- KILLIAN -
I shouldn’t be jealous but I am. I won’t even deny it.
It’s not news to that I’m interested in this girl, I know I care about her way more than I should.
I know she’s not mine but seeing her calm and comfortable with a man has on an edge. It’s unbearable. Especially after last night.
I felt my finger nails graze the skin of my palm and I quickly dip my hand into my pocket to play with my zippo.
It helps relax. At least just for a little bit till my eyes lock with hers again.
Fuck. Fuck!
Everyti I look at her, I see the blonde and it pisses off. I want her by my side. Not with another.
I blew the whistle. "Everyone keep practicing. Coach Lizzie will take over now. I have sothing to do." I say. My head is everywhere but in the ga. I won’t be able to coach anything while thinking like this.
Lizzie imdiately popped up from behind and started barking orders.
I took a deep breath and exhaled through my mouth, exiting through the other part of the field where she’s not at.
"Professor Killian!" Hazel yells my na. I could stop to turn to her but I don’t want to. I’m too annoyed to see her right now and I’d hate to do sothing irrational so I kept walking. A vibration in my pocket caught my attention. I dip my hand in to pick my phone. It’s Liam.
This better be good news.
The call ended before I could pick up followed by the missed call notification.
’Give a minute, I’ll call you back." I texted Liam. I sighed, staring at the screen, waiting for a response, while walking. That’s when a ssage notification pops on my screen. It’s not Liam but Asami.
’I have sothing to tell you and you’re not going to like this.’ It read.
A groan slips out of my mouth as I pocket my phone. Which spot in this school can I have a deep conversation without being heard? Definitely not in my office.
- HAZEL -
I rember calling his na but he didn’t answer . Maybe he didn’t hear .
I look around, hoping to get a sight of him on the field but he’s not here. My fingers play with each other nervously. I really wish he was.
I still can’t shake off the thought that he’s pissed about sothing I did that I’m not aware of.
"Here. Rich in protein and calcium yet sweet enough to make your mouth water." Kaiden says, handing a cup.
"You sure are working hard just to get to know my na. I’m flattered."
He takes my hand in his, stopping from pinching them to sourness, and places a gentle kiss. "Oh, I want more than that if you’d let . I’m just being patient." Kaiden kept his eyes on while saying this and this just made my heart race faster by fifty percent.
Am I kidding? A hundred percent! I don’t even know how.
That was flirting, right? I drag my hand away. "Now remind why you’re here again, Kaiden Crest." I tease, placing my lips at the opening of the cup to take a sip.
"I told you, to see my little sister." He put a leg on the bench, beside my thigh and leans his head forward. That caused to hold my breath. "But I ended up finding sothing way more interesting."
I can’t breathe. His face is so close to mine. My eyes widens as he smirks.
"You’re pretty when you’re nervous." Kaiden chuckles and moves away from . I finally have ti to catch my breath.
My eyelids flicker open and close continuously. Is it just or is it getting hotter here? I an, I’m directly in the sun but geez!
"I think I’ll head out for a bit. I want to et my professor." I say to him, getting up.
"Do you want to take you?" He asks.
And risk you doing sothing that makes my heart want to stop? No way.
"No, I’m fine." I say. The mont my foot touched the ground, I started to rethink my decision.
Kaiden stood there with a sly grin like he anticipated this. Haha, very funny.
I made a face. "A hand won’t hurt." I say, grudgingly.
"Thought you’d never ask, locker girl." I roll my eyes. That na is getting old.
"It’s Hazel. Call Hazel." I snap. Kaiden places my arm over his shoulder and puts my foot on his.
"Hazel, nice na." His gaze darkens and his voice deepens when he says that. For a second, it made feel uneasy. I feel bad for him though. I don’t know where the person I want to et is but I do know I’ll search every single spot in this university till I find him so Kaiden is in for a long walk.
After all, he offered.
*
I have been everywhere but Killian is nowhere. It’s infuriating! How hard can it be to find soone you want to find so much?
I barely know a lot of places here but it’s almost like Killian doesn’t want to be found. I glance at my side to gaze at Kaiden.
"I’m sorry, I never expected the walk to be this long." That’s a lie but I’m truly concerned about him. He’s carrying my weight with his. That’s double the stress.
"It’s okay. Anything for you."
My brows creased. When he throws lines like that at females, who wouldn’t fall for him? I wouldn’t. I’ve already fallen for soone else and this ti, I want to be intentional. At least, I want him to be too.
I’m young but not young enough to not know when I’m taking a risk. If I want to dive into whatever Killian and I have, I need to know he is on the sa page as . I bit my lip.
After last night... after yesterday, I think he is.
This made my lips curl. While making my way through the hallway, leading to many classes, I sight the dark corridor at the side, between two walls. It’s the other one that leads to the girl’s locker room. We ladies rumoured it as the forgotten path for fun but it is kind of true. Who on earth wants to be in there?
. It’s a short cut. "Kaiden, give a second, I want to grab sothing real quick."
"Yeah, sure. Don’t break a leg." He snickers.
That made glare at him. My ankle hurts, but it’s not the end of the world. Yet.
I take gentle, careful steps towards the corridor, leading to the girl’s locker room. By the scent of this place, I can tell why it’s been deserted. It reeks of dust. I think cleaners are ant to tidy this place even though it’s barely used.
I roll my eyes, touching the wall for support. The lights are not fixed and the corridor is kind of dark which makes question my choices but it’s a short cut.
I look back at the path I walked in from. Kaiden is leaning on the wall, at that edge.
A heavy sigh left my lips. I may just be paranoid. I roll my eyes and continue walking in. A door catches my attention. That’s the one I’m looking for! Yes!
I push it open and it leads to the girl’s locker room.
