night."
"Darn it. What do you think?"
"You wanted to see for that?"
"This is why I hate ssing with certain girls. Girls like you who can’t distinguish fun from reality."
I gasp. I feel sicker than before and quickly went to Spotify to change the song playing in my ears. I hate rembering those words. But I can’t help it. Whenever I see him, whenever I think of him, it replays in my head like a horror movie.
"Don’t follow . Don’t co to look for . And stay away from , Hazel. I’m not good for you."
A sharp gasp leave my lips and my eyelids slid open.
Fuck this. Fuck this music, Fuck everything in this hospital and in this room and fuck Killian!
I sat up and dipped my hand under my bed, pulling the big gift bag out. I dump my plushie inside and scoff. I can feel my rage coming back to . I don’t like this.
I turn to the side and curl my body under the blanket. My eyes t the plushie. I took it out and my anger died instantly.
But how sweet he can be sotis. How-
That’s where my thoughts ended. I can’t recall any other event where he was nice to . Everything led to him getting too close that we were either doing sothing intimate, or cuddling like when I was on his bed.
Now he wants to give it a try. An actual try. It wouldn’t hurt to-
"Hazel!" Soone screams my na, breaking my reverie. It’s Kate. Of course she always shows up when I’m torn between thoughts.
I stopped caring about this part of the equation the mont I let him see naked in that call. The mont his fingers ruined my core. Again.
I clear my throat. I wonder if I can actually have a true relationship with Kaiden when Killian shows up all the ti. I wonder if Killian really cares or doesn’t want to think about sobody else.
"Hi Kate." I say hoarsely, sitting up.
She stood in front of for a second, soaking in my presence with a raised brow. "You alright? You seem gloomy."
I sigh. "Yeah. Just.." I gave her a aningful stare. "Thoughts." I finally said. She sat by my side.
"Man trouble?" She asks, holding out so notes and a laptop.
"You have no idea."
Kate giggled. "Been there. I go through that all the ti."
My lips form a line. I’m sure she does. She’s with Killian.
"I honestly thought it’ll be different with Kaiden. You guys just t and he seems nice." She looks at . "The bad kind of nice and sweet. The bad that’s good for you."
I fake a smile. It’s not Kaiden. I wish I could say that out loud. I want to. I want to get advice from my best friend but it’s about her fiancé.
I roll my eyes. "If a man I newly t gives problems, I’m leaving faster than I walked in."
Except for him. Killian has done more than give you problems.
Ugh! Why can’t my head not ruin everything with these contradiction?! It’s Kaiden or no one.
I think.
"And that’s why you’re my bestie." Kate puts the laptop on my thighs. "I copied every single note for you and labeled them. I also did your assignnts so be at ease."
"Oh my god!" I breath, not knowing what to say. "How did you-, with all your classes and everything-... oh Kate, thank you!" I breath with relief. She brought her cheek to my face and I kissed it. "You’re the best."
"I know."
I tap her shoulder. "How’s practice?"
"Good. Our ga is in a few days and I’m panicking. Although I’m more than ready. I hope we win."
I put my hands on both her arms. "Girl, look at . You will. Plus, I’ll be cheering you on!"
Kate turned to look at my foot. "Yeah, right, I’ll rember that."
I tsked. "I’ll be at the ga. The doctor says I’m recovering quickly and the cast will go off in a week."
"aning this cast will bring us good luck." She teases.
"It’ll be off two days after the ga anyway. Three at most. I can’t wait to feel my feet again!"
"Mhm." She averts her gaze to her phone.
"I’ll read the notes. Thank you, again."
"Yeah, sure. Anyti." Kate’s attention is divided. I frown. She ca to see ! She SHOULD look at !
"Hey!" I smack her phone gently with my fingers. "Don’t use your phone. Sick human in need for attention here." I point a finger at myself.
"Yeah, I know. I’m texting my mother."
Oh.
"How’s aunt? It’s been forever since I visited. I need to ask mom so we can co over."
Kate was silent again. She’s not listening.
"Kate!"
"Yeah, yeah, that would be fun." She murmurs, keeping her eyes glued to her phone.
"Did you even hear ?"
She snuck a gaze at . "Nope."
My face flattens. This ti, I grabbed her phone. "I said I want to co over. I’ll ask mom so we plan the holidays together."
Kate’s face pales. It didn’t take ti to realise sothing was wrong.
"I don’t think it’s a good ti." She says before I ask. "Sothing popped up in the family. I may need to go back ho soon."
"Really? What’s wrong?"
"She didn’t tell ." Kate sighs and takes her phone from . "She doesn’t want to worry and focus on school work. I just hope no one died."
That’ll be horrible. I really feel bad seeing her sad. I pulled her in for a hug. "If anyone does, I hope it’s your uncle Richard."
Kate shifts back, breaking our hug. She stares at flabbergasted.
I’m just trying to lighten up the mood. "He’s a dick. You don’t even like him."
"Yeah, that’s true. That bachelor can kiss hell." She laughed. I joined her to. Kate’s uncle is horrible, but no matter how horrible soone is, seeing them die really makes you think hard about life.
"Kate," I called, leaning my hand forward to touch hers. I squeeze her palm gently. "If you ever need to talk to soone or feel better, I’m here. Always."
"I know." She breath shakily. "Okay, let’s change the subject, I don’t want to panic." For her to panic, I can actually tell there must be a lot she’s aware of that she’s not telling . I’m starting to feel like I’ve been stuck up in my world for so long and I’ve neglected her. I hate that. I hate not being a best friend to the one I care about the most.
"In that case, Kaiden and I are going for a date." I squealed.
Her face lit up imdiately. "Wait really? When? I’m so excited!" She bead.
"I’m not sure yet. But, I may need to do so shopping."
She made a face. "Ugh, what a ti to have a cast."
"I know right. Good thing it’ll be off in a week!"
"Yeah. Geez, I literally need to get all the details when you hit it off." She stuck her tongue out, flicking it up and down.
"No way will we go that far on a first date."
Kate grinned. "First ti?"
I snickered and tap her shoulder. "Who knows? The second date might be a double date." Now she’s dancing on my bed. "Oh my God, yes! A double date!"
Wait what?
"That’ll be great. Think about it, Hazel. You, , Kaiden," She raised her brows up and down quickly, flashing a smile when she uttered his na. "And Killian."
I almost choked.
"After the first date, text . I definitely need to get my mind off everything and know your potential boyfriend."
"Slow down, we haven’t even had the first date yet."
"But you will."
"Yes we will." I groan. "Okay, I cave. Let’s have this double date but it must be after I get his silly cast off." I think the bigger problem is convincing Kaiden, a man I just t, to go on a double date with . It’s so hard to. I don’t want to co off as pushy. But Kate will do the sa for if I requested it. She wouldn’t even think twice if she were in my shoes.
"Yes! I’ll make plans for it after the ga. Get him to love you so much on the first date that he wouldn’t refuse this one."
I giggle nervously. "I’ll do my best."
"And to make it better, instead of so restaurant or amusent park or aquarium, it should have this comfy ho setting. Like movie night over snacks or casino gas then movie night. Just sothing exclusive and fun which gives us ti to enjoy ourselves individually, as a couple and vibe like normal people."
"Woah, you’re moving too fast Kate, slow down." It’s just been a few seconds and she already has plans for sothing that hasn’t even kick started yet. And is she crazy? Does she want Kaiden to know she’s dating our Professor? What the fuck?
"Nothing’s too fast for a lady who’s been in ugly clothes on a hospital bed, sweetie. I’m sure you wouldn’t have watched porn or masturbated by then, so yes, the plan is worth it."
I gasp. "Okay, hold up, who said anything about that?" I sat up straighter than before. "In my defence, no one knows what’ll happen in the future."
She gave a look that said ’seriously?’. "Honey, I know you. You’re the horniest lady I know, and there’s no way you want to tell you’ve never felt like letting soone tap that."
"This conversation is too inappropriate for teenagers. Kate out of my room." I blurt out, trying to avoid it.
She’s not lying. I can’t stay in this room alone at day without soone barging in and I can’t do anything at night without worrying about my foot.
Kate laughs. "This just proved my point." She cups my cheek and pulls out. "I’ll catch you later, Hazelnut. Don’t back out of the agreent. Date him and-" She ford the letter ’o’ with her fingers and stuck two fingers of her other hand together then moved it in and out of the ’o’.
"Geez, Kate! Go!" I yell. I’m not annoyed or anything. In fact, I find this conversation amusing and so like Kate. I just don’t want to have it in a hospital. What if sothing happens and the CCTVs need to be watched?
What if soone is listening to us right now?
Not that I care. I’m just glad to see the sadness off her face.
"I love you!" I yell before she leaves.
"Love you too sweetheart. Recover nicely and don’t forget to bone!" Kate bolted. I stare at the laptop on my legs then back at the door.
She does have a point. I desperately need to be fucked. In the worst way possible.
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