That was easy. I always thought it’ll be clustered with cob webs or the door would be half broke or bad from the outside but I guess it was all in my mind. I walk to my locker, opened it and pack all my things into my bag. I won’t need to be here anymore after practice anyway.
With a last thorough run through of my things, I slam my locker and walk out. That’s when I heard voices.
The voices was eerie and it makes question my choice to go out the sa way I ca in.
I can pass the main entrance but that’ll an I have to walk around to et with Kaiden. I don’t even have his number to give him a heads up. Maybe he’s the one speaking. Maybe he ca to look for .
I left and close the door gently, trying to be as quiet as I can with my movent.
"That will be the last of this conversation I want to hear. Fix it. I give you three days." Echoed in the corridor. This gave goosebumps. I would never miss that voice for anything in the world because I’ve heard it countless tis. It’s Killian’s.
My brows crease. I don’t know if I should follow it or just keep going my way. I was looking for him anyway.
A yell made my body jerk in terror. Killian was speaking in a different tongue. I don’t know what is happening but hearing him sound this harsh and angry is creeping out. I don’t think I want to see him this way.
I took a step forward and shrieked. My ankle twisted and I bumped into soone. That gave a jump scare.
Killian’s form ca into sight. Although the corridor was dark, I could see his facial features and eyes. He looked at with a condescending gaze.
That ripped my heart in pieces. I gasped, stumbling back while trying to be cautious with my foot movent, it’s aching more than before.
"Oh little Hazel, be careful where you wander off to. Be careful of the things you hear, you could get hurt." Killian said, moving to .
I swallow, feeling intimidated. What is he doing? Didn’t he notice fall back a little? Why isn’t he being gentle or showing so kind of compassion? My leg hurts.
I try to move back. What does he even an by what he said? My breath hitched as I try to speak. Despite him looking very dangerous, he also looks domineering and that is hot.
"Killian, you’re scaring ." I whisper under my breath. He’s not backing off. I don’t know which direction of the corridor I’m headed but I know I’m moving further away from the light source, where I ca in through.
"Why do I care anyway?" Killian ask, keeping his eyes on . I don’t think he’s responding to what I said. "Why are you following , Hazel?"
"I’m not." I squeak. My back slams on a wall. "I just wanted to see you."
He tutters, standing in front of . "After one night?"
My brows creased. Is he referring to yesterday? Why does he sound so cold.
"One aningless night." That made my heart sink. I didn’t take it as aningless. I thought we had a connection but I guess I was wrong.
"Do you really think so?" I whisper, blinking the tears forming in my eyes. He can’t see my face through the darkness and I’m glad about that. "Did it an nothing to you?" My voice is strained. I desperately want to hear that it didn’t.
I want Killian to say he was joking or was just kidding around with .
Please, Killian, laugh and put your arms around and tell you’re teasing. My throat creased.
"Darn it. What do you think?" He whispers back. He was quiet for a few seconds and huffed. "You wanted to see for that?" His voice is sterner. "This is why I hate ssing with certain girls. Girls like you who can’t distinguish fun from reality."
That broke . Fun? Is that all I am to him?
I sniff. I feel sick.
Of course it was for fun, why did I think differently? He’s engaged. He has referred to as stupid before. Of course I was just ant for fun.
Were the things he said in the loo just to get to let him touch ? For his fun?
This breaks my heart in a way I never imagined it will. I thought I could let go of him before but he made believe I shouldn’t. He made think he cared.
Or did he? I was the one who texted for my gain.
"Was that all it was for you?" I already know the answer but my heart yearns for sothing different. Why is he being an to all of a sudden? Why did I think one intimate video call ant anything? He’s a man who slept with on the first night we t.
"Don’t follow . Don’t co to look for . And stay away from , Hazel. I’m not good for you." Killian walked away, leaving alone in the darkness he put in.
Tears tickle down my cheeks and I wipe it off with a lazy finger, looking up.
Why was he so cold? What did I ever do? Why was he so confusing? Why do I keep eting the wrong n?
I sigh and wipe my tears. I need to et with Kaiden.
My leg hurts even more so I limp forward. Is this Killian’s way of telling he doesn’t want to be with at all?
"Hazel, are you okay?" Kaiden gasped the mont he saw , rushing to et . He took my bag from and raised up. Why are you crying? What did you see?
"I fell." I said. "I know how childish this makes but-"
"Shh, shh, shh." Kaiden hushed . "It’s not childish. You fell with a hurt ankle." A thumb wipes across my cheeks. "Don’t cry. I’ll take you to a doctor."
"Don’t I have to book an appointnt first for that?"
He flashes a confident smile. "I’m a Crest."
That gives an answer alright. Touché.
"Kaiden.." I call silently. "Why are you nice to ? Am I not repulsive?" And cheap. At least Killian makes feel this way. He cos and goes. Shows concern then acts indifferent again for no reason. And we barely know each other. I haven’t even gotten to know him yet.
"Because you seem like soone who needs protection."
I do?
"Cliché answer." I giggle.
"Maybe. But you do. Your foot, the way you waltzed into the n’s room."
That was by accident.
"You’re clumsy in a cute way. It is very interesting."
"What happens when the match is over? Let’s say your sister wins."
"I’m not leaving. Even if I wanted to before, not anymore." Kaiden looks down at . A half grin forms on his face. "I can’t leave little Hazel all by herself. Walking will be a disaster."
That made smile. "Why, thank you." I giggled.
"My pleasure."
It beca silent between us. Kaiden made smile when Killian didn’t. He seems like everything Killian is not.
I glance at my feet. Why wait around for one man to be man enough to be intentional about when I can have another? I’m sick of knowing about one night mistakes.
Maybe it’s ti to pursue soone new.
